Wednesday, May 29

HappyBirthday Eugene, mylilboybuddy! :)

Yesterday was Annabelle's birthday! :)
Something each of us shared. haha.
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my ugly face. LOL.
So, yesterday I msged Sleepy-Lion cuz I suddenly missed her. Haha. Then she was like, "are you okay? :O" haha anyway, so i found out later before I went to sleep, that she posted a photo of us before. haha. that AMAZEBALLS-CONNECTION feeling hit me again. Just like the other time with Jiun. I think I blogged about it..
there, jiun jiun haha
And ohmygawsh, this would sound so wrong, but i just couldn't stop thinking about her when I got back from SC meeting where I was so un/underproductive, through dinner, through the shower, reminiscing on the stupid things we did back then. How when I got back in April, chicken skin stuck out on my jeans where I walked to YoYo with swag. LOL. then we cracked up laughing at the corner in front of the counter squatting on the ground.

I think I said, "hey don't you think it's fun, like how we always do fun and silly things together?" 
And she'd be like, "tulah you, hen ben de oh. wo mei ci gen ni zai yi qi dou zuo hen ben de dong xi. so stupid", so funny.

And then I was visualizing us going clubbing together, reminiscing the time we danced in school, during Farewell, the SNSD practices where she was so merciful and understanding (which was unexpected, :P), the time when she went all waterworks during TD (and i was like, "whoa, you ok bo?") haha. And the stupid lil times where she slept through lessons and never wakes up no matter how hard I try to wake her up :O she just...... drops dead. LOL. We got closer since I left though =) haha.

love you long time pal. long long long long time. :*

so Sleepy-Lion is....
my stupid friend,
my patrick!
my babies =)
TAADAAAAA.

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Today was an interesting day. Roomie went a lil off track. Sleep talking etc. lol.
Went a lil bit crazy with Shareen and Cassy =)
< 3

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buckets-of-love-exporting-its-way-out
26/05 phonecallwithHappyNewYear/MerryChristmas
aubiliiibuddeh-blessingfromheaven!
ohana-omma-appa-onnie
28/05 1st-time-studying-got-into-my-crazy-potato-flabby-brain
28/05 chatties-with-xuanbaobei
29/05 shareencassycrazydayincollege
29/05 suddenmutualaffection,ew :p hahaha

thank you daddy God. =)

Tuesday, May 28

I am a happy girl.

Happt 21st Birthday Annabelle Sisssyyy!!


You shall wait and see the heartfelt birthday wish imma produce in a while ;) 
ngehehe.

Don't click though, just got the photo from Google :)

So anyway, my sissy above introduced me to this book, Outliers - The Story of Success by Malcolm Gladwell. And boy, it's an extraordinary read. ;) Definitely worth your time to invest and I couldn't keep my hands off it once I get hold of it. So I try to think of it as a reward when I get some of my studies done. Which I haven't started on any, real sad :'( 
But again, it's a really good book, it motivates you to do better in life, to excel, and that sometimes, 10,000 hours is really what you need.

Outliers : A person or thing situated away or detached from the main body or system.

Oh and to share something from a couple of days ago, I went to Pavillion with the hubby, took a cabby there, purchased some of the what, most lavish item I've ever cashed for, on my own. Called my mummy to reassure the butterflies that ticked me, it was pretty hilarious. Went on to get shum Takoyaki to satisfy hubby's cravings, then went to meet Uncle Loh. :) We had some high tea, then Uncle Loh brought us for Chinese dinner with amazing food. Just makes me miss home so much more. Neverthless, I had one of the best time. =) Thank you!! =)
 
ended with loads of love < 3 :)


Tuesday, May 21

Lost in reverie, 
Perplexed by the major decisions I have to make in a predicament.
Dad was obstinate with his plan he has set up,
And we were stuck in this majorly heated up harangue.
My behavior was not condone in this family,
Especially in the Chinese culture where laxity and leniency never made its way through.
And father showed signs of censure through the hostility during dinner.
I suppose it's a preposterous notion to emulate one's elder in his profession.
He seemed dubious and puzzled if this ought to be the place he grew up decades ago,
As he was surrounded by once remarkable buildings, now decrepit and black with soot.
His thoughts question where his cronies were,
Everything felt so distinct.

Appointment of leaders in a country should never be driven by cronyism.

One's failures should never make them malevolent toward those who were successful. Never. 
Cupped my cheeks, and kissed my lips preposterously.

