:)

i love pic monkey!!!

cheer cheer, please?

Yesterday was ECA Drive and Orientation Party. Both events went smooooootttthhh, and I had so much fun. I hadn't laughed so much in ages. I got so high that I was so tired that night, and my voice was hoarse, and the aftermath lingered on till morning today. My eyes were soooo heavy >.< ermagerrrddd, it felt like i was hungover lol. It felt really good though. I used to be so hyped up all the time in high school. Now thinking back, probably that explains why I'm always so exhausted after school. I thought it was a normal thing :P But i suppose that's the reason why I felt like naps were mandatory even though I usually reach home late evening, and I'd be a super cranky kid without naps. haha. < 3

Anyway, during Orientation Party, the ballon arch that decorated the main entrance was so beautiful! It was so dreamy, like a fantasy. And the balloon arch we did this time was so pretty, much prettier than the previous one. This time we had better balloons i think, they look like jelly beans :3 hehe. I had fun doing the ballon arch in both events tho :))

The Orientation Party this year was so warm! I loved it so much. I wished last year's was like that :P And kudos to Fern's mini concert!!! It got everyone singing along together, which totally emitted the whole 'ohana' vibe. And there was this guy, Jet's birthday. So he was invited to stand in front, and everyone sang him the Happy Birthday song. How nice! It feels like the whole intake is singing for you. So warm!!! aww :(

Since the space was a bit tight, everyone was cramping like in a sardine can. And with 200 people, imagine the noise and the crowd. The games were quite cooly executed. Someone wrote on my paper "beautiful as f*ck" on my paper during The Joyce Game, which is really awkward cuz I didn't know anybody. Me and Sze Yuin cracked up like crazy during The Number Game, Jae Hoon is hilarious. Then suddenly the whole thing turned into a mini strobes, cuz people were dancing like partying. Anyway, kudos to the whole team for making it work! < 3

I went home and took a really awesome nap, which I started of by dreaming of fantasies of JJ :P haha

*

So today was the release of our AS results. I got AABB. I was aiming to get an A for Maths, but I got a B instead. 1 mark till A!! So I'm a bit disappointed, cuz I thought I had it secured :( Ah well, gotta strive harder!!!!!

I thank God for beautiful people and friends around me. To all of you such as my college mateys and Vikki, i love you all < 3

you make me happy, ba dum ba dum, dum dum dum

I'm stuck at a crossroad. I'm kinda puzzled and confused. I'm happy. But ironically, I'm not sure what to feel as well. Haha. I got my heart broken last year. I can't believe it's been a year. Lookin' back, I was wondering what it'd be like this year. And now here I am.

Whoops. It's the caffeine talking again. Don't mind me being all over the place :p hehe

x

rejection

LSE rejected my UCAS application stating that my predicted grades can't meet their entry requirement. Even though LSE has always been the farfetched, close-to-impossible plan which I expected myself to be rejected, but of course there's always that teeny part of me hoping I'd get in. So yeah, a lil disappointed, but I will get over it soon :)

my heavy heart attribution

Last Monday was orientation, don't remember what I did on Tuesday. Wednesday and Thursday was school. And I went to watch Lone Survivor with the boys on Friday. Damn it was so good.  Went to church ytd and today was college as well as council meeting.

I miss cassy dearly!!! And some other people too. 

Okey, that's all for now. Bye bye.

heyllow

i just need to like, study really hard.

and work out.

but i think, studying hard is what im saying now.

Big fat belly

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Ohanae weekend

This has been one of the coolest weekends ever! Mum and dad came over on Thursday, so I went to Gardens to join them for the weekend.

