inspiration!

Seohyun


I wanna learn to be more like her. Be smart. Talk with wisdom. Look up to great leaders of the world. Read good books to self improve. Be positive. Be polite.. etc.

saranghae onnie!

BIRTHDAY!

25th of December

Happy birthday to... ME! weeeee hahaha. I had been waiting for this day to come for a pretty long time. Cuz it's like I've been part of celebrating other people's birthday which looks so cool, well organised and very very surprising all the time, I can't help but just look forward to mine :D hahahah.

Anyway, my birthday was good. On the 24th, it was the annual Christmas Eve service in church. And usually when service ends, people always come greet me "Happy Birthday" with a hug and my phone would be flooded with texts. Prolly not that many, but still more than usual :P And that feeling I get is really exciting you know. So it was nice feeling it again yesterday, after 365 days. hehe. Didn't get to dress up for the major event (to me) though as I was observing Tech Team in the secret room. So yeah.

Then, today, I had lunch with a number of my close friends from school @ Secret Recipe which turned out well! =) I'm pretty happy because it's my first time organising events for my own birthday whereas usually it's only family dinners. I had fun!! And the gifts I received this year, were so good oh. Hahah. I don't wanna be a materialistic person, but I guess it's cuz I've grown up, so the gifts I received were more meaningful.

I really feel very encouraged seeing that they actually made effort to come. Out of 9 girls I invited, 7 showed up. I guess I'm just feeling a lot cuz it's my first time doing this kind of stuff. Lol sentimental =P

Then we went to watch Sherlock Holmes where I fell asleep too halfway for a while just to boost up my energy. Then home, then off to One Borneo and got a jacket then supper at Boston. Overall, it has been a great day. Wonderful day. Although my feelings aren't that hyped up, but it's really a good day. Last year wasn't as fruitful and I learnt my lesson to make full use of my birthday!

oh dang.

I feel like I've changed as a person. Not in a good way, I'm afraid. I feel like I've become more judmental, arrogant, mean, ignorant and etc etc. I used to make friends with everybody and be nice. But this year, it's like I've gotten lazy to mingle around and stuff. I've noticed it, but I gave myself this silly excuse - I'm no longer a monitor, so I don't have to do that. So it's like bad :( I mean I don't literally cut everyone out, it's just that I don't put that much effort anymore. And last time, I don't really like to judge people. But now, I think I do. And sometimes, in friendships there'll always be downs too rite? So, last time, I wouldn't really keep that in my head the whole time nor do I talk about it so much. I just try to solve it and move on. But now, seems like I'm not like that anymore. God, I really pray that I wanna change to be a better person!!! Amen.

Merry X'mas! =)

21st December!

hello world!! Time is flying super fast which is so depressing =( Holidays are coming to an end and I don't want to go back to school!! I guess it'd be all fine if all my good friends were around together. But gotta stay optimistic! Heh. I don't think it's really the friends who's the factor, but it's the activities that are gonna happen next year which are a little disturbing =/ I've got to set my heart on this goal!! Stay determined! And I'm gonna pray to God for this strong will in me that won't die during trials or whatever stuff :D

anyway, been spending some time with my sister and it's disappointing how she's not gonna be here when I turn 16. So sad! I was so looking forward to it to have dinner together but she's not gonna be here, so I guess it's gonna be a lunch instead. Then what am I gonna do for the rest of the day?? o.o err..... and for the rest of the week which is the last week of holiday in 2011 before school starts? So sad oh. Could actually do so many things together and go out.. haiiih. Really sad, but oh well, it's life I guess.

Then I was telling my mum how reluctant I was to attend school next year and she told me how it's important to appreciate high school for the reason that everybody knows. I guess it was just a reminder for me. I pray to God that I will have a good life forevermore! =)

20 December 2011

Anyeong all!! =) Sis is back, so have been trying to spend as much time with her as possible since she's gonna be here only for a week. Weird, but yeah. But, happy time with family! =)

family is always good.

