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Piece of poo?

damsel in distress

this scholarship application process was truly stressful and had put me in a state of distrain. >.< i guess the feelings that came were reflected by my previous frustrations when applying last year. and probably lack of self confidence to believe that i’m a competitive candidate. it’s all in the mind, it’s all in the mind…

of course, i really hope that i'd get it, it’ll take the burden off my parents’ heavy shoulders, and that’s my ultimate wish. so im grateful that Ms D talked some sense into me. throughout the application process though, i’m so grateful for the people who’ve supported me through it. ranging from ms li-sher’s instant reply with a testimonial at night, ms D’s testimonial for me within hours to Joey’s effort into sending SC certs into my hands; and not forgetting ms D's wise words and my last review. they’re small, but im just phew, mindblown by these people’s efficiencies. 

also for the support of nutélla, which seems fresh. i always seem to share things unwittingly during convos, which always takes myself by surprise too. i’m just that dumb, Shiela has always been right about this. and as i was reminded to say my prayers before i submitted my application, i prayed for peace and just God’s grace upon this application, though my chances seem to be the slimmest and im not trying to get my hopes up.

pfffsh, mindblown episode 2. as i was submitting the application, i was required to write a 150 words essay on telecommunications. okay, so i did it hastily, and tried to abide by the word limit. and then episode 3, it was a minimum of 150 words, max 300 words. ahhhhh, such a blockhead. it was harder to insert ideas then, cuz I had adjusted my brain to contain all ideas with the least amount of words possible, and it was hard for me to reach for those lost words. =.= in between, i sent a draft to my sister while the ‘caterpillars i ate for lunch’ were non-stop flapping their new wings in my belly. i called my ‘tech-savvy’ dad for a quick screenthrough, and to my surprise, le sissy said it was good - and it got me pretty excited, cuz it’s been a while.

dad said grammar was “amazingly perfect”. it’s entertaining how his enthusiam affects his accentuation with words. anyhow, it was all completed and gone were them butterflies, i felt like flying like a bird and rocking a shower concert. 10 minutes later, i received an email saying i had to complete a series of online assessments that are due in two days….

…..

anyway, i did them this morning in the computer lab, so it’s good and sealed for now. *fingers crossed*

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**today is my beloved kakak’s birthday. she’s like my second mother, my caretaker when mum’s away. she’s the best, and really, i really wanna give her the best too, if only i knew how. she always forgets her birthday, which aches me sometimes since im a bottle full of feelings. anyway, i pray that God grants her a lifetime of joy and happiness. that’s the least i could do. < 3

Currently listening to - Bell 宇田 - 开花不结果

Bell 宇田 - 开花不结果



For lyrics, click below! 

Meanwhile...

This looks super dope. but im not sure I can do this >.< ah shucks.
I hope once day I can.

But this here, is heaven.

ButtahBenzo's got that right.

always remember.

For lyrics, click here :)

:(

Cry cry baby..

Ohana :)

Too cute. Hahaha

Im so bitter :(

Imma miss Ms Li Sher so much!!! Sooo much.

and she replied with a this! :D hahah #cutest

#blessings

what a fruitful and blessed weekend!

--> I went to watch *Bad Neighbours with Chee Ren and Alvin at Sunway Pyramid, as I decided to spend a night over at Daphne's. The decision came about from this sudden intensity of missing home while revising one night, and with the headache that was inflicted by the urge of wanting to go for a trip together, me and Daphne decided that a meet-up would be a perfect solution to talk things out. 

The movie ended at around 2ish, and I spent 3 hours walking on my own at Pyramid, getting stuff I like. My legs ached so bad. I met *Cassandra and her boyfriend outside of Cotton On, and it was such a cute and lovely meetup. Congrats girl, your bf passed the dreamy test~ hehe. Before parting ways, she *kissed my hair. :P hahaha. 

Ah well, i'm so glad i made the decision earlier that day to call up Paula for a meet up! I didn't think she was gonna make it, since it was so last minute, but then we managed to settle for dinner followed by a sweet treat of desserts at *Cafe Benne. Desserts were splendid! And of course, fellowship was simply delightful. Paula got us some desserts from Komugi, so sweet of her. When the four of us gathered, it was so homey and so easy ya know, cuz we all know each other so well and it felt like there were no reservations (:

*Paula shared some thoughts with me, and how she explained to her friend, Elaine why Paula wanted to get us desserts. So memorable, I'll never forget esp with the texts that followed by!! We did grocery shopping afterwards, where me and D started *spilling on everything that's going on in life, it's funny cuz we both are always talking at the same time, and sometimes it gets really funny cuz nobody seems to be listening, lol. After that, i went back to D's and met up with Jeff and chatted through the wee hours till 2am ish. Then shower and D continued her endless chattery till 4am until she talked me to sleep. lol.

The next day, I woke up late for breakfast, but still had it anyway, before heading back to Starbucks to wait for Mr Alvin who overslept till 12pm. It was a *nice quiet time alone though, where I sorted through my photo gallery and continued to dwell on the joy overfilling from the night before.

