Fun with Ohana :)

HELLOOOO. Went for the YEB Pot Luck last night. I was late for the meeting cuz I was taking an awesome getaway to Slumberland and got carried away, pffsh, oh well. The pot luck went alright, Koji's sushi was daaa booombb!!!!! Me and Sze Yuin kap qian for Canadian Pizza, RM 40 per person :O But that's okay. Then Joey made Macarons!! (p.s. it's macarons, not macaroooons hehe). After watching a while of The Great Gatsby, I left along with Sze Yuin. I went to meet Mei and helped her pack instead.

I feel a tad bit heavy hearted that she's leaving, I honestly wish she wasn't. Because life with her and S around definitely made my days much better, filled much more with hope. As dramatic as it sounds, believe it or not ;) hehe. But if it's for the best for her, definitely I'd encourage her. But that's ok, we'll be friends forever < 3 love her to bits.

So anyway, I think that simplicity, is really the bomb. Haha. But yeah. I feel like it's definitely good to expect, expect good things/good results at the end of everything you do, so you do your best. It's definitely good to aim for the stars, but along the way, you never know if the result is the best because whatever that eventually happens, there's always something that tops it. So you just gotta look back, and see if you've done your best, and then cheerrioz to the results then review the mistakes, and do better in the future.*

Sometimes a person gets carried away with ego and what they should actually receive. Every extent of the results are measured so meticulously, to match with the 'inner ego'. So whenever they attend activities, they expect to be blown away, and feel disappointed when there are only little progress here and there. With everything that happens though, every little progress, every simple meeting, there's always always, always something to learn, something to gain. And often, it's very subtle. You'd have to narrow the complex mindset to see the clearer picture, hidden along the lines of complex thoughts, but actually is just clearly there, just ambiguously clouded by those thoughts.

I feel it's important to lower yourself, and always yearn to have a heart of humility in whatever you do - as what many people often say. If you always think that you're better than others, you're never gonna gain or learn. You should always have an open heart in whatever circumstances, be ready to take in and receive things as they are, and learn. Instead of judging instantly with an egoistic attitude. This is so damn hard, but I suppose it's pretty crucial.

Anyway, I met up with mum and dad and bro today and we went to Village Roast Duck all the way at Bangsar Village. Damn, they serve the most savouring food. It was soooo good! Really good. Partly cuz we were really hungry as well, so every taste we savoured was each bit of heaven on earth ;) Time with ohana is always great and fun! There's so much more complications to life now though I feel. I constantly have to make my own decisions, think my own thoughts, listen to what people say but filter them with my own judgment instead.. It's tough, and it gets tiring after a while. I just gotta get used to it, and always make the right decision. Actually, not the right one, but the best one in terms of weighing both sides of the coin.

Things-to-do list:

STUDY HARD

FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT TO DO

TAKE A CHILL PILL

PRAY AND DO DEVOTION

HAVE FAITH

TAKE A CHILL PILL

tata signing off xx

93 million miles

"Should I stumble again, still i'm caught in your grace.

Went to Jojo's again today. I met Michelle! Finally had a chance to carry on a longer conversation with her. :D yay!! okay, so much stuff to do now, I'm gonna make a to-do-list now, tata ;)

P.S.: www.jasonmraz.com/journal/2013/the-benefits-of-a-happy-ending/ Good read :)

P.P.S: Beautiful and relatable song about home! :D

I really love Jason Mraz now, should've stalked him earlier, 

beautiful lyrics! :) 