He finally capitulated and agreed to do the job my way.

I was in tremendous delirium when the great news was spilled out of the cup.

I currently have a binge on junk food. It's horrifying. 
Exams are hitting in in three weeks, and i wish i could just loll on the sofa forever, to lean in and relax and just chill man.

She is a prude speaker.

My best friend. <3 between="" filled="" glance="" i="" largely="" make="" maning="" my="" nbsp="" one="" person.="" single="" sufficient="" superfluous.="" to="" us="" was="" with="" worlds="">

I have no relish for obscene jokes, lol. They are just preposterous, absurd and farcical. Lol.

The idea was so preposterous it was unlikely to have been invented.

Sunday, May 19

"Be thankful for everything"

I woke up this morning at 8.30am, folded my clothes, did some chores till 9.30, brushed up had a light brekkie, and here I am at 10.39 am. =) i gotta run soon.

I had bad dreams from the night. I dreamt of losing my mother, meeting 2PM with my sisters and having that fan-broken-heartache. :(

I was reading the birthday speech by Aunt Vivs, on how life started as the 11th child of the family, how she chose to breakthrough in leaving M'sia to pursue better education. The email definitely inspired me and connected the missing lines of the dots. She leaves me thinking that, there are soooo many things out there in the world for us to explore. We just gotta be courageous to take opportunites, and do outrageous things. (actually it's a compilation of the emails i received that leave me thinking like this la :P)

So anyway, I am always complacent with what I have. Sometimes, I yearn to leave so that I can have a fresh start. So that's like, rushing through the present so that new things could come, which I don't think is good. Thinking back, I had this notion of moving to SG in J2, totally encouraged by the thought of starting anew. But I thank God it never happened, cuz though the following year wasn't on the high tide, but the following years had been amazing. So so so so so much more than I could've asked for. And I'm eternally grateful for that. I don't remember how that thought slipped away, but I thank God for that.

So anyway, i was thinking of going overseas for further education, more exposure etc. So now I'm like totally motivated to do well in A-Levels. I wanna apply for scholarships for the exposure to various cultures out there. AHHH HWAITING!!


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"When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you but merely opening your hands to receive something better."
I believe something for the better will definitely come, is coming.

toodles~


The little things.

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Yesterday I went to this Agathians' Home Shelter in PJ as a Leo Club weekly activity that goes on yearly as well. I was assigned this kid, Muthu to tutor. He's Standard 2 and he doesn't know how to read. So I taught him how to read =) not an easy job yow, gotta do more research. It was enjoyable! Knowing that with all the poverty issues, education deprived children and the other issues circulating the globe today, this is the least I could do for now. So yeah.


Muthu :)
Something that caught my eye.
Went for lunch with Cassy! She brought me to eat Fish Head Noodle. Ommnomnomnom. It felt really homey cuz I haven't been out and about in another vehicle other than the taxi or the bus in KL, and food places I usually visit would be the commercialised ones in the mall, lol. So yeah. Went to pump petrol and off to McD Drive-Thru for Horlicks Crunch McFlurry. She sent me back after. Cassy is loving college woohoooo~! And her Peter Pan fever strikes, sighs. :P haha



Went home, took a NAP, AGAIN. :/ I guess I was bloated from food, and hence a ticket to slumberland zzz. Went to church after that, received my biskut from Pete!! and Jeffrey sent Sar, Aunty and me to Pyramid to get a cab home. We had dinner, and off I went home. I was gonna take a half hour nap, but like the usual, I woke up the next morning at 8.30 am. Lol.


Anyway, I thank God for everything that happened, for the sweet company, and for all things else. xoxo. :)




Thursday, May 16

I wanna be the eagle


YOU CAN DO THIS CHRIS!!!!!!
YOU CAN DO IT!!!! :DDD


Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. - Philipians 4:6
Don't procrastinate, there's no time to lose. - Proverbs 6:4
I pray that the Lord, who gives peace, will always bless you with peace. May the Lord be with all of you too. - Thessalonians 3:16
Get rid of all of your worries. Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. - 1 Peter 5:7
Youths will become tired and weary, young men will certainly stumble; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will fly up on wings like eagles; they will run and not be tired; they will walk and not be weary. - Isaiah 40:30  

I miss you dearly, my love!