--> I just started on *ODB devotions, and it's pretty exciting and fun to explore more of God and believing that I'll grow. What more is, *Nat's doing the same, so it's always interesting to share these things with a friend, just like Shiela and I did before in high school. Today is Mother's Day and I went to church with Yi-Ling. It's a great great day, and the message was very inspiring, it was on how to pursue things in a godly manner. The passage shared was Genesis 13, where it talks about Abram and Lot. It talks about looking at things through the correct perception, through God's vision/eyes, rather than just relying on what our eyes can see through the flesh. Also, the how it is important to remain faithful at a time of waiting, and waiting isn't necessarily a passive action, it's rather an active lookout and being ready for the right moment. Roomie always has questions, and I'm always so encouraged by her asking :) so excited that she's stirred, and I can't wait to see more of God's magical works! ***

--> Besides, I made a phone call to *Sylvia yesterday to ask her advice on something. She's a sweetie pie! And she's doing ODB too, I'm so encouraged and heated up hehe.

--> *Another sweet booster: homeless shelter douggie insta picture :)

Photos:

photo battle with bananie

The wheels on the bus go round and round

Psssst! Huge puffer fish ALERT!

It's a great great great day

Lovely day spent with veryy lovely people :) hope that there'll be many many many more to come! ♥ xx

idk why my skin seems nicer here :O

^^

atmosphere of despondency

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Last day of college

though we don't spend as much time together like how it felt like back in high school, 

i'm gonna miss you cuz we've spent one and a half years together after all.

though we're not super tight altogether as a gang, 

but i'm glad and happy that at least i've had small talks 

with these people individually, and thanks for answering my questions 

here and there when i don't understand - my econs shifus, le funny shaz.

if God permits, i hope our paths cross again, and hopefully then, 

we'll be connected on a whole other level :) 

best wishes to you lovebugs :)

happy birthday Alvin

simple midnight surprise with these cutebugs!

blessed 19th birthday Alvin! 

I hope you're having one of the best days ever, and may your new year be 

filled with so much more fun, joy and infinity love!

i hope your wishes come true, and may you enjoy experiencing 

more of what the world has to offer :) you're a great friend, i'm so blessed!

oooh and thanks for dinner!

God bless :)

One Unusual Sleepless Night

I can't sleep. This is highly unusual since I'm such a heavy sleeper, I don't have issues falling asleep whenever or wherever (most of the time) provided that the place is clean and comfortable enough. Anyway, as I came across this old photo of me and my high school mates from 2012, it ignited a series of flashbacks of where I came from, of my old self in high school. I can't believe it's been more than a year ago!! I really miss high school, and it will always be a significant part of me. Having lived 17 years, I felt like I only recognised my own identity in that fragment of short-lived few years. It gets overwhelming sometimes to run through photos of when I was younger, and relate it back to who I am now, the connecting dots are simply uncanny..

Manchester Uni called today, and it got me reevaluating my decisions of going to Taylor's Uni next year, instead of taking the leap to UK rightaway. Even though Taylor's seems to be more realistic, but I don't live by the hindrance of impossibilities. Hence, I'm always torn apart between choices, because I believe that there's always something good that comes out of every experience. "Good times become good memories. Bad times become good lessons. You can never lose, you only grow from life.: - Ryan Ferraras . At the end of the day, I trust myself that I wouldn't mind forgoing fun and pleasure for a kick-ass lesson bourn by sweat and if to the extreme, tears too. 

One thing I've learned over these close to 18 months, is the significance of deciding when given a choice. Sure, each choice leads to different experiences that each promises values and lessons of miscellaneous things. And sure, when life needs a little push, we're encouraged to just jump off a plane, and build our wings along the way. But choices should never be decided just on a whim. Sometimes, a little more effort into thinking and deciding will take us a long way. Cause really, our happiness is in our own hands. And I suppose, sometimes it's okay to be a little more selfish, for our own happiness.

I'm honestly very much drawn to the idea of starting Uni in Taylor's. I can already taste a pinch of warmth by just thinking about it. It may not offer the best law programme, but I sense that the campus life and just the whole idea of it offers a lot more to other parts of my life, not just academically. Academics is important, but our lives shouldn't just revolve around just it. Furthermore, I will further my studies in the UK and end up with a certificate from UK anyway. This just sounds like a credible package. Hmm..

Some interesting quotes to share:

God always gives His best to those who leave the choice with him.

Jim Elliot

“Be careful of your actions. You never know when your creating a memory.”

Ricki Lee Jones

Gift of Life

Today is Labour Day! So me and a couple of classmates went to visit Mr Adam. Despite all that's happening, it's a good sign that he and the family seemed positive and optimistic. Mental strength is really what that's gonna get them through this tough period of time. The worst would be being skeptical about treatments and the truth of medicine. He's such a great person, I know that heaven's got a plan. May he recover soon soon soon!! (:

Meanwhile, spent the afternoon hanging around Publika with the roomie and had chocolate dessert! Don't think I'll ever get enough of the warmth and goodness that overwhelm me with that first bite of chocolate coated rice crisps and stain my lips with a lil taste of heaven. Lol.

xx ♥

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