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#KKlove

YAAAYYY! :D :D :D
Today was the last paper of trials, which was Psychology. I started revising at around 11pm, and stayed up all the way till 6a.m., before hitting the sheets hoping to reenergize myself for a bit before the 12.30pm paper. I slept, opened my eyes and it was 8.18 a.m., and I couldn't fall back to sleep. My alarms were initially set at 9.30 - 10.30 a.m., but the caffeine rush was still spiraling in my abdomen. My mind was still viable and up pumping, tho the weariness slowly hits me and my eyes, but I just couldn't fall asleep. Ahhh, so this is what caffeine is actually capable of, cuz I used to think that I was immune to it. I didn't know the butterflies, anxiety etc was the effects of having caffeine in your system (: So yeah, I practically went through everything, close, I read through them, though not memorizing every bit I read, but I suppose it's one of the best preparation in this trial. Too bad though, the paper was a tad bit tricky than usual, but it's good to drive me to work harder. I want to get an A*. Haha, I don't know if it's possible, but that's what I am aiming for ;) Cuz in life, you just gotta aim for the heavens girl.

Went to One Utama with Sarah, Tasha and Larson after that. Oh and we went to Jojo's yesterday, and walked back home :) my first street walk in KL! We had Chilli's as our late lunch (3++pm), bought my Mac Cover for RM 99. Sar said I should learn to decide on my own, and I will (: Then we walked around for a bit. Oh and Sar and Tash bought these beautiful shoes - high top for RM 288 (initial price was RM360) from Aldos, just like Sze Yuin's! :) I'm just gonna pray for a miracle to happen so that I can own a pair too! :D they're gorgeous :'( Hehe.

Then I went home and crashed till 8.30pm, which was when S called me. We went and met up with Gerald for dinner. Oh and I got Sar to buy Outliers. Ngeheheh. The 'book syndrome'. I hope she really enjoys it though. Oh so yeah, back to dinner. It was a lovely day spent with warm company, infatuated with KK love. Everything was simple and easy. And it was lovely to spend time with Larson. I don't think I've ever spoken to him as much before, he's actually funny. hahaha. And well, KK love all the way.

Simplicity at its best! < 3

*  I've been chatting with Jie and Vikki and Jie (she only placed order two days ago -.-, but thank you :) ). And it's been lovely and warm! There's so many nice people around. Especially in KK. I think that people there are just amazing. I hope the people here are as nice too, I suppose there are, just go with the flow and it'll come. :) I'm so blessed! And reminiscing into the past of who I was, it sorta drives me to be confident and yeah, the oomph! is there. :D hehe. I'm just gonna clarify this, "I am, CHRISTABELLE YAP."  ok remember that. yep.

Happy birthday to my lovely Cicak, Pie and Crystal Bii! :) Some beautiful people that also make my world go round :) < 3

Oh and meeting mummy and daddy soon, and going home again soon :) so glad Jie understands! I'm sure Vikki does too :) and Indupo :) Can't wait for awesome pot luck too, thanks you home for being so good :'(

I shall post about Xuan and 100m soon! I'm gonna go watch PLL now, I'm just soooo exciiitteeedddd!!! *squeals!!!!!* (Sophia Grace ^.^) Hehe. Signing off, xx.

facial hair

"Hey! Please don't stop loving me. :D (m) < 3" 

"HAHAHA sakai. Don't worry. ;) You too haha :)"

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Heylloooo world! So today had Law Paper 2 and Maths Paper 6. Today is a Tuesday, and the previous paper was Psychology on Friday. So basically, we have one weekend off and another Monday off, which gives us ample of time for revision. The plan however backfired once again, as the weekend was spent just like that, and I didn't do much for law revision. This is my first time going to an exam so unprepared, (maybe i've experienced this in high school too, but i can't recall now.) but, if specifically, this is the first in college. And for goodness' sake, it's Law Paper. So I took short naps during midnight, woke up for like a couple of minutes before dozing off again. It repeated quite a few times... bad bad. haha. Anyway,  I'm just so relieved that I got it over with!! whewwz.

After that, me, Tasha and Sarah went grocery shopping before placing RM 150 deposit for the movie theatre. Then we went back respectively, and I was giving my blog a new makeover! I hope you like it, cuz i do!! :P It's so much more real to what I want in my head, with pictures of my life all over =) and some music, i'll turn it off after it while, since it gets annoying sometimes.