Yesterday, me and my sis went to get our hair and nails done. And boy, I wasted sooooo much time just waiting for my sis to get her hair permed. I'm not complaining about the long wait, I'm just sad that I didn't bring my laptop over or even just any book to keep me company. I've been trying to finish series like foooorrrreeevvveeeeerrr but I'm not sure why I just can't seem to. Lol. I've only watched 3 series this year, and only 1 completed o.o like what is the problem with me man? I watched more than 6 last year? I think it's a lot more..

BEEEEENNN GAINING WEIGHT o.o this is not a good sign! i hope I won't grow any bigger and that I won't be a fat person when I'm an adult. Especially when adolescence is over for me, and after I give birth to many babies. Lord, this is my prayer!!

went to church today and went up to the really top place where the cool peeps (the people who do backstage) crawl around just to get around the wires and fix things. it was so cool. scary too. but epic. hahahah great experience. wanna go paragliding one day!!! :D

Merry Christmas everybody! May you have a merry merry merry christmas! =)

Hello world!! Have been eating quite a lot lately oh, till I got my tummy really bloated =( Like today, I was really full then my dad wanted to have tea break. So he ordered for me. And the serving was so big! And my dad wouldn't really help me eat so I had to finish em.. Then when I got home, after a full dinner, my kakak made herbal tea which cannot be kept overnight, had to drink.. And i baked some brownies, not working too well :P so have to go and check and have a bite every 10 mins.. And i made myself wheat grass, gotta finish =( super super bloated . . .

Anyway, I went to the police station today. Cuz my dad had to settle his friend's stuff. Got me oh so dissapointed there =( true colours of the people....

I just pray that God will continue to protect Sabah and the world and pray that there'll be less corruptions and that the world will be a better place to live in. :)

15th of December!! Oh crrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppp, school's starting super duper soon! super afraid of sports day :( really hope to get in with Tasha, Davina etc etc. Sister's coming back on Sunday! And that's super good news :D family is always good.

I miss 2PM!!!

always in my heart!! <3

25 11 11 [SUPEREPIC!]

OMG!! The concert was sooooo good!! Like super awesome, super great! Like omiggggaaaaawwwssssssshhhh! Just feel so surreal man! Me, Krystell and her cousin went there around 4 and saw stalls by the street selling unofficial merchandise. I'm not too sure why, but it was pretty funny and amusing :P not in a bad way, just it seemed pretty interesting. hehh. I was so exciteddd lah!! Like it was just hard for me to believe that these people you often watch on TV are alive! Moreover, they're in a room you are about to enter. SO YEAH, it was cool!! We sat down and waited outside for about 2 hours, then people stood up for no reasons, then we went in. People were squeezing, squeeezingggg. There were so many Malays!! Malay girls with tudungs. (no offense, i don't mean anything bad :O)

MERCHANDISE I GOT:

my beautiful boys <3

These are folders that I got. =))

And these are the lightsticks I got. The blue ones costed RM 10 each (unofficial ones). But the other one is the official lightstick sold by a Malay girl who was going to the concert too (she was really funny) and it costed RM 40. It says Nichkhun on the lightstick btw =)

Anyway, we sat at the last row (pretty good view from the side) and next to us were two Malay hottests! hahahhahahaha so funny, we chatted and stuff. The stage wasn't that far from us as expected, it was alright. Pretty good actually. Like it wasn't like they appeared like ants or whatever, they appeared like humans. :D omggggoooshshh just so freaking awesome lahh and daeebaakkkkk.

I tried to lose my voice, but not sure if it worked!! throat hurts a lil, but voice is still there...

This is the stage seen from where I sat. Yepeun nae? :)) i thought it was really pretty and cool. ahhhhh epicnesssssss.

