casual shortest updatess

"thanks for making me feel special..."

Met up with the super lovely Paula who gave me such amazing heartfelt gifts. super grateful for you, thank you God. :) for crossing our paths, and giving me a friend in her during these crucial weeks. Had a very fun lunch and met Rachel Saw. :)

On the 24th night, had dinner with Yvonne, it was splendid. I was so excited. Was really delighted when Jacob called me, LCK wished me earlier, Natsie too, and then Abs and Chlo called then skyped me, then received a surprise gift at the door, then slept and went to church, feeling not as excited. Was really happy when Amy and Vikki gave me the gifts tho. and daphne too. Went for lunch with the girls, and then back to the hotel to chill. Presented my mum her gift, then parents their cards, then had Jap dinner. Went back, then Charly called and we chatted for a while, then Annabelle called and we spoke for about 45 mins catching up and just chatting about lotsa stuff, then CKJ called, so lame, to wish me a belated birthday. So thankful for all the birthday calls, :) thanks guys.

As the night sealed an end, my heart felt so heavy and i just went all waterworks. Immediately buzzed cynthia to come to my emergency rescue.. Was so disheartened when I realized I couldn't reach her, as i really did not know what to do... I just felt super disheartened, and ahh, my heart was just in so much agony. That half hour or more felt like forever, and i was sooooo happy when she finally replied me. I wept through our conversations, which resulted in my eyes being swollen till this morning, and a lil bit of afternoon i guess.

I'm so thankful for this precious lady. No matter what the future holds, I'm just gonna be thankful for her, as much as I can now, and as much as this is gonna mean something now. As disheartened as I feel, I'm super super grateful for all the great things, and I guess that's what I should redirect my focus on... Rather than.. the other way round. Thank u cynthia banana, i would never know what to do without you. You hold the pieces of my heart together, forever and always. Thank you for always allowing me to make mistakes, let me fall, and rather than picking me up straight away, you try me to try to get up myself, but would encourage me each step I take. Thanks for understanding that it's hard for me, but still being firm in ur position and just making me take another step forward. Thank you for not judging me, and for really believing in me, and to not care about me during our usual daily lives but stay up with me through the nights when I'm at my lowest. Thank you for accepting me... Thank you for letting me shed everything off, and present to you my bare and naked heart...

I wouldn't know what to do without you.......

sighs

as far as life is concerned, am trying to keep the faith.
all is well, and God is good.
God is good. 
God is good.

at least those that matter did...

one way or another..

happy birthday to me :)



oh and banana,

to the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world...

never quit believing in urself banana. never.

jjj

YAY! Finally working on my long overdue blog post. On Thursday night, as expected, Aunty Amy called and cancelled the dinner I've been very much looking forward to. Then Paula thought we could go celebrate after exams, so we did - went for Japanese food then had Chatime, my back ached sooo bad that night. Been down with sore throat since that midnight, and then got feverish by the time I got home on Friday night. Spent Saturday catching up with Cassy and CR, which was splendid (i love!) - ate Shabu Shabu and watched Night at the Musuem 2. Then rushed home to get ready for Christmas dinner at TBC Cafe - laughed soooo much with the girls I don't remember what we laughed about, got to chat more with Pat and Lawrence and a bit with Hooi Xian. Took loadsss of photos! Oh and Paula was so intrigued by me tapping water into my face, cuz I was feeling heaty LOL. Was serving on Sunday and felt so happy and excited. Was led by Charles and serving that day was one of the most joyous I could have ever felt. Went for lunch with the brother and Henry they all, sounded like an awesome man, then went Dip n Dip with Amy and Paula, walked around, then went home. Took a super short nap, then went out with Jeff to watch Hobbit. On Monday, Amanda overslept so I hung out at Pyramid with Herbertyy, then the next morning, took a KTM with the boys to meet up with Natalie, caught up and chatted lots about God. it was soooooooooo much fun to catch up, i've missed u loads natsie poo. Had Korean lunch and milk cow. Then went to meet up with the parents :) Had japanese for dinner yay!