I surfed the net till around 7pm, showered, went to Subway with Tash, grabbed junk then settled into the cinema with Parental Guidance! It was pretty entertaining, and I definitely encourage more of this hangout :) "Ahh, when you get older, the floor gets lower," Though I fail to understand the logic at some parts, it was good overall. Chilled with Tash by the pool and we chatted about boys, proposals, weddings, feelings, poo, 'best friend!', family, gifts, dancing, tv shows, PLL, weights etc. It was close to 11.30 when Maddie popped out of nowhere. Had a short chat before going off to Bestari till like 12.30++.

3 things:
- Facial hair, speech / verbal skills, intellect
- Big eyes, bubbly, being weird
- Height, big heart, optimism

3 thangs:
- Lack of ability to cope with problems, lack of patience with complacency, lack Indian 'essence' :P
- Giving in too easily, being clumsy, being the baby of the family
- Life sucks, being weak where the stronger side is being overshadowed (just a bit!), can't sing!!

"I hate to be weak when I know that I am a strong, I can be stronger," 
"You are strong" "Yep, you are"

- Lame "I laugh you" and "owl" jokes
- Red velvet cake! weeeeeEEEEEeeeee

Oh and since the other juicy convo I had with 100m partner, the topic of my 'best friend' was brought up, which incurred my urge to FB msg her and chat with her about life. I asked what 'working hard' really means. She said that there isn't much to that meaning, just the usual 'Work Hard' kind of thing. Study hard, focus on your priorities and commitments.
"Be a nice, helpful daughter and be a kind friend."
"what's important now is that you have fun and study hard and work hard and keep on going. eventually any feelings that "poke" you here and there will extinguish by itself. I know it may be hard to believe, but its true!" #bestfriends #ftw

p.s. :Even though I encourage her to do what's best for her, I don't want her to leave. :(

p.p.s.: I'm quite a fastidious eater when it comes to exam periods. I get fussy, picky, weight conscious etc and I'm full of crap. #justsaying

Anyway, I've decided to study hard for Psychology Paper 1 on Thursday. Some say when you do well, it is a tangible reminder that success is possible and attainable :) #motivationshiz Will kickstart the day tomorrow by an early Zumba, might meet up with Gor in Midvalley or so :)

Happy birthday lil rascal ;

:D

#InnocentRomantic

Heyllo!! I had an interesting moment chatting with 100m partner on the Friday. Yesterday was such a relaxing day. Spent my time in bed till around noon time, chilled with Kenji till 1pm, and hung around the gym till around 2.30++. Did workouts from Nike Training, interesting app it was!! :D Then chilled in the mall, checked out the book fair next to One Ton mee, got (it's amazing!!! :O) till around 6++, went to take a dip in the pool, read a bit of Life of Pi, went home and grilled some sotong cooked corn soup with rice, watched videos till 9++, watched Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps since it's in relation to Economics, then went to bed. Woke up for church, went for lunch, took a 3 hours nap, bought Coffee Bean and a book for B, vacuumed and showered till round 8pm, chilled again till now. haha. I'm just gonna wait for the caffeine rush to fade away, sighs.

love you boolie! :D and ma homiez back at home. < 3



Speaking of which, I was chatting with Adren and I realised that I LOVE challenges! I'd love to do Mount K again!! :D cuzizhidaoican. He was telling me that he's doing a double degree of Law and Commerce. Thinking about it, I'd love to do something like that too. Cuz I feel like out of everything you do, there's always something to gain. I find lazy to wake up early isn't a good enough reason, it's such a persuasive excuse to pull your energy down low though, but if I just wake up early and start doing something, I'm always amazed by the many many unexpected things that could be done! I loved waking up early and go to school and just chill with my friends, such amazing time! :O Not to be over-exaggerating, but it's true, it makes me feel so content! Adren told me that he's tutoring kids, and I'm so excited about that too!! haha. Cuz I use to teach invisible souls at home in heels, and I'd really love to teach kids one day! I'm excited for the day that I can start my part-time job, whatever it may be, I'd like to have a taste of earning my own $$$ :D. There's just so many many more people out there to meet, so many things to do, so many more things to learn, so much more unexperienced emotions and feelings! It's really amazing how this world has to offer, right, New Year's Resolution!!!

