To You, let endless praise resound :)

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so much love

So i had a really good day yesterday. Surprises, are always a blessing. You never know when they come, you always wonder how you're so blessed to deserve so much goodness.

Despite the a bit chaotic weekend, this seemed like the blessing in disguise then! :p i actually called mum to tell her about it luls :P

Anywho, Wednesdays are always great! No school. I woke up at 10, went to uni, had Pan Mee alone, then went to library with Eileen. Was so relieved to be able to have my own space and do my own things :) Didn't get to study cuz was too caught up with catching up with blogging and other stuff like texting.

Henry called about the hosting for Acts church, sounds exciting! Then one of the thing I was most looking forward to all week... BKT!!! YAYERS! So Paula and I stayed back so that Jade could pick us up at one ago, and I caught up with Paula and told her about ^. She said she was very happy for me, and I was very happy too cuz I didn't see that coming at all! Went on to pick up Daphne, Celine and Vikki - I was sooo excited!!

As we arrived SS14, we arrived so much LOL. Then Nat and Lawrence joined us afterwards. I was so happy during dinner, I could literally taste the joy while I had the ever-lovely Bah Kut Teh. So homey, so yummy, so heartwarming, especially with so many familiar faces that I love - which put myself at ease and reminded me of home every second, and of course also with good vibes like Jade, Lawrence and Nat. Jade is such a sweethearrttt!!!

So blessed and grateful to be able to feel em KK feels in KL, feel so in place, feel so at ease. thank you Lord :) oh and mum called me randomly yesterday saying that she misses her kids LOL, and she texted me her IC no randomly in case I wanna buy properties! :P LOL (?)

Though today I've experienced a bit of a moodswing, especially feelind disheartened by irresponsible people, but the flaws that exist in our world that don't even seem to deserve to exist cuz, i mean like, how hard is it to get it fixed?!

But praying that God is in control, God is sustaining me, and I feel okay again. Am staying back in library to catch up with what I've left with my personal stuff - ranging from blogging to replying texts. I managed to chat with Ravs, Charls, Hanna, :) (ze mooting peepos haha), Tracy, Natsie, replied Cassy's text etc, it's all good! Just constantly realizing that I lack so much, and have so much to learn always.

Oh and happy belated birthday Daphne, twas a good night spending it with my loves from home, and seeing jeff and lck too :) happy birthday you beautiful soul! me love you gusta :)

New beats that i dig :)

took my breath away :)

Oh and I forgot to add, managed to let Bryon know something and it is making my heart overflow with joy :) :) joy that could last me at least a week maybe? (just as Eileen said with her bag hahahahha)

*
So Close by Jon McLaughlin is one of the best songs ever. I always regain peace and calmness whenever I hear song. The A Team by Ed Sheeran sometimes has that effect too.

I could definitely get married to this song.

How can no one ever told me that Jon McLaughlin was hot?!?!?!?! and young?!?!?!?!??!?!??!

And gosh, if Jon McLaughlin proposes to me with this song?! double trouble.

enjoy :)

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"They say that I wear my heart on my sleeves,"

So I was having one heck of a week last week, (in a good way), it started off well and the exuberance was just all over in the air, although I fell sick and didn't get to catch up with studies as intended. < I decided to linger on the joy of being sick since it's so rare. :P anywho, it didn't come to a halt until Friday, when a friend from my clique flipped out at me for chatting with another friend during group discussion. Well, aside from taking personal offense in the issue itself, what disturbed me was the whole other context of it. Feeling misunderstood and lost in confusion, I didn't know what to say but just remained in the context of disbelief.

I know the principles of getting through life, I know the facts included in the "Guide to Life" book. I know it. But I just can't help myself from escaping from the emotions that came by. It was a relatively good day, and I was looking forward to going to Homes, and spending the weekend prolly shopping with Eileen, going to church and just, having time off for myself. That wasn't a good start. After homes, I went to Wilson's place to play Lami with the oh-so-lovely-friends, and had a great time! Went to eat Luk Luk and then Darren got pissed at me. (not so good.)