#563, Don't Give Away Your Joy

There will always be something to sour our day?people, interruptions, disappointments, we can?t find the car keys, somebody is rude to us, or what should have taken an hour, ended up taking three hours. If we?re going to live in victory each day, we have to have the right approach to life. Joel will remind you in this empowering message how to remain in peace throughout life?s difficulties. With verse likes John 16:22, ?No one can take your joy from you,? and Psalm 94:13, ?You have given him the power to stay calm in the time of adversity,? you will be equipped to start living a joy-centered life.

18TH OF DECEMBER 2014

This thing lit up my face like crazy yesterday. That smile extended from one ear to another, can't remember the last time I was so excited. "Lai lai lai, don't so stress.." Call me crazy, I know, cuz simultaneously in my head I thought that myself, that I was crazy for being so happy for just one free drink. LOL. It was a hot chocolate, and though the taste wasn't suited to my preference, I finished it still cuz well.. yep ;)

Anywho, feeling semi-thankful that I wasn't gonna be caffeinated, but then it sent electric waves of anxiety into my body system down right to my guts, then it went back way up and I could feel my pulse through my temple, and the sound of my heartbeats were ringing in my ear. crazy, my stomach bloated a little bit and I tried to press down the urge to puke by praying that it'll all go away. During the exam, I was a bit fidgety and then got super hungry towards the end. Went and grabbed pan mee, swallowed it then went on excitedly and played Angry Birds (something I downloaded the night before) in the bus - N.E.A.T. 

Ms Puteri looked for us.. and then......

So i got car-sick, went home and threw it all up and the images of panmee not digested.. "There goes dinner," I thought. I felt that my gut was being twirled inside out, so sorry body. So I rested on the new couch (tq Lord!), waited for mum to call, then cooked soup, watched a couple minutes of the Grinch, then moved on to watch Bruce Almighty and went to sleep.

This morning I first woke up at 8 with a smile on my face, and my heart felt good too. Thought that it was probably cuz tomorrow's the last day, and I could then embrace Christmas to its best.. Or thought maybe I had a good day ytd - chilling, movie etc. Or maybe it's also cuz teytey texted me and we were gonna have lunch, woohooo! Felt so happy and at ease :) then.. went back to sleep, and woke up feeling the contrary. Told myself maybe it's cuz I wasn't well yesterday - legit excuse huh? 

And this afternoon was Joel Osteen and then cleaning up the room, and getting all Christmasy, listening to MC, planning meals... Crazy. Got so hungry, called Herbert and finally got him at the 4th ring to go dinner, and talked about going 'fighting' and dancing! :D woohoo. excites excites! not much to my surprise, dinner tmr is cancelled, and well, just look for something else to do lo :)

I'm thinking of being somebody's Santa this X'mas! :)

yay! muchhh excites < 3 see you soon bloggie, and you could finally taste that heavenly bits of Christmas!

#620, Nothing Is Wasted

Do you ever feel like you have “wasted years?” Years defined by events that broke your heart or were filled with disappointments and setbacks? Maybe you are facing a slow season or a difficult situation and wondering where God is and what is His plan. Then this message is for you. Let Joel bring hope to your life in a fresh, new way in this inspiring message that will remind you of God’s restoration power and His divine plan for your life, even in the midst of difficulties and pain. Be encouraged with what David said in Psalm 4:1, “God enlarged me in my time of distress.” He didn’t receive increase in the good times; God increased David in the tough times. Let this message inspire you that even through difficulties, God has a plan to strengthen and prepare you for an exciting, expansive future.

All is well

#623, You're Coming Out

We all face situations that look permanent in our health, relationships and careers. It's easy to think that's the way it will always be. In this exciting message, let Joel give you the faith tools to move into that next chapter in life. You may be walking through a valley, but know this: it's not your destiny to stay there. Build your faith with this motivating message. Psalm 84:6, says, "Passing through the valley of weeping, you will find pools of blessing." When you're in the valley, if you'll stay in faith knowing that God has something better, He'll take those tears and turn them into pools to refresh you. You'll have the strength you need for every situation. You will come out!

God will not put you into a situation where He can't bring you out of it.
God will stop it.
"No weapons be formed against you shall prosper", the weapons will be formed; but they will not prosper.
Sometimes God may deliver you from the fire, but sometimes God will make you fireproof and put you through the fire.

God's got your back! ;)

Jesus, come through

#614 Are You Listening? 