14th of May, 2013

So today, my lecturer's colleague, dropped by to share us his life experience, his journey as an engineer to a Physics lecturer, hoping to show us an insight on the legal profession. He told us the structure of how the government gets things done in this country. It left us all speechless, listening to him attentively, tho I was on the verge of diving into slumberland. His advice was "If you want to be a lawyer, go overseas, somewhere like the UK." Lol, like seriously.

It's sad how detrimental this issue is becoming to the society, to the country. It shames me, when I see photos of M'sians protesting, covering pages of newspapers, even demonstrated internationally. We appear like one of the countries with serious political issues, it's just that, our country hasn't reached the extent of which things get extremely violent. And let's keep praying that it doesn't happen.

It's extremely disappointing as well, when adolescents are allocating their directions in life, and if law is what they're searching for, so many people don't plan to get involved in court hearings, but more on the civil area instead, where their hands are kept clean. To be honest, the country needs more people like Karpal Singh, someone who wills to fight for the rights of the people, to persevere till decades and aims for the better of the country. Seriously. I think that lack of confidence is what that's holding people back. People find it of major difficulty to put things right, for justice to prevail, even though they possess the mentality, but lol, works get disrupted along the way, and there goes 'justice'.

It leaves me with a huge question mark. Do we work for survival, or we work till the very core, taking risks to perform transformation? Hmm. Like Siti Nur? Hmm......

#FamilyRendezvousInMay #Kuching #warmth

#ShotsOfPatron

So, a week ago, on a Friday which is  10 May 2013, was indeed another best time of my life. 
I flew to Kuching to meet up with my parents and my sister. :)
It was a sweet, sweet, sweet, sweet reunion. :)
I shoved in awesome food, meal after meal, seriously, it was insane. 
We touched down, had a meal, then off we left. I asked where our next destination was,
and my dad answered "Oh yeah, we're gonna go try that Char Kuey Teow".
I was like, "whhuuttt, you serious bro?! :O"

weeweeweeee, kolo mee.

Some oversized pumpkins I bumped into at The Junk. :)
meegaaazzz, can you see the price for food over there? RM 3 is like the standard price lolz. :O

The Junk - full of antiques and super awshum coolz stuffzz!
ohmeegaaasss, BEST porridge ever. SOOOOO GOOOOODODDDDD. ='(
I ate like there's no tomorrow, cuz I have a habit of being a bit thrifty here in KL. I just can't bear that feeling of guilt that tickles my spine each time I draw money from the ATM machine. Lol :P

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I've always loved flights. It used to send chills down my spine, taking off and touching down. Every ride is always accompanied with a different set of emotions. Taking off with that boiling euphoria, returning with a sinking heart. It's pretty intriguing to be honest. :P
But now since I left, every flight is every so meaningful and precious. As I prepare to leave,nI reach the airport, alone, fearless tho ;) :P, with the anticipation of going home swirling in my head. As my holiday reached the end, my heart would sink just even a couple of days due to the flight. And sometimes, insecurities sink in, going back to this place when I'd have to buckle up, suck it in, and take responsibilities.



Kuching.

One thing wrong I always have, is that, I always thought that leaving would change a lot things, so many many things, that I'd always remind myself to keep up with everything. Every time I go home, I feel very odd at how normal the way things run at home. How similar it is, like I've never left before. Seriously, sometimes that sense of familiarity freaks me out. I feel alienated sometimes, as if I'm dreaming, coming back to live in the past. However, I realised that, really, a family will always be a family. That love and care for one another is never-ending, and it'll always be there. It sure feels amazing to have a family. Of course, should I always keep in mind also is that God's love is eternal. :)




thankYOU! < 3

#HomeInMay #MountK #love

Aloha sunshine! :)
So many things to write.

The PEAK in most people's perception :DD
Two weeks ago, this day, 2 May 2013, was one of the best days of my life.
I went climbing Mount K with my sister, Shannon, Phebe, Charmaine, Jo Lai and his beloved Ling Ling. Amazing experience it was, wonderful quality time spent with sissy, and the whole trip just felt incredibly simple and genuine. Boy, how i miss it.
It would have been one hell of a crazierrr ride if my pals were there, like Vikki, Aubry or Puyol.. haha. Nevertheless, I had the best time.

The climb sure was one hell of a challenge. We had to climb 6km up, and it's not just long, but it just constantly goes up and up without fail (pretty silly how I forgot about that, it's a climb to Mount K, of course it just keeps going up so that you'll reach the peak =.=) So yeah, stamina training is definitely a must, or else you'll suffer yourself. =.=

The climb up:






Well, my sissy they all went ahead of me anyway, I reached the rest house where we were to stay over, known as Laban Rata at like 3.30pm, whereas Anna they all reached at 1.30 pm. We started around 9am. Then, Jo and Ling Ling were caught in the rain and arrived at 5.30pm.