I went to church today and met a girl named Jovita, and as we were chatting, she brought up the idea of taking me to dancing classes! im soooo excited! gosh. have you met Sophia Grace from Ellen Degeneres? Check out her videos, i'm just as ecstatic as how she always is! AHHHH *squeaks!!!* I was just telling B how i really like dancing, but I'm bad at it, but I plan to work on it in the future! Thinking about it now, why can't I do it now? It's ridiculous right? But well, I will work harder on that I promise :D Im so excited!! the delusion hahah. probably it's cuz of the caffeine too.

It was a bad experience, I'll say, but there's always something to gain from everything that happens. Feeling solitary sometimes, I guess I shouldn't, cuz there's much more to life than dwelling in it. I've been watching movies, checking out other people's lives etc, and usually the people they are tied to, they meet just sometimes later in life! Say work, university, community service, a friend's acquaintance, church meetings, or even on a flight! It's gotta be ok i shall assure myself :P haha meanwhile, I just gotta do what I love, and expand to my maximum stretch, I have faith that things will slowly fall into place. (: that's when I always feel the happiest. (: I love being busy! It drives me to do many many more things much better, so yeah, after AS, life's gonna change ;) < 3

*Anyway, I wish Mei isn't leaving, I'd miss her so much!!! A great companion she has been, such a sweet and lovely young lady :) I understand B now.

thank you daddy God for everthing, :)

tho i'm about to puke crap now ewww > . <

#californiakingbed

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A Million Lives

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Hello world! These few days have been pretty rich and fruitful! Well, after getting back, thoughts of spending the one week was with hardcore and endless revision (maybe not endless, it never happens :P) The initial plan however backfired :( it was soooooo hard to get my head in the game, I often ended up sleeping with the light still on, hoping that I'd magically wake up from my 'nap'. pffffssssshhhh @#$%$#@  There was council meeting on Wednesday. Then I was about to start revision on Thursday, but then we went and met up with Eeling instead. Then on Friday was..... *drumrolls* WILLIE BOOBIE'S BIRTHDAY! (let the boobies reunite eheheh... lol)



Oh and I shall elaborate ;) :P Sooo.. Met Paula, Peg, Dav and Joyce! It was sweet meeting them again especially Paula and Peg. :) Caught up with Peg a bit, she lost weight! :O I feel that she's such a strong lady, and I don't think I'd be able to cope as well as she is now if I were in her place. She's so optimistic and has such strong faith, I'm truly deeply moved. Such an inspiration. And thinking back, she's grown so much from the girl I got to know in High School, how we got closer last year abt going to youth, further studies, studying for SPM etc, to the girl she is now. I just want to tell her to stay strong and keep it up!!! looooaaadddsssss of luuubbb girl < 3

I feel so blessed that I have a close group of pals, who are there. I won't say whether they are always there or not, cuz it doesn't matter that much and i honestly don't know :P haha. But yes, I'm grateful! Have been communicating voice msgs with Bubz, Skyped with indupo today, had chats with Cedric and Jie over the days, as well as Sarah and bollie, also with Tasha, met up with Eeling, and the warm 'reunion - birthday party' two nights ago, chatted with Crystal just now and also Nas now. I feel blessed. hahahaha.

:)

Listening to - 'Till My Heart Stops Beating'

Hello world! Yesterday and the day before were such great days. I feel so so so so blessed. I don't know why the sudden, but I'm just grateful for all that I have right now, despite me not being able to study which im actually freakin' out deep down inside (but i will try harder, i will) Thank you daddy God!! < 3

smth me and ay shared a while ago.
hahah awkward coincidence :P

The day before I was chatting with ay and sar about things.. It was actually a good start to studying! like FINALLY!!! I was fiddling through law, then ay chatted with me for a bit, i actually thought abt it during the shower, i had stuff that i wanted to share with ay, then ngam ngam ay looked for me in whatsapp and there goes a chat~ Then i was chatting with sar and we went into deep stuff as well.