I went home, crashed at 3am then woke up to Eileen's texts saying that she wants to go shopping. Though heavy-hearted still with what happened the day before, I was anticipating the time we were gonna spend together. And, LOL, we were in Pyramid from 12ish till 9pm at night - we had porridge lunch, went to look for bags, ate Poppiah (amazeballs!), bought Boost Juice, ate Aunty Annes, I bought my contacts, I bought a small bag, shopped for Daphne's gift, bought some hair accessories, bought Eileen's bag (yay!!! highlight of the day - purpose achieved), and then watched Bean while eating dinner, found out that there were no more taxis to go home, called Yan Hao and Jeff but to no avail, and then Tian Chun (the awesomest!) came to pick us up and go home. It was a great day! :)

I got home around 9ish, feeling excited to organize my newly bought items, and clean up my room, then mum called. She was wondering why I haven't called in a while, and I said the same - as I've been sick the past few days, I didn't wanna call her cuz I didn't want her to hear my raspy voice, I just decided to wait for them to call, to 'find out'. Then mum told me about her pain through the thing, and then she got really concern when she found out that I was unwell. So she went all motherly asking me how I'm doing, and telling me what to do and what not. I said that I missed her (rare), and she said (with that super motherly voice), "then we'll fly to see you," "or you can come home," I know it wasn't all that possible cuz I was busy with uni, but then I teared up after hanging up.

At that instant, I was overwhelmed with pain and sadness and regret? I don't know. I was in pain as I realised my parents are getting older and yet they're still working so hard to fund the family. Regret? because I wished I could do something that could lighten their burden - but it's clear in the picture that this won't materialise until many years to come. I teared up after I hung up, and I was just thinking who should I talk to. Although not very convinced that she'd hear me out, I just texted Bananie cuz she's like my no.1 punching bag. She replied after a while, and didn't seem keen to skype me. I was a bit sad, but then I just decided to maybe just brush it off. Then i showered and she said she was on the phone with her mum, so we decided to skype. I didn't think i was gonna be an open book in front of her, but tears just flowed down naturally XD

And we chatted till midnight.

As previously mentioned in the blogspot about embracing the moment, though that time was all teary and seemed to be categorised as 'sad' by the norm, it was one of the best as I was able to confide in my best friend, and it was so heartwarming, and some day, everyone's cup will overflow. So that was my moment, and now that it has overspilt ready for another refill, I'm okay. That moment, was so precious, in a way I was so grateful for such a friend in need. Grateful for such great people around me, grateful for my family. Bananie is one of the most beautiful person I've ever met, when you meet her, her inner beauty just outshines her appearance so so much, you'll always feel drawn to her. Amazing wonders God does. I wonder what was God's true intention for you to be on this earth? I mean, I know it, sorta, but just curious of how exactly God phrased it :)

please stay you, my love.

God is so, so, so, so, good.

:)

"Courage is not limited to the battlefield. The real tests of courage are much quieter. They are the inner tests, like enduring pain when the room is empty or standing alone when you're misunderstood." Charles Swindoll

blackie/pilak

SHAFIE,

YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND.

ollie

LEONGGGG,

never seems to stop warming my heart. :'(

love, rosie

Monday was a really good day. So after class, me and the girls headed to Empire Mall for lunch as well as Hi's boyfie, and then went on to watch "love, Rosie". Lunch was great! Not just Pasta Zanmai itself, but company and fellowship was very enjoyable and gratifying. :) Shared so much jokes and laughs during lunch, and then to be complemented by one of the best chic flicks = bliss. I've read the book in J1/J2 as lent by Sar, and though I can't recall what it was about, I remember the pleasure I gained from it as a really nice, simple, straightforward and unique book as it was all in convo form. Movie was great! I want my own Alex too. Oh and dayem, Alex is sooo cute. His messy hair from the start took my breath away, and his jawline was so defined, as well as the lines in his face that are so distinct whenever he makes and expression or just smiles. So cute. I want my own fairy tale too. I shall await, and :) yeah. :)

Yesterday was a pretty fruitful day too, though it was less 'fun'. Chatting and eating with the girls over the 5hrs lunch break was quite fun, oh! and esp since it was concluded by a phone call with anna :) then we had a Legal Skills meeting by a partner of Raja Darryl & Loh firm. It was indeed very insightful and got me thinking on quite a few things...

First off, Mr Choon reminded us that we should never be under peer pressure. - don't let it cloud your judgment. It is important to know "what you want", and be clear of your objective. There may be many approaches to achieve the objective I've set. Always ascertain something. Don't drift along, don't follow the crowd.

Ability to think/decipher. | Always think. Your brain is the most important organ of your body. | Independent thinker. | If you think enough, law is simple. | Don't be afraid to exercise judgment and make independent mentality.