Every day, God is speaking to you. The question is, are you listening? Proverbs 3:6 says, "Listen to God's voice in everything you do and everywhere you go. He will keep you on the best path." In this message, Joel will teach you practical ways to liten to God's voice and how to recovgnize His leading in your everyday life. You will learn how to let peace act as your umpire so you can confidently make the best decisions. God longs for you to prosper in all things, and He wants to guide you even in the simple things. If you'll listen in everything you do and everywhere you go, He'll always guide you down the best path.

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It's gonna be an exciting month!!!

Long and fruitful weeks planned ahead :)

Can't wait to enjoy X'mas thoroughly as it is.

Praying for God's favour to be upon me as I finish this exam!

:)

Amen.

"Don't let what haunts you, halt you"

 *  Claire:

"You're pretty mature for your age, you know.. Not many people of your age are like this"
"Who? Me?" (in much disbelief - new fresh friendship)
"Yep, you."
"Oh yeah? :\?"
"Yeah! It shows.. when you talk to people, and when you have your own stand/views in things.. how you agree or disagree with someone.."

Service was great today - as usual! Woke up late and missed the van, cuz I didn't know the service time - blur sotong =.= met Yvonne, and she was lovely as usual! Met the brother after spending a few rounds circling in the hall looking out for him. I saw with a new met friend - Shumi. Service was rather entertaining and filled with laughters today, very easy and light. I missed the praise songs tho :( but you know, I was only 6 minutes late!!! S-I-X. Oh and took a cab to the bridge, could've split it with another lady, but the taxi just took both our money - what a rip off. But it's okay, it's okay, it's okay... Oooh saw Phoebe and caught up with her (she's studying in TAR college doing MASCOM, ok) and then caught up with Wernie as well. yeps! Met Jovina, had lunch with her, Clara and Evan and Hooi Xian joined afterwards. Then chatted with th egirls at Wendy's while waiting for time to pass. Fruitful time spent indeed, J shared her God-filled love story with her boo, and I was so delighted when the conversation just flowed so easy and naturally.. and got pretty insightful :D

feelin' so lazy, but no. OK, gotta jia you now, byee! :)

close to heart

#553, Trust God's Timing

In life, we're always waiting for something - a dream to come to pass, a problem to turn around, or to meet the right person. In this message, Joel reminds us of the importance of waiting on God's timing. He'll teach you that instead of forcing things to happen, release it and trust in God's precise timing. With verses like Hebrews 4:3, "We who believe can enter his rest, you'll be reminded of the concept of not worrying, but trusting God and the pressure will be lifted. The moment you pray, God releases a set time for your answer.

What God orders, God will pay for. What God gives birth to, God will always give us the grace to take care of.

when you delight yourselves in the Lord, God  will give you the desires of your heart.

Supernatural grace. Supernatural favour.

You can do the right thing at the wrong time, and miss God's best. Timing is everything.

Sometimes God allows delays so that He can show His timing in a greater way.

God wants to show His favour in your life in an amazing way.

p.s. I love how my hair smells.

TreSemmé ftw! < 3

:)

#576, Make God a Part of Your Everyday Life 

Did you know that God wants to help you not just in the big things, but even in the small things? But here's the key: God will only be involved in your life as much as you will allow Him. In this message, let Joel show you how to make God a part of your everyday life. Proverbs 3:6 says "In all your ways acknowledge God, and He will make your paths straight." When you make God a part of your everyday life and put Him first, He promises He will crown your efforts with success. You will accomplish more than you ever could on your own.

So blessed

#572 Be Good To People 

God said to Abraham in Genesis 12:2, "I will bless you and you will be a blessing." In this message, Joel reminds us of an important key to living a blessed, prosperous life and that's a lifestyle of giving. A lot of times, we wait for a special occasion to do something kind for others, or we think giving has to be costly. But Joel will reveal to you what the Bible says about being kind, and most importantly, the type of giving and kindness Jesus modeled. When you live a lifestyle of being good to others, you'll be happier, your life will be more rewarding, and God promises your gifts will come back to you.

Next train of emotions: Stupid, for being stupid.