Spent yesterday afternoon in the library. Chatted with Adeeb, Ricky, Adam abt badminton, gave Maddie a hug for the amazeballs results!! Last night was our final meet up before Eeling's leave to the USA. It was definitely a great meet-up. Eeling shared stories, we took lots of Polaroid. :) < 3 love you girl!!! super much.

It definitely is great to feel appreciated, to have someone appreciate you for who you truly are, and even have people asking you not to change the way you are? Damn, it's so amazing. I was doubtful of myself, uncertain of the future, I was seriously, in doubt of myself. So to have replies as such, I just feel oh so grateful and appreciated. Lil things do come a long way in life, and I feel like it's so amazing to be able to touch people's lives by just small acts. Ay said that he respects me for who I am, he claims that I am a badass and says that I'm prefect, so just be me. shuccckss :'(

Last night as me and Sar were cabbing home, I was in the midst of whatsappin' Cass, she said "Thank you." I was like "for what?" "For this. For everything. And for being you." Now that's one of the most rewarding statement to ever receive. I feel like it is definitely a privilege to be able to be original, to be you.

Sometimes, giving can be tiring, but then if it's capable of a turnover in a person's life, to build that person up just by a pinch, give them a boost of self-esteem, why not guys?

People say that you should always be grateful,
cuz what you have now is something you wished you'd have before.
But people are just cravin' for more.
And also this quote above.
So true, but sometimes it just feels so dramatic to actually live by this quote,
and people start ignoring it.
It's so true though,
if only everyone in the world lived by this quote,
so many more people would be dreaming of rainbows and unicorns now.
Seriously people, be grateful, be nice ;)

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:)

*Cheers to many more good days to come! Fighting in trials ;)

my heart, just died for a while.

http://celebrity-gossip.net/teen-choice-awards-2013/lea-michele-remembers-cory-monteith-2013-teen-choice-awards-904970

stay strong beautiful lady.

back to skewl -- #throwback

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Hello!

Took the 7am flight out, slept through the whole flight, took a train and cab, went home and napped for 2.5 hours, waking up to the pungent and noisome smell of the fridge, which was accidentally switched off and caused the chicken, sotong, fruits to rot and the decay in my effin' refrigerator in my studio apartment. eeeeeekz! the smell is so icky that it literally stabbed my nostrils like the sharpest spears and got me suffocating yo. Anyways, went out for the RM 40 lunch :O, went back resumed cleaning, slept again for like two hours?, then got up shower makan sikit chatted with ay, anna, lazed around and here I am. I can't wait to sleep again, i'm just so dead tired. >.<

here are some photos! :) enjooyyy~

coffee bean break! got me teary and late to youth pffssshh@#$% hahah

Alfred and my big big face!
"Remember your priorities"
"Pray and listen to that still small voice in you. :)"
:)

DEEERRRPIIINNAAA!!! < 3

my and ma gals preppin' for Aaron's b'day surprise :)

Creativity in reusing as a rain cap. > :)

It was supposed to be Puyol. lulz.
Puyul sounds.... dumb hahah :P

And you're legally eighteen, Puyul ;)

cheeeseee with aweshum teeeeth < 3

And he just couldn't stop smiling that way that night.
hahahha.

ngawngawngaw im gonna miss you loads loads loads hot momma!
it's the party in the usa ;)

besh-fwen. *peace*
we've been through so much oh. so much o.o
:)

Ah Chaizai stalking me after the amazeballsaweshum night war. -.-

On our train back. I look retarded ;P

it's only, Saturday :)

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my silly rash :O
and oh how fat i've gone > . <