I was further reminded of the importance of vanity, originality, confidence, courage, improvement, take responsibility, show respect but not be intimidated, exercise judgment and taking care of ourselves. [Inwardly} it is important to have a sense of responsibility, have the ability to think and work independently, but at the same time ought to contribute to teamwork.

"In the law profession, you reap the benefit in the long term"

Just as throughout and after the talk, I felt so empowered and motivated to learn more. I realised how much I was lacking, and will always continue to lack - which at the same that amazes and excites me at how much I could grow and learn!! I just need to buckle up and appreciate time so that precious time that could go to learning something new don't go to waste. At the same time, I'm reminded to take good care of myself so that I could have more time to go explore different things at different places.

I am also well reminded to always embrace time and live in the moment. Rather than wishing exams never come to past/exams quickly go away, or holidays quickly come but never go, or going to school wishing I could go home and sleep quickly, I'm well reminded to appreciate each second, and again, live in the moment.

So motivated to watch so many movies, read so many books on various topics - ranging from self-improvement, building confidence, learning time-management skills, learning cultures of different parts of the world, learning how to be a better woman, learning to grow with the family in love as well as friends, learning how to develop creative thinking, learning about the goodness of other people, and just... ya know, keep exploring the beauty of the world :)

Only You that I adore :)

Went to church with Darren and Paula today, and feeling as blessed as always!

It just doesn't feel enough, wish there was church everyday, and Homes every week!

Looking forward to Homes this week to experience God with these amazing bunch of people =)

thank You God almighty!! < 3

a blog post dedicated to God almighty

This is so long overdue!!! Gosh been tryin' to post this instanteously last night, but was worn out, and decided to do it this morning - but overslept, and this afternoon - but took a long nap, then after nap - but was replying texts, trying to get things done, then post shower, but dinner came home and caught up with dar, then post dinner - but was replying texts again. This post is so undeserving of all this madness, so sorry.

Anywho, home has been lovely, it was very heartwarming, a remedy to my 'worn-out' soul. Having such long weeks before, I felt so rewarded with the idea of home at the other side of the rainbow. Felt so fortunate and blessed that I was going home after such long weeks. And little did i know, i only began to really learn the true meaning of a long week. Though journey to the airport wasn't sweet, and especially when it takes a toll on me when I make mistakes, I told myself to get over it no matter how hard it took, as time at home was precious as ever.

Boarded the night flight, I figured I wouldn't sleep though the week's been relatively taxing. And I selected the window seat so that I could catch the plane taking off. But little did I know, i dozed off before anything else, and the second consciousness hit me, was when we were already high up in the air. How unpleasant must I have looked with my head constantly hanging whilst going loose on the snooze, LOL. And as I woke up after that, joy lit my heart, and I was all smiles embracing my surrounding. The point is, home was good.

Spent the next few days doing stuff as posted previously, and attempted to stay home to do my work for a couple of days. It was a brave thought, lol. I remember, constantly finding myself just sitting there with just one thought in my head, "how is it ever possible to feel this lazy?" "i just can't.." it wasn't as saddening initially but on friday, i was already feeling under the cosh from being undproductive, then mum told me that I should manage my time properly as I was stuck at home and we couldn't hang out, go shopping already. Despite it being the truth, the same reluctant-me-to-accept-my-own-flaws heated up on the inside, wishing I was better. My head had been heavy thinking of how I was gonna fly back to responsiblities, but the tip of it all was when I got home from cell, and realied that, "oh hey, 27th of Oct seems like a significant number" it's been in my head all week, and I just thought it was the day I was returning to KL, but then there I realised I was flying back on the 25th. Then the people in the WA group started chatting up about the contract assignment, and my heart raced so quickly as I checked the date of the submission, and BAM - there goes the grenade.

i felt so helpless and worried. i could literally feel my feet turning cold as complemented with my sweaty palms. i just prayed and prayed, i think. and i packed my bags. i prayed for peace to come into my heart, so that i'll be able to get through this. usually packing the night before seems like a 'stressful' task, so that happened next. then chlo came over to write stuff, abs too, and i was glad they came, as it eased the tension for a bit. the next morning, i was all quiet and reserved. after having a great breakfast, i planned to do my work on the plane. i just prayed. i didnt get to do work on the plane, but i started after a nap as i got home.

there, then, i literally felt so helpless, with nothing to hold onto at all, felt all defeated on a bare ground before God, and I said, "God, there's no one to help me now but you alone. and i know that by my own strength, I can't do it. My flesh will fail me. I don't know how it works, and I know strength is not something tangible I can't hold onto, but God, you're all that I can depend on and just help me." "I know that you won't fail me, ever." A small part of me thought, "is this gonna work out? or is this just a painful lesson?" I didn't feel like taking the risk to then mislead it into saying that if I didn't finish, that means, God has forsaken me and failed me. I didn't like the idea of that - even though when it really happens, I know that it's not an act of God to disappoint me, but it's simply a blessing in disguise. It was a risk.