And this is the crowd with their lightsticks on. Beautiful don't you think? I thought it was so pretty even without decorations. Really pretty =)

Ya know, when it all started, I saw Taecyeon on the screen, and geeez I just couldn't stop screaming and stomping my feet!!! :O (I still have that first picture I saw in my head!!!) I thought I was just gonna scream but my feet wouldn't stop moving as well lol. Super super super fun!!!!! And their performances were awesome. Wooyoung's hair was super cool. The lighting, the atmosphere (pic above), the sound system were quite okay. It was just uhmazing. Loveddd how they sang I'll Be Back after showing a long video, how Taecyeon went into the crowd (like omggggaaawwwwsssssssshhhhhhhhhhh), how Chansung took off his shirt at last etc. Just basically everything was awesome. So professionally done! Ya know, I kinda felt like crying out of joy and happiness and love, but I couldn't. It's kinda cool how I had that feeling lol :P shows that I'm a true hottest!! <3

Me and Krystell with our tees and lightsticks!

i know you don't see anything. too bad, sorry :P

And then Junho and Wooyoung did a duet. After that, they were supposed to change and sing I Can't with other members on stools. Other members changed, only both of them didn't. Then Wooyoung took off his red jacket, then Taecyeon was like "Take it off, take it off, take it off..". Then Wooyoung gave a cheeky smile while taking off his jacket but inside was a black singlet. So yeah. Hahaha.

And you know what? Junho said "Saya akan balik lagi" or something like that. But they did promise that they're coming back again. Taec said so too =) Oh btw, Nichkhun's family was there! Sitting on the chairs next to the rock pit people. =( Didn't get to pay attention to them. Mmm.

"How does it feel sexy dancing in front of your family, Khun? =)"

And you know, during epic moments like I'll Be Back, I'm Your Man (when they tore their shirts :P), Without You, Hands Up etc etc, I kinda jumped from my seat cuz my veins were just tickling me all over. Then there was this once I jumped, and two guards behind me were shocked from me jumping abruptly. Then I turned around, they were discussing how I suddenly did that :P hahahahah it was hilarious. Then there was this guard walking up and down the stairs then girls were screaming really loud and he was sorta 'soothing' his ears. When I saw that, I screamed even worse which caused him to freak a lil too. hahahahaha. EPICNESS!!!

After everything ended, went to check out the front places with Krystell, geeeez you could see them soo claearly from there! Imagine Wooyoung, Junho, Junsu dancing in front of your eyes!! o.o But I'm thankful xD so yeah, good enough.

Anyway, thanks Krystell for bringing me! Really hope we'll bond more more more. love u! God bless!!

GOODNIGHT JUNSU, NICHKHUN, TAECYEON, WOOYOUNG, JUNHO AND CHANSUNG! 2PM is forever with hottests!! (that's what you said, Nichkhun!! ;) ) <3 YOUUU!!!

omg still can't believe I actually saw all of them in person, like it feels so weird o.o

anyways, photos will be posted up soon? didn't take much, too blur.

chalja everyone =)

DEFINITELY ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS IN MY LIFE! =) XOXO

2 - 3/12/11

HELLOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL DEEECEEEEMBERRR!!! =) My favvvourite month of the year.

ST Force Training was held on these days. Didn't wanna go at first, cuz of my swollen eye. But as I was thinking again if I should go, suddenly I saw water on my pok ngan choi, then the pass came out!! woohoooo. Then I thought, this must be a sign from God :P hahaha

anyway, the camp was fun! weeeeeeee. church tmr, loooooong day.

29/1111 - 30/11/11

CHURCH CAMP!!!!

Church camp was so good. Well, I enjoyed myself a lot. I could felt the feeling of reminiscent of me joining at around 8 or 9. I love those kinda feelings. It felt like... Home =) hehe. Well, it was just good. I went with a pok ngan choi tho. O.o haha.

Anyway, got to know a few cuteeee!! kids. Kids like Daniel Hong, Sean Chaw, Jordana Tham, Lydia etc etc. They were so sweeet. Daniel got the funniest award! Which is really funny. hahahah. I think he's super emo and cute, but Chloe thinks he's funny. Hahaha and he speaks with wavy tunes. Ahhh, like a story teller! =)

hahahhaha. You know, suddenly, a chick seemed like it was dying. And everyone went to check out what's wrong with it. Then, I think Chloe was the one who took it out of the box and put it on a plastic bag and left it on the table for the other kids to stare at. It was really funny cuz I was thinking like, a chick is dying and nobody really cares to do anything but just let the kids stand around the table and stare. hahaha. not that they didn't care, it just seemed that way :P

then, I was telling Daniel, "why don't you go and do a CPR on the chick since it's dying? And press its body?" (I did my fingers the way your supposed to press on a man's body if he's dying). Then he was like "ARE you maaAADDdd? The chick's dying and you want me to do this? (then he imitated my fingers)" Then he left. hahhaha. so cute!