Hey all, got back from the beserk Night War which lasted over 12 hours non-stop. Haha this is hilarious. When it was written 'War Begins' at 5pm, and 'War Ends' at 8am, I thought it was Zack trying to simplify the whole schedule, little did I know that it was that real. Lol. A bunch of Xiao people came, Fiona and Lyjc too! and we were all in Team Orange. Chai, Steven, CYC, Leong came like just like they did previously. I was up and going for the first few rounds, but got rashes on my thigh, got it burning my skin, and I 'died' next, and stopped fighting. I chilled around with Aaron, jie, aubili, chai at the playground. Eeling, seol, celine, petra were there, here and there.



* I feel like shit that I screwed up seol's emotions. I just wish it didn't. and that mind games stop itself from screwing his emotions, cuz basically everything's still the same. the mind could only be so detrimental till everything seems like the end of the world, where realistically, nothing has changed.

randoom piccaass.. Look at what Aaron's doing =.=

* I chatted with ay about how he's such a tough nut to crack and also about letting go things that got him angry. bits and pieces. friendlessness, insecurity, life sucks, why are we everyone's pick-ons, stupid war game with uptight kids, screw fitting in etc, the list goes on. Life isn't that bad, I hope he could see it and really believe it. Sometimes I'd compare it with myself in my head, which is something I dreadfully don't want to do. But right now at this point, I just feel compressed and feel like I have so much more on me rather. But ok, I'm not gonna continue do this, tho I just did the unwanted. We both have it heavy on our plate, we just gotta toughen up and not let it weigh down our hearts.

He told me that when somebody stops liking someone, that person appears less beautiful than the goddess he once was infatuated with. It could go extreme, to the extent of even being ugly, lulz. I asked if L'd find me less beautiful, which was actually just the surface of the tons of confused and boiling emotions inside. I don't think he properly answered me anyway, as he always seems so off-side. Idk, I was prepared not to raise my hopes too high anyway. But I'm still grateful!! :)

When me and Aubili went for our sleep at friggin' 4 am in the morning, I remember ay saying 'Hey,' while resting his arm on my knees. He let go afterwards, sitting down facing down. We made small chats, which I don't remember now. And the second event was when the final war that i bloody missed ended, he came and sat next to me (both of us were asleep), and patted me on my head, pulled my shirt over my skin that was showing and we chatted casual stuff like usual. He was so friggin' happy with his time spent with Petz, and thanked me for asking him to initiate things. I'm happy that he's happy :)

Anyway, he was such an ass and bitch to call for defense when I intended go solo on the attacks. But a 'sweetie pie' to "encourage" me to resolve my sudden urge of cursing lol, i'm sorry >.<

* Idk where I stand in his heart for now. He ceasing caring for me, even the lil things. It's pretty saddening to be honest. I feel numb tho. It feels like everything is just working on the surface, but my heart remains numb underneath that layer. I can't feel heartstab, or heavy hearts. I instead feel like effin' turnado swirl in my abdomen. Geez, I've gotta stop the intake of caffeine or lime or whatsoever that sends me the twirl of emotions that I just can't get control of. I exchanged my shoes for his slippers! #justsaying lol. Hmm. Ay asked me to go all out with confrontation etc. I doubt that I'm ever gonna do that lul. Cuz I don't know what I want as well, so I don't wanna commit into things that I'm unsure of.

I don't know what to do, whether I should keep hoping and nurturing this relationship, or should I let go and look forward? I screen through news about celebrity couples, see couples everywhere in real life, and think to myself that these people met their soul mates often during the most unexpected incident. I'm not sure if I should believe it to be that way, or just, you know, work on things btw me and L.

I actually was dry with hope for the relationship stuff, and only opt for full blast on our so-called GOOD frienship. Ay gave me hope, saying that he said that I'd still stand a chance. I don't know if I'd be the girl he first fell in love with, and will always be in love with. Or I'm the girl he first fell in love with, got over it and realised it wasn't love at all. The future is so damn uncertain. I've got to get my faith restored *fingers crossed*

We chatted last night a bit, the casual stuff, and he said we should talk about things btw us when I asked about his 'story'. I reminded him that I told him that we don't have time, he simply agreed.