Without thinking much at all, I just prayed that prayer, holding onto it tightly in my heart, and just spaced out to focus on my work. I texted Yvonne and Jade to uphold me in their prayers, even though part of me was dubious of the manner God's gonna help me. And i don't fancy disclosing to people when I'm going on an uphill battle. But i knew that Yvo and Jade were gonna be my source of strength as well. Words of encouragement kindly flowed from them and Jade called me to pray for me. I felt terrible for missing church =. = During that time, I missed home so much, missed the good times in life, but couldn't spend any few minutes longer to dwell on the situation but rather make the best out of what's left. The mental challenge was simply, hard.

I finished Contract at about evening time, relief sub-contained me as I started on my Reflective Journal. RJ didn't seem that difficult, so all was well around 11pm. At that moment in time, I was just dumbfounded by the grace of God. So grateful that I had sufficient peace to get me through, and that all was done at 11pm with an hour spared till midnight? Gold. it's even 11.36pm now, and I barely get any time off when it's 11pm. I'm so grateful, and when it was 11pm, I managed to shower, put things away, arrange my bed and prepped for bed. God is so good.

God is so, so, so, so good. Thank You so much for everything.

*Meanwhile, uni's been well. People have been lovely. And i'm meeting my high school friends tomorrow. Life's too short for worries. And I've learnt to surrender all to God and reserve no space at all for worries. Truly, God is my strength, my refuge and fortress.

Oh and again, meanwhile, I just told my roomie that I used her fb account to play tetris before, and she told me that she minds my actions. I apologized and promised not to do it again, but i still feel so guilty and hope that it won't tarnish our friendship. Sometimes I wish I was perfect and our relationship won't undergo any trials at all, but then again, realistically speaking, nothing is perfect. And those that come out well after a trial, are those that are gonna be stronger than ever. Right now is the testing period I suppose. I just feel terrible since this is such a heavy bet. However, I've done my part and I can only pray that may God intervene and let God work the rest.

* Am so in love with this. Stumbled upon it one day doing devotion - Saturday morning?

Be anxious for nothing, but.. Let your requests be made known to God; 

And the peace of God... will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus 

- Phillipians 4:6-7

Amen.

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So hello :)

Had fish head breakfast on Sat, spent time chatting abt life - further studies catching up etc with Abs @funky, then spent time updating mum abt faith and uni life with mum @yenai, went back to church for youth, played the Ice-Breaking ChubbyBunny game with Kris, then saw Emer, then went for BKT dinner with ze rest of ze ppl (abs bel) in Damai, then went yamcha @theBside at the Lido Plaza i think, saw Melissa and Alvin! :D hehe.

On sunday, went to church and learnt abt how much God really loves us. Went for KFC lunch and movie with derp n abs, where we shared stories about life faith and others. I was super cautious when we drove back home cuz there was rain, the I wasn't familiar with Abs' car. Went for the Sutera dinner at night with parents, and experienced Krisdayanti live :D she was really good, as she sang covers as well as her own. My kakak said she's the Siti Norhalizah of Indonesia. 

So anyway, I thought that this break was good. I prefer this type of breaks rather than 'meaningfuless' breaks :P at least there's something to take a break from :)

yogi

So, i guess idk why, my heart flew on a time machine back to where i felt so undeservingly loved back then. I was just reminded of the times where i so casually got the chance to rant to someone every day when I got home, without fearing someone to judge me, but rather just accepting me for who I am, lending a listening ear, someone who tried to make me smile each time my texts misled to think I was upset, gave logical upfront advices which i couldn't see when troubles came. I was really blessed to come across someone who's so smart and witty, kindhearted and generous, bold and shy at the same time, not deserting the quality of perseverance - to a certain extent at least :P

as i reminisced (as always, sighs), i reflected whether there were any regrets, or guilt that i should feel for missed opportunities. but i'd like to live by, "living life with no regrets," and not just being defensive and all, i really think that it just wasn't the right timing. sure, i dreamt that we were successful lawyers together in the future, and i absolutely adored the idea of having a companion who's smarter/elder than me which totally grants security, a bold and shy character for me, and someone who speaks more than one language fluently! and the things done for me were absolutely diabetic and melted my heart, they were just constantly a bomb dropped from nowhere, and enveloped me with thoughts of how lucky I am to be blessed with all this, when I on the other hand, did not do anything at all, but just received so much.