My uncle came to pick me up on Friday, then we went to Adrian's house for the pre-wedding dinner. I thought it was so meaningful to see my dad reconnecting with his siblings. Though it's only as near as KL, but my parents don't have the habit of keeping in touch and doing visitations as much as other people. It's not that they don't think of them, cuz my parents talk about them all the time, but somehow it just happened to be this way. So anyway, it was interesting to feel like I actually belonged in such a joyful event cuz usually it's attending other friends' events instead of family events. I guess for family events, they tend to feel like obligations sometimes, but for a newbie me, I kinda like it and I really hope for many many more!!! =) I think I have potential to be a very good cousin... hmmm •-• im weird I know hahaha.

On Saturday, me and dad went to check out the new PJ campus for BAC, and dad loves it. He suggested getting me a car here, say whutt o.O haha. We went to check out Lakeside Campus again with Peg this time to draw the distinctions between these two institutes to prep us when it's time to decide. Im torn in between, due to the environmental differences, as well as their respective transfer programmes. And UK is still an option, but I can't do further without a reply, so im really hoping for quicker responses. *fingers crossed*

My bro picked us up and we went to midvalley for amazing duck lunch. Hahaha. XD it was so good. Then we went shopping cuz my dad has these vouchers. Im really really happy! Hahaha. It's always, always nice to spend time with my family. It gets more interesting as each year passes by! ;) I was asking if my dad could get me a Polaroid camera, but he wouldn't cuz he thinks it's temporary craving and that it's unnecessary. To my surprise, this morning when i woke up, my mum (in her most maternal voice) asked me how much the camera was and offered to buy me one. Hahaha. It's a trivial issue, but I was so happy cuz I haven't done anything awesome that day yet (since I just woke up) and my mum said she'll get me one. I was like, "What?? It's not even my birthday :OO (with all smiles in between yawns)" hahaha. Damn.

Anyway, Saturday night was the wedding dinner. I applied my VS body mist from Shar, and also my new lipstick and felt pretty great. I sat with my relatives and met this really pretty cousin of mine for the first time, Pauline. And again, I loved how warm the whole event was, and also the sense of belonging felt great. It was quite sentimental for me to see my uncles and aunties sharing stories etc. It's pretty new for dad too, so im happy that he's happy  haha. :)))) *all smiles!!* I went back and slept without removing my makeup (worst idea) cuz I was just deadly exhausted! I've been sleeping late less now, good girl (Y)

Woke up this morning and continued the shopping 'spree' within 1.5 hrs. Got new luggage which I absolutely love and 2 bajus with dad's vouchers. Went to lunch with le cousins n A. Christina before she dropped me home. Spent the afternoon unpacking and doing laundry. Then settled down in my bed till night. Had a super interesting session with Ollie, im so grateful. Truly, we never have control over what happens in life. We just gotta live in the moment, be genuine whilst have faith in God. It was really great to hear from Bubura ytd. And bananie's instant reply made me happy too.  >:D haha. So now u know, im this 166/167cm girl who's so easily satisfied by the tiniest things. But please, having said that, please don't mess with me. Seriously.

Good night world!  <3 tq Lord for everything, and also for Alvin (yes u noob >:) )

Bittersweet :(

I know I've been blogging about how content I've been feeling, but I'm feeling gloomeh now :(
It's like I'm missing some people that I really really really love,
And it's like I can't do anything about this feeling atm :(
Like literally I can't do anything.
I really miss the time we used to spend together,
But like there's nothing I can do for us to spend those times together again.
Going on retreats or camps would be lovely,
But going yamcha only, it's a totally different thing :(
I don't know what to do
My heart is just so... heavy. *sighs

Meanwhile though, I'm loving the VS body mist Shareen gave me :)
Did LNAT today, and it wasn't as smooth.
I miss home so bad, cuz it would've been wonderful for my parents to give me rides.
I'm really happy with the people I've got to know,
I just wish we could spend some time together again :'(

SUCCESS

Sparks fly

Red Roses

I was so excited to blog since last night, and also till this morning. I was super excited to share about the warmth and happiness I feel in my heart. Still, nothing significant happened, but I feel awesome. (: Tq so much for sending me off at the airport, it was so sweet of you guys!