Note to self: Screw this shit, i'm not fuckin' perfect. damn it.

* I told Jie all about it, hahahah, he feels a tad bit like a better listener, compared to aubili and ay :P haha. Wonderful guy he is, great blessings I have. 

* I simply resent the bitter feeling I get every time I ought to leave home. I'm a weirdo. Everyday I am in KL, I simply get over every day like it is, as as each day passes, it is always a day closer to home! When I'm home tho, I do the impossible and expect time to freeeeeezzzeeee, wishing for unlimited time in home. Listen to the still small voice of request in me, can i stay here forever please? 

Speaking of which, I remember back in Primary 2, how that fear just overwhelmingly took control over my thoughts and emotions, how I dreaded going back to school on a Sunday night, crying and telling my mum "Mummy, I don't want to grow up. I really really don't want to." Times have changed of course, I've grown, but recalling back I was crying my heart and soul out, gosh, reality stings/stinks real bad.

## I've got to teach my heart to get used to heartbreaks. Or rather, teach my heart that each presumed 'heartbreak' isn't a heartbreak after all, I just need to learn to leave. I always feel like I live two seperate lives. Haha. I feel like I need to learn to incorporate them together, and make it the one life that I'm living. 

I love coming home! And I'm so damn grateful to have my parents who'd love seeing me. So even if I feel like no one cares, I know that at least (as bad as it sounds) my parents do. And I gotta remember how much family weighs in my life. And coming home this time, damn, it was good cuz it's so many people's birthday!! Haha, it's great that I'm not to miss anyone's birthday. It almost felt like I never left XD

*Friday night - movie
Saturday - spa (feeeeels so daaaa amazingggg!!!), shopping, youth,  dinner, babies came in a car
Sunday - church (had so much fun!!!), home, durians, nap, supper
Monday - driving lesson, coffee bean, nap, couldn't study :(, got healthy nags, finished my then due Psych assignment and was driven by that tiny bit of motivation!
Tuesday - failed study session, out and about with ma girls to try on new frames, lunch, wo tie, fruit juice, bah kut teh!, movie, yamcha with Petz, Leong, Aaron, Daphne, Shafie.
Wednesday - Home, did a bit of law memorising, off to Jiun's pool party, home for catch-up dinner with Cedric, SK, Sanny, Jie and Aubili :)
Thursday - Could only do Maths, couldn't contain the overexcited feelings for night war >.<, Night war!
Friday - Back from Night War at 8am, effin' slept till 3pm, rotted + makan till 8pm, Maths till 12am, 'crashed' thinking abt ay at 12 am lol, up at 4 am feeling shit, here I am blogging, plan to swimstudy and eat Pan mee, go to youth, go Aaron's b'day surprise.

yamcha

Jiun's partay

 


RESOLUTION:
Be positive. Life is good, life is great. I'm ending this post with a smile, and the true feeling of gratitude of how amazing life is sinks in, despite the challenges (esp not being able to study is effin' torturing me, and that I'm gonna go through one hell of a week tryin' to finish everything up), lookin' back at this one week, Life is pretty damn good. :) So much has happened, only in the time span of one week, and it's only Saturday. :)

• I need to get kickin' on my journey with God again. I must.
• And get back on the optimistic line. XD
• I need to read, to stay intact.
• And it's okay to leave Chris, it doesn't make everything end or that the good life ends, it's just part and parcel of responsibility.
• It's not a bad thing, it's not sad. It's okay.