it was therapeutic to constantly be able to vent to someone who never attempted to put me in a bad position. it was a huge factor in contributing to 2012 being the best year ever, and also one of the best birthdays ever. it's made me feel soooo special than i ever did, than i ever expected.

thank you so much for warming my heart for not just one year in school, but another when we were both in different places, and continuously for another few months. we've only really hung out in person that few countable times, yet looking back those considerably 'hard times' in 2012 didn't seem so hard back then, and was doable, because of you... which also resulted in me being a better person then, and today. thanks for also being there impromptu throughout last year which is admittedly hard to get by, and being so patient!

one more thing, you know how you see some things, and you wish that that will spark your dreams to come true, and those things often remain as part of reality, with no incredible stories that follow? and another when you see something of the fantasies sitting there at the corner, with your very dream come true, even dreams you never thought of dreaming, just dumbfounded at the reality of it when life was happening?

it keeps me wondering how God is so good at just assigning a seemingly 'random' person into my life 'oh-so-randomly'. but knowing God, His plans must have been meticulously designed and I'm just forever grateful for you and everything else!

it taunts me sometimes, but i believe there's a season for everything, and thank you so much. sorry if i hadn't been any bit close to being the same, or being nice at least, but i wish you a lifetime of happiness!! and thanks for realizing my korean dream, even just for one bit! < 3

homebound, again

好期待回家。。

^ something I felt like posting yesterday. I think the booo has influenced me in her Mandarin and her manja ways :P p.s. i've been searching for what manja is in english, and i came across a page which says that that word doesn't exist in english.. hm i wonder. okay back to the topic, it's not like she tries hard to be cute, i really believe it's in her blood - as much as she wants to depart from that fact lulz.

so this week has been quite hectic, these past 2 weeks? i've been rushing assignments, and haven't got proper sleep in a while. i usually need to tuck myself into bed - i know it may sound strange, but what i do is that i gotta pack up my things for school the next day, tidy up my desk, clear things out of my bed, arrange the pillow, bolsters and bed stuff nicely, turning off the lights, set my alarm, reply my whatsapp chats and make sure nothing gets left behind, scroll through instagram to cover all then current feed, and say a prayer before i sleep. that's my routine in preparation for sleep. it's important for me as i feel i have to mentally prepare to get some good, restorative and 'substantial' sleep. and this is crucial as it preps me for the next day.

one thing about me is that i fall asleep pretty easily. most of the time, anytime, and anywhere condusive, no matter how much noise or how much sleep i've got before, i can sleep like a baby. however, some unpleasant exceptions include times where i attempt sleeping to get past traffic in the car to avoid motion sickness. having said that i fall asleep easily, that doesn't mean good sleep. it's a disadvantage when i get sleepy right after i open my book, or grant myself excuses such as backache, tired etc needing some rest. and then i'd sleep, and wake up the next morning and spent the whole time not doing assignments.

okay enough about my sleep, home is good. it always feel good to come home. as i thought about it on the plane just now, "am i excited to be home?" I don't have them anxiety in me as I would have previously, but there surely is a sense of satisfaction and I just can't help but find myself smiling :D i one of the primary reasons i wanna come home is to spend time with my parents - to spice up their monotonous life :P haha.

looking back, this one month has been fun, though busy. it's definitely better than being granted 'purposeless' holidays like the ones in June, as though it's tiring and stressful, but there's something to worry about. so it's all goodie :) I suppose, if home was in KL and I was schooling in Taylor's, I wouldn't dread going to school, but rather feel all satisfied and happy. A one week break would already be sufficient probably, but other than that, all would be well :D but, back to reality that's not happening :P

goodnight world :) tty tomorrow!

herrow eileenboooooo!