My letter box and a letter from Daniel. haha

Sean is very cute too! Everyone of em is cute. =D

Thank you God for beautiful kids!

2PM CONCERT!

These are pictures I picked up just anywhere online to let you know more about the ASIA TOUR CONCERT!

Now this was the first thing I noticed when everything started!! Super important to me cuz it's the first view that goes into my eye :8

OMG, you know how lucky these girls ah? At Back2You, the boys and these girls were dancing really hot dances. And at one point, the boys were supposed to pull off the boyfriend tees the girls were wearing O.O ahhhh!! and I was like: "I want him to do that to me! Undress me!!! ahhHHHHhhhhHHHHhhh!!!" XD

This was Nichkhun and Taecyeon's duet singing My Valentine. Wearing checkers babeh!!

saranghae oppa <3

12/12/11

BEAUTIFUL DATE!

Idk why, but I just really like it hahaha. Too bad, I had a terrible terrible headache. To be honest, being sick seems a lil fun seeing how you are allowed to watch TV in the middle of the night after waking up from your looonnng nap! But apart from that, the pain is just excruciating. =S sick! ahhhh. Still having it a lil here and there. Hoping it'll get well soon!! =)

Sigh sigh, disappointment.

I don't know why I'm bringing this up all of a sudden, not being sensitive all of a sudden. Just yeah.

Anyway, I don't think I'm gonna hold on to this friendship and just let everything happens naturally. Of course, I'll still put in effort that is needed, but otherwise is left to God. =)

I guess I do have a choice eh? I have rights to be pissed off, to choose, to be cranky... Instead of just putting up with you guys doing so, and trying to please you guys and make myself unhappy and not get pissed at all. Even if I do, nobody cares.

Ciaao~

Hello!! Haven't been blogging much, gotta start doing it back so that I won't forget things that have been happening!

Anyway, I've been working for my pops. It's not so much of a work to be honest, it's just following him around wherever he goes. Dad said that he wants me to see the world and etc. So the interesting parts were: police station (disappointing :( ), cash a cheque!, went to town etc. And it's like my parents have breakfast out everyday, so I kinda got a lil bored of the food even only 2 days. Hehe. :D

Time is flying so so so fast! I know I post this almost EVERY time I blog, but I just can't help it. It's the 13th today! Still remember when it was only the 1st during church camp. Geeez what happened in between man? Ok, gotta recall now. After church camp, was STF camp. Then mummy went to SG and back on Monday, braces off, then work on Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday. Spent Thursday in church. Saturday and Sunday - church. Went out with friends yesterday... Ooooh, voila! There goes 13 days O.O creeeepy.

Anyway, yesterday went out with some good friends and I guess it was fun! :D hehe, it's always good to hang out with people you're comfortable with, instead of having to please and thinking what to say all the time. I love spending time with these people cuz even though we don't stick to each other like glue, as in we're not in the same gang in school, but we're like good friends by heart, and know that if any of us have any problem, it'd be our greatest pleasure to lend a hand. Love you guys! It really feels like home with these people =3 hahaha.

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hahah

But the night wasn't so good. I waited for an hour ++ for my dad to pick me up cuz of his work, then since I had tea, my tummy was really upset. So I was a lil agitated and restless. Sighs. Then on the way home, I began to lose my focus on my eyesight, and everything got dizzy, my world was slightly turned, and I couldn't mouth words properly cuz I sorta forgot how to speak for a minute :P haha. it was just bad. Then tried so hard to sleep, and finally I got my rest and now I'm up! 12:51 a.m., good day people! My night has just begun! :D