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:)

august, a beautiful word

August is defined as 'inspiring reverence, deep respect or admiration'
It is actually a pretty fancy word (:

December too ((:

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Friday was one of the most anticipated day since a while, and the feeling of stepping foot into the land below the wind, was indeed rewarding. First night went by where I finished Ah Boys To Men 1, 2 till 2am, woke up the morning the next day, went for a spa/massage~, shopped a bit, went and met up with Siao Ying, then off to youth. People were surprised that I'm back, it almost felt like I've never left. Yau's jaws dropped, as he froze at a distance lulz. I often feel so puzzled, I wouldn't know what the right words to say.

I stayed back for dinner, had a pleasant chat with Seol. It was interesting, until the RM 7.40 large Coffeebean commenced its work into screwing my emotions. I was drained only a while after dinner, and the caffeine wouldn't stop making a tornado swirl in my abdomen. I went back, chatted with dad in a subconscious state, and I chatted with Seol about something I feel, screwed up his emotions, damn > .< 

Bubz rang me up, told me that no one's sending her home. She asked me to check the moon out last night, as it was spectacular in red, such a rare ocassion. I began sharing with her the love story of how lovers often gaze at the moonlight, albeit apart from each other, they know that somewhere in the world, the other person is enjoying the scene of the moon too, and it'd feel like they've never been apart. I saw no moon (ahhh) and in fact saw a car that looks like Shiela's in the middle of the road, feeling a lil creeped out as a car with bold headlights on, in the middle of the night, parked outside my house. As I spoke to the phone, there was only a dialer tone, and i realised my pals were outside. haha.

It was so silly of em, yet so lovely. (:

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Went to church this morning for duty, didn't do much, but I stuck around in the STF room, where all roguery and frolicksomeness emerged out of these rascals, which brought joy which lights up just any emotions. (: I've missed Felix loads, esp when he replied me and said it was ok to eat bfast with daddy, with such understanding that I appreciate a lot. Chatted with Chloe etc, danced to worship songs for the first time in years, and it felt amazing how easy I can settle in over here though I've been away. It sure felt damn good. Thank you God!! :D < 3

Stayed back for lunch, went home for durrriiaaanns, yumz (RM 35 for 4 Sembulan chunks), took a nap, missed my swimming slot, dinner then I chilled. :) I thought "Life is pretty good," then Yau called me to go yamcha with peepoz.

Casual conversation among each other kicked started the yamcha session. I switched seats with Yau, sat next to Alfred, and we started our conversation by exercise pep talks. Followed by Seol. Alfred's an amazing guy, who's so understanding and sweet. He's one of the nicest chaps God's ever meticulously created. He heard me out, and said, "This is a very complicated and hard situation. He's nice, you're also nice..." We chatted loads, he's so awesome for understanding the awkward situation and told me to pray and do more devotion - how rejuvenating and amazing it is. 

I wish to chat with him more about life, God, people etc. He gave me the feeling of a second Laura =)

Anyway, I need to sleep. Thank God for beautiful people, beautiful home <3 span="">

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Heavy rains remind us of challenges in life. Never ask for a lighter rain. Just pray for a better umbrella. - That is attitude.

When flood comes, fish eat ants and when flood recedes, ants eat fish. - Only time matters. Just hold on, God gives opportunity to everyone!

Life is not about finding the right person, but creating the right relationship, it's not how we care in the beginning, but how much we care till the very end.

Some people always throw stones in your path. It depends on what you make with them. A Wall or a Bridge? - Remember you are the architect of your life.

Search for a beautiful heart, but don't search for a beautiful face. Coz beautiful things are not always good, but good things are always beautiful.

It's not important to hold all the good cards in life. But it's important how well you play with the cards you hold.

Often when we lose all hope & think this is the end, God smiles from above and says, 'relax dear it's just a bend, not the end.' - Have faith and have a successful life.

One of the basic differences between God and humans is, God gives, gives and forgives. But the human gets, gets, gets and forgets.

Be thankful in life....

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Ma Ke, you reading this? (:

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"Courage is not limited to the battlefield.

 

The real tests of courage are much quieter.

 

They are the inner tests, like enduring pain when the room is empty or standing alone when you're misunderstood."

 

 

Charles Swindoll