(just if you happen to stop by, :) )

i'm barely there with tort, but as i lifted open my laptop and "Say" by John Mayer played, 不知为什么突然觉得好幸福，好满足!

I guess it had to do with this pretty good sleep that I had, that I really appreciate. I got pretty tired after clearing stuff away in my room, did a lil sweep here, skyped Chlo for a bit, and then just decided to chill on my good-looking bed, with nothing else on it but only the necessary 'sleep stuff' :b wasn't sure if a nap was the way to go, as i really didn't wanna miss the alarm and let guilt consume me for the rest of the day, but i dived in it, and woke up first at 2.30am, and then really woke up an hour later.

my head does not feel heavy, my eyes feel fine, only a reflex from the bright light alone, i feel okay. for the first time, in a while. i guess it's been a while since i got a peaceful sleep, sleep for sleep too, although it was impromptu. prolly waking up to watch chlo's b'day videos had therapeutic effect too. or rather, knowing that school doesn't start till ten today induced some endorphins as well, just prolly. :D

but all is well, and all is well with my soul. i pray that baby elisha will be cured, and may God interfere.

nevertheless, thank you God for good vibes :)

"Cast your burdens upon the Lord, and He will sustain you,"

sustain : strengthen or support mentally and physically

So, that has been the verse of the past week.

Spent Friday celebrating Ms D and Kwang's birthday, and also learnt about Baptism, importance of going to church during Bible Study. Spent Tuesday going to SS15 with Eileen. Spent Wednesday in the Parliament. Spent Monday eating dimsum with the Suriamas ohana, as well as Darren who drove us and I bought my Hyseac! :D Been chatting with Sylvia and Shiela as well, where I woke up in the middle of the night to a very warm text by lala saying they were talking about me, and just reminiscing about the old days :)

it's been a rather interesting week, where I struggled hard, to focus on my academics to finish off assignments and just do my work. It had been on my nerves for consecutively days, and got me "crying" out for strength. i felt so mentally challenged, and it wasn't easy. I felt so blessed though to have people around me who gave such kind words of encouragement. Thurs, Yvo was telling me to trust in God, and she said, "If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, God can!" Jade also texted me to trust that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens. She added that it's a very well-known verse, and encouraged me to take it literally and focus on His ever-lasting love for me, it's pretty powerful. I was weak, and it was therapeutic to learn that people are praying for me, and that, I can do this.

Been long anticipating Sunday to come, the day I can finally rest and go to church to experience more and more of God. Met Rowaine from Kuching, and was so encouraged by her story of being touched by God when she was in her lowest, and experiencing miracles and having her prayers answered. Praise and worship was incredible - Wake, Happy Day, Oceans, "All is well?". It is always great to be back in the House of God and gather with people who are on such fire for God!!! Eld Daniel shared the Parable of the Talents today, and emphasized the importance of using our talents/gifts.

"For to everyone who has will more be given, and he will have an abundance. But from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away," Matthew 25:29

He said that no matter how little we think we have, we should always use that one talent to its fullest, for the glory of God. And also, we shouldn't do things led by rewards. Jade caught the significance of being generous, and that the tipping point is the circumstance where you give when you're not in your comfort zone - where you have enough to fall back to. It's taking a risk. For me, I can't wait to start serving, prolly hosting, and I'm excited for that bucket to joy to just overflow in my heart. Currently, I feel that caring for people is a good thing to do. No matter how skeptical people will get in terms of doubting the genuineness or sincerety, one day, they will loosen their guards, and open their hearts to receive the goodness being offered by other people, and slowly but surely learn to attribute it to God almighty.

Was really excited to hear about Celine from Michelle! Still constantly hoping that I'd be able to bring Yi-Ling, Amy, Darren to come visit, and hopefully Celine too :) And also markiemellow, that he'll be more dependent on God :) So exciting!

It's amazing how I've grown in this journey of faith. I'm not the best, but I am definitely so many steps forward now compared to where I had been, for the past long period of my life. It's remarkable to have God in my heart, just constantly knowing that God is there, and depending on him. He has never felt more real. God is a mysterious God, and works in ways that surpass human understanding. I may not have my prayers answered in a tangible way where it feels like an equation is solved, nor do I have my questions answered quite literally. It's just a blind journey of faith, and trusting that God has a great plan for each and everyone of us, and that the pieces of the puzzle are falling nicely into place as orchestrated by Him. :)

keep the faith, guys!

off to do my assignments now :)