We had buffet dinner, then on the way back to our rooms, we had to walk up and up and up again, sighs. The view was simply beautiful and magnificent though, whew, so beautiful...

 I went back with my knees sore like craaazzeeehhhh, had a change of clothes, took a couple of shots, and tucked myself in bed. It was sooooo chiiillllyyyyy, and I sorta whined a lot while I was sleeping. [Don't get this the wrong way lol :P but whining is something I do when I feel unwell, even at home. Then my kakak or my mum'd attend to me and fix whatever that's not feeling right :P It has become a habit I suppose :P] I think it was cause of the terrible knee pain and soreness of my legs. sighsss.


And what we were supposed to do is, wake up at 2am in the morning, get some light brekkie, then prep yourself for the next 2km++ UP again, this time till the peak, like the peak. So thoughts of not continuing the climb keeps flooding my head, and I was gonna use the kneeache issue as the excuse. (it felt reasonable) cuz man, it's no joke man, it's Mount K lol. Then idk how, I just changed into my outfit and just went along without much thoughts or hesitation.
As we walked down to Laban Rata for brekkie, gosh, the kneees, owwwcchhh. Horrible ache. And as we were at the canteen/food place, my sissy thought a nail spiked through her foot, and she was gonna cry. Her face, was simply just, hilarious. I haven't seen that face in a while after all :P

So from there, the final 2km commenced.
We were in big groups of people. It was 2am, freeeezzziiinnng coooollldddddd, not forgetting to mention it rained the day before, so the rocks are slippery, and it was dark, you see nothing at all, so of course everyone had their headlights on. Oh! And the journey up, everything is just rocks and stairs I'm telling you. (From the beginning i mean!) No joke!!! Haha.

Like this. This was taken on the way down.

Taken on the way up! :)

So that journey up didn't seem as exhausting to me, for the first kilometre. I suppose it's cause it's the middle of the night, most of us were still stuck in dreamland, and since it was dark as well, we couldn't see much, and hence we wouldn't know what to expect ahead of us. Which is really good for me. Here I suppose, distraction gets me through tough times ;) haha. Anna had a bit of difficulty with the cold air though, it was a tad bit hard to breathe. =X So, we climbed up the Mountain with this small pathway they carved by the side of the mountain, and there's a rope for us to hold onto, and i believe most people held on it for their dear lives :P it's kinda creepy if you look down, cuz it's down what you're looking at. :P good thing it was at night too! :P

For the final-final-final kilometre though, was one of the longggeeeessstttt walk I've ever passed in my entire life =.= It just felt like forever.  It's like you just keep walking up a hill nonstop, feel your calves  man, they just keep going up, up, up, up and up. I asked my sissy to wait for me this time though, cuz I didn't wanna be alone. She sat and waited for me, and had a couple of snoozes in between LoL. I thought she was tired as well. Bzzz =.= Well, I took my sweet, sweet time up, like I stop every 5 steps, it's kinda dumb :P Shannon and the other two girls were so fit, they were so much ahead of us.

Oh! And when you are up there, gawwsshhh, the scenery was fascinating. When it was still dark, you could see glowing stars twinkling at ya, so so so many of em, and they were all so pretty. With the chilly weather, I just lied down a couple of times to breath everything in.  (The last time I saw quite a bunch of stars was back in 2011, at Shittim Camp with Jacob, Sylvia, Leong and the rest of the peepos. But srsly, this was nowhere close, just simply, breathtaking). 
When it was bright already though (cuz i missed sunrise :P), you could see the clouds floating around ya, staring up to clear blue sky, feeling the cold breeze and weather, it was definitely rewarding.

:)


We reached the peak a while after that, 6++ am i think, my sister was sitting by the rock, with this sleeeepppyyy look on her face, it was really funny too. :O haha xD.

The PEAK. 
Low's Peak, it says. :)
4000++ metres up!!!

We started our way down at 7am, and the walk wasn't as easy as I thought it'd be. It felt like I was gonna slide my way through, not easy man, seriously. :O From there onwards, everything was just going down, so the end :)

Pheberrttoooooo~





- ended with loads of buckets of love < 3 < 3 < 3-