So two days ago I chatted with the rofl girl, as I sought for reassurance, she said, "Don't let anyone, including me, hurt you."

whoa.

that didn't hit me hard, which is great. when that happened, i could feel the pieces of the wall just began to get themselves together collectively, forming a barrier.

yesterday i went to visit Mr Adam, am praying for his very best. met up with my college sweethearts, and it was ever lovely and warm. so lovely.

today, i did a problem question then went for consultation. towards the end, i sought for my personal time to chat. i let loose of what's been going on, and it's a relief. she said, she knows that things have been happening, and that what i wrote impressed her. that i can do it.

very motherly.

i had a panic attack yesterday. and i was so worried that i wasn't gonna make it. that i was literally hanging on the edge, by the cliff. she pulled me back up onto the ground, and im at ease that im okay.

the value of things began to hit me, and i realised the significance of truly, the more significant things in life. i said i'd try harder next semester, in realigning my priorities. i promise

she guided me thoroughly, of which i'm really thankful.

i walked out there, feeling as empowered as ever. my sight stumbled upon my reflection, and i saw a beautiful woman capable of doing such great things, and thought "she should be walking with her head up high", "always".

feeling like i could own the world if i work hard and believed in myself harder, at the same time, i felt so stupid - for being stupid.

like i said before, i'm no good when it comes to me making mistakes. but i believe God has a plan.

the sister called and updated me about her current triangular situation. it was interesting. and hey, though i live my life most days not seeing her, sometimes she could feel non-existent, but hey, someone at the other side of the world is willing to hear me out, without seeing me, and someone believes in me wholeheartedly, and would support me indefinitely regardless.

and throughout this, i've got closer to koala. and i'm just thankful :)

it's the end of my sob stories, i'm not gonna bring it up anymore unless really necessary.

it is done and dusted.

it is well.

amen.

:)

Had Christmas Homes on Friday and had gift exchange too. Went to the Big Bad Wolf after, during midnight :O crazzyyy!

And today I served in church. Had loadsa fun, and got to keng-gai with the elder hosts, got to play with Andre and he's such an adorable puff :)

Was really blessed by Elder Adeline's message today "It's not the end yet". It was again - the story of Jesus walking on water. What a powerful message, that its interpretation is being differently taught each week. "Be still, God is still with you. It is not over yet." As the service ended, I just hung around Eld hoping to chat with her for bit, as strongly felt during the first service when the message spoke right into my heart and I was on the verge of going all waterworks. I was gonna go, "I feel so blessed by your message today. I'm going through a storm too, it will be over right?" And really wondered what her response was gonna be.

I was delighted when she noticed me in the end, so warmly, and asked how am I. I said the above, really chilled-ly, and she just said "Let's pray!" I was taken aback a lil bit, but felt so ever blessed. Then she said take care and left.

Praying for the best, may God give me grace please Amen.

friends in need #mahomies

It's Dec 3rd, and I guess Christmas just came early. The guys were asking me to go dinner but i turned them down cuz I don't think I can afford it (though I'm still chilling on my bed now :( ). And then they came over around 11pm, and bought me ^Chai Latte that I've been craving since forever, and a red velvet cake. How thoughtful :') 

It's just these few weeks haven't been easy, and each day I'm just living by faith, trusting God in all that I do. It really isn't easy, when everyday seems to be so gloomy, and just trusting that miraculously the sun shall shine every day, or at least let a tinge of sunlight shine through - but it doesn't. It's been much requested, and I didn't think that it was that difficult to achieve.. Hence, this lil gesture sparked up hope at the very least. But I have made my decision, and I will stick to it, and just praying to God for strength, peace and grace. 

So as the guys came by, we chatted about the casual everyday stuff, which led on to the reasons behind these difficult weeks, as well as chatted about reaching out to a very dear friend whom I haven't heard from in ages. It was very warm to be around family, where we can get so natural and easy. Pete thinks that it's just voices troubling me, they're all just noise. They said that they've been there, and it's not easy. It in fact, sucks. And Pete was speaking from experience, how it can get really bad, not just terrible, but the worst. But that's when you really grow. That's when he actually grew...And though trusting that everything happens for a reason, he doesn't know his too. And I might not know mine.. It's honestly just a blind journey of faith. 