I was watching Katy Perry: A Part of Me documentary last night and I was so intrigued. I never got to finish it cuz something was a bit off with Astro so I'll have to catch up one of these days. She was at the peak of her career, scoring 5 No.1 Singles from the same album, I think it's never been done before her. She was amazing. She managed to pull off fantasies for her concerts/world tour though they were difficult to do, she wore beautiful costumes, with her amazing vocals, and incredible team she had. She was living her dream.

And just as everything seemed perfect to other artists/people out there, her success could not hold her marriage. Her relationship with her husband crumbled throughout the journey of her world tour. I was surprised they actually filmed it. In the end, she had all she ever wanted, but she lost her "soulmate".

I really respect Katy Perry. When I was younger, I loved her because she has that really cute girl next door look, and I loved that she had black hair! Though I think she was born blonde, idk, but I loved her for being different and cute at the same time. What got in my head was that life can seem really perfect sometimes. The hardest tasks were viable and other things aside from your career, such as relationships with people are really great as well, you feel like you're on cloud nine. But little did we actually realise is that life isn't perfect, and it really isn't.

I find it really tough to accept imperfections and flaws. Thus, I get really nervous and fidgety once I make a mistake even though I tell people mistakes are inevitable, and it's okay to make mistakes. But it is quite different when it comes to myself. Life slaps you hard on the face, but we just have to learn to accept it, bear with the pain, let time heal the pain and then slowly pick yourself up, and move on again. It's so cliche, so easy to say, yet when it actually happens, I couldn't believe it was actually happening.

Life has ups and downs. Yep. There may be peak moments where I feel incredibly awesome with my friends and family, yet there's also times where I crack my head wondering what on earth is happening to my friendship with this special friend of mine. It ticks me off all the time. But one thing for sure I've learnt last year, is to just let it go.

Charly left for UK today. Imma miss this kiddo. I wish we'd spent more time together before in school, but it's okay. "Don't be sad that it's over, be happy that it happened." If I were to think on the bright side, I could think about how lucky I was to be able to work through so many events with this same guy. I often felt like one of the luckiest person ever. So I guess, everyone's chances are equal?  The odds are just not in our hands. Therefore we should just live in the moment

:)

lovelovelove!

I can't wipe that grin off my face

It's that moment where I find myself feeling really excited and grateful to be so blessed. Blessed with the things I have, blessed with people around me.

Nope I didn't get engaged, nor did my parents agree to buy me a new car. Just these few days, from hanging out at Charly's, to Jo's, island with derp n tim n peepo, panmee with derp, seating arrangement today in church :P (with derp n cicak), yamcha with Dick n Jane, normal chatting with Dr Ray, to casual chats with Van... im just very happy.

Mum shared her testimony today, interesting. Oh, I got a driving license!!! :D hmm... chilling with Abs' bunny was pretty cool too. And tonight's yamcha was really warm too.  I mean, I don't know. I'm leaving to KL tmr, and yet I had a grin wiped longest on my face ever in the list of "The Day Before I Leave".

I haven't gotten around to confirm my resolutions, but it will be up soon. I'm pretty excited for this year. It's gonna be packed packed packed! 

Gotta remember to strengthen my walk with God. Thank you God for everything,  everybody.  I dont really know what im feeling or thinking now cuz I feel all over the place, but thank You.

♥

I dont like you, you don't like me, how good is that?

Yeyyy I passed my driving exam phewwwwwiitttt. I was actually pretty nervous about it, but dad told me not to get my hopes up high. So when I left the car early morning, I told my dad to prepare to hear me fail, and he said ok. Bukit was first, and holy moly, i was sooo happy when my car went down the hill smoothly. The rest came better and more relaxing after that. I met Choon Ying's friend Jedd, and mistaken him as a STTSS student. -.- Anyway, since bukit, all was smooth. weee!

Yamcha sesssions + candle blowing sessions :)

he burnt my hair T.T