Ps Yoong started his sharing by saying that everyone is different and special in their own way. First I thought, that was just an opener of his sermon, by first encouraging others and so on. He went on and gave the example of a girl who failed to continue her studies due to a medical condition, and hence felt worthless - but that's not true. He gave another testimony of an individualistic kid with no friends, and how nobody thought he was worth much and was simply undertaken by everyone, except for his parents. Because the only people who can see with the eyes of love, are his parents - those who really see the good in him. But because he was clustered by all the negative thoughts, nobody else could really see him at all. Ps then decided to stick his neck out to find him a girl as he thought, what he needs, is a woman who'd nurture this man back to life. And 10 days after being arranged to drive the girl to school everyday, they got married 4 months later and are a lovely, young couple.
He shared the essence of the feminine touch that every woman ought to have, and never lose. Men are born to be egoistic, and women are born to be submissive to the husband. When you rear a goldfish, if you don't feed it regularly because you think you're too busy already with kids and work, it'd be illogical to expect a fat happy swimming goldfish a week later. So, remember to feed your goldfish.
Also, he mentioned the likeness of the older generation, to always scold their kids about how the kids are ungrateful, that they have never lived the life they did before with only 10 cents in their pocket, how tough their lives was. The idea was that parents should not scold their kids like that because their kids will never be able to fit into their shoes, no matter how much they are being told of the same story. People will never completely understand what it's like to be a parent, until you are a parent yourself. When you hear it, you only know in part, but then 10 years down the road, you begin to know fully.
It's interesting and odd at the same time how I can barely remember what Ps had shared on Friday night, because I was really listening by heart but I can't seem to recall the points he shared. >.<
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So we had dinner last night at Xia Zhong Xia at Hilltop. Dad came to pick me up after going to see sunset with Ps, and I was running to the car like usual, a lil frivolously, forgetting that someone else was in the car. We exchanged some casual greetings, like saying how we've never met throughout his 12 years of visiting our church, and also where I study etc, before going to pick mum and then skedaddle to dinner. Upon sitting down at the dinner table, Ps asked me if I were confident with my results, I said no while explaining how I am quite poor in Econs, but oh well. He replied with, "You're different," or rather you're different from others.
*I then shared about my worries and also my unanswered questions all along - whether Taylor's is the way to go, if Law is the degree to take, disappointments from scholarship rejections (the ass-kicking processes), how I often get disappointed from scholarship rejections, and thoughts that'd cross my mind once in a while is why did somebody else seems to get it so effortlessly, whereas it is not the same for me. And also how I am terrible with making decisions - I prefer being thrown a task, rather than having the option to choose because I know that I would be able to learn from whichever option I choose, how asking 10 people don't really make the difference I needed but instead added more confusion, confusion that freedom of choice brings (full of alternatives), how Anna's such a go-getter, and how her advice based on such driven personality affects my decisions.... just like that lo.
He then said, "that's why I said you're different. You are different. I felt in my heart from the beginning to tell you that. You're different from your sister, and don't compare yourself to her. Don't make her the yardstick you have to measure up to. And also, don't let the world's standard define you." At that moment, I felt pretty astounded. Because though it's cliché (lol, because it's true *rolls eyes*), and though I saw it coming, but I could feel him speaking to my life, and instantly peace came, the baggage was shed-off midway, and I felt special again.
He then pointed out the example of the girl with no degree from the night before, and also that career's not an easy thing to decide, that nobody ever knows best, and I just gotta decide based on what I know at the moment, at my age, my current understanding. Today, he told my dad, "you gotta talk to her about what she understands right now at her age". Then, my mum began sharing how I was a miracle child - due to my ability to heal without sophisticated medical treatments from the Kawasaki disease when I was 4 years of age. That was a testimony that mum shared a few months back in church, and that was how mum was introduced to church and began to know God more and more.
Also, we chatted about which church I attend in KL, and he said that Acts church is a good place to be. About how the people there are very simple people, how they are straightforward, how the church is not too sophisticated. I told him that CH was pretty intimidating since I didn't have close friends, but that I love Acts cuz it's so warm and I actually grow there. He said that's good.
At another point, he said that I am a sensitive persons. And I was agreeing with full attention and said, "You know I sometimes call myself a 'Bottle of Emotions' (secretly hoping that I didn't sound lame lol), because I have a lot of feelings. Even the smallest things move me. And since I have a lot of thoughts, and it's not like I can really tell someone about it, so I blog about it just to make sure I don't forget anything."
He thinks I'm a very relational person, a people person.
I also told him how I really like to make friends, and I enjoyed it very much during my time in high school. And that my ultimate intention is to really, just help people in the future.
Putting these thoughts into words, is something I never thought would materialize. Especially not in front of my parents, because they would have objected for me to have doubts, since they can't understand where I'm coming from. And I can't blame them for that, because I myself can't even understand where it's all coming from. All these unanswered questions, I never knew how I'd be able to get the perfect answer, and also constantly worrying if the path I'm going is the right path at all. From asking people to people, what I get is only opinions after advices, I'd never be able to discern which is right, and which is not, or rather which is right for me or not. And that's what I've been struggling with for a very long time. Meeting Ps Yoong felt really important. And after dinner last night, it felt like God sent someone from heaven to give me answers - real proper, Godly answers. I feel so much at ease.
I used to feel ashamed when I wasn't able to perform as well in sports, public speaking, singing or anything that expects me to measure up to jie's standards. I'm never good in drawing, singing and for other things, I'm usually average? or a lil above, but never something that people would identify as, boom, TALENT, I never felt worthless though I haven't figured out my talents/what I'm good at, because I know that God has a plan for me. But, I just never knew what it is, and it felt like there'd always be this void, unfulfilled. But after dinner last night, I feel like I'm an extraordinary person God set aside for a very special purpose, and it's got to do with reaching out to people. I feel like I am going to achieve great things, and great things for God alone.
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Today, Ps Yoong shared about how sometimes God uses the simplest thing into a blessing. Simple things that bring in the reality of God. (how he texted a guy from Singapore to say that "I am with you", and it was at the precise moment where he was desperately seeking God, due to stressing to complete a project 100%).
He also mentioned something about outer beauty vs. inner beauty. When someone has a beautiful dog, no matter how beautiful it is, when it bites you, you won't want to keep the dog anymore. Everything goes back to the heart.
God uses the simplest ways to bless.
WISDOM is essential.
The inner beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit
*The feminine touch
Nobody's life is outside of God's hand
Too often we know the Bible but not the author
All marriages are hard work. You need to complete the house before you can enjoy it.
thank you for blessing me.
for reminding me of what I'm worth.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------She is a very human person.
As my dad told him stories about me 'counselling' my friends, he said,
I can see that she has no expectations when she helps people, she doesn't expect to get any returns.
Christabelle thinks that what you said were exactly right about her.
I hope she doesn't think that you've spoken to me about her before, and hence she thought I said correctly.
Of course not, she knows.
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Hi Christabelle, it is my pleasure to meet up with you and family. Everything is done in God's timing. I really felt God's loving heart towards you and I have no shadow of doubt that He is more than well pleased with who you are. If I can say this--you are a real person who mean what you say and there is no pretense or exaggeration in you. God has His plan for you that is totally different from what the world call success. You will be successful in His eyes. You are a very relational person and you will be successful with people. Peace be to you. He will reveal more in future. People will want to gather around you. Take care.
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