Christmas is just around the corner and I'm so excited! Am praying that I'll be able to work my hardest for this exam, as lacking as I am now.. I'm honestly freaking out :( But I'm gonna pray for peace.. Just the other day I was thinking, it could seem a lil sad how I'm studying in the month of December :(. But it's okay, just hold on tight, it's only like less than 21 days away, and home is where I'll be really soon, reconnecting with familiar faces again, building lives again, and just taking a break as well :) 

All is well, and thank You so much Dad.
Amen.

how wonderful, how beautiful

Not sure if I'm bipolar or what, I'm usually happy most of the time, but just sometimes a teeny fraction of my time I'd feel a bit upset.. At least that's what I was feeling today. And just now as I was cleaning up my room, I listened to Joel Osteen's sermon, and I feel so empowered right now. Feeling like everything's okay, and nothing's gone wrong. That that glitch is just a common everyday life happening.. I feel okay, I feel whole, I feel complete.. I'm okay. I'm grand. :) I'm gonna keep this spirit pumpin' for as long as it should.. Thank You Lord :')

wanted to use my old url, but unsure why it's not working. gotta find a new one..

just casually chatting with my best buds :)

#609 Keep Your Walls Up :)

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You can't be passive, you gotta be proactive and keep your walls up.

Guard what you dwell, be selective to what you give your time and attention to

They don't talk about ordinary people, they talk about exceptional people..

The more favour in your life, the more opposition it will stir up. Some people don't like you, simply because of God's blessing on you. 

You have to accept the fact that some people won't like you, and there's nothing you can do about it. It's not about you, it's about the favour God put on you.

I'm not gonna waste my emotional energy on something I cannot change about. I know it's about the favour of God in my life. This is how you keep your walls up.

I may be misunderstood by other people, people may push me down, but it's not about me, it's about the blessing of God in my life. (Mary)

If you don't learn to walk away from an offense, get upset from what they say, it can keep you from the fullness of your destiny.

Don't waste your time trying to win over people that are never gonna be for you. Don't try to waste your energy trying to convince people to understand you when they are determined to misunderstand you. your time is too valuable to try to prove to people that you really are okay, for them to accept you. It's not your problem. It's the favour on your life that they can't handle. You can run your race, focus on your goals, and God will bring the right people into your life.

You don't have to play up to people. if they don't want to be your friend, let them go, they are not a part of your destiny.

Statistic: 25% of the people you meet won't like you and never will; another 25% won't like you but could be persuaded to; another 25% will like you but be persuaded not to; and another 25% will like you and stand by you no matter what.

Don't try to win over people, just recognize that they are one of the 25% who are never gonna like you. Let it go, it's a distraction. You don't need their approval to be who God wants you to be.

You gotta come to that people to say that, "I am at peace, with them not being at peace with me" "I'm at peace, not being their friend" "I don't have to be in their group, to enjoy my life."

Stay in peace, keep those walls up.

You gotta guard your heart. Nobody can do this for you. "Think all things that are pure, things that are wholesome.." It doesn't say "Think of your problems," No, think of the good things - that's how you keep your walls up. You gotta guard your heart.

There are a lot of things that we cannot change. But we can trust in Him, that God is seated on the throne, He's fighting our battles for us, and we are going to enjoy our lives anyway.

It's not that we ignore problems, we just don't let them get inside of us, we keep our walls up. 
Don't give them the power, to offend us. Nothing can offend you without your permission. People can say whatever they want, you have the right to ignore it. They can leave you out, but you have the right to have a good attitude anyway. They can belittle and discredit you, but like David, you have the right to walk away and have a good day anyway.

When our problems arise, it is easy to be aroused and panic, but no, be still and know that He is God.

God works when we are in peace. That's why we have to constantly guard our heart.

If you're allowing someone to offend you, you're giving them the power.

You're being disturbed because they see the favour of God in you. That opposition is a sure sign that God's hand is on you, God has an assignment for you, and something amazing is gonna happen in your future.

Everyday is a gift from God. Don't waste your time and energy. If you don't keep your walls up, it can keep you from the fullness of your life.

"Stop allowing yourselves to be upset," You just gotta keep your walls up, and don't let them get into you. Don't let if affect your spirit, don't let it poison you.

Remember you only have so much emotional energy each day. Don't waste it on things that don't matter, in trying to win over people that will never be won over.