Jesus, come through

#614 Are You Listening? 

Every day, God is speaking to you. The question is, are you listening? Proverbs 3:6 says, "Listen to God's voice in everything you do and everywhere you go. He will keep you on the best path." In this message, Joel will teach you practical ways to liten to God's voice and how to recovgnize His leading in your everyday life. You will learn how to let peace act as your umpire so you can confidently make the best decisions. God longs for you to prosper in all things, and He wants to guide you even in the simple things. If you'll listen in everything you do and everywhere you go, He'll always guide you down the best path.

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It's gonna be an exciting month!!!

Long and fruitful weeks planned ahead :)

Can't wait to enjoy X'mas thoroughly as it is.

Praying for God's favour to be upon me as I finish this exam!

:)

Amen.

"Don't let what haunts you, halt you"

 *  Claire:

"You're pretty mature for your age, you know.. Not many people of your age are like this"
"Who? Me?" (in much disbelief - new fresh friendship)
"Yep, you."
"Oh yeah? :\?"
"Yeah! It shows.. when you talk to people, and when you have your own stand/views in things.. how you agree or disagree with someone.."

Service was great today - as usual! Woke up late and missed the van, cuz I didn't know the service time - blur sotong =.= met Yvonne, and she was lovely as usual! Met the brother after spending a few rounds circling in the hall looking out for him. I saw with a new met friend - Shumi. Service was rather entertaining and filled with laughters today, very easy and light. I missed the praise songs tho :( but you know, I was only 6 minutes late!!! S-I-X. Oh and took a cab to the bridge, could've split it with another lady, but the taxi just took both our money - what a rip off. But it's okay, it's okay, it's okay... Oooh saw Phoebe and caught up with her (she's studying in TAR college doing MASCOM, ok) and then caught up with Wernie as well. yeps! Met Jovina, had lunch with her, Clara and Evan and Hooi Xian joined afterwards. Then chatted with th egirls at Wendy's while waiting for time to pass. Fruitful time spent indeed, J shared her God-filled love story with her boo, and I was so delighted when the conversation just flowed so easy and naturally.. and got pretty insightful :D

feelin' so lazy, but no. OK, gotta jia you now, byee! :)

close to heart

#553, Trust God's Timing

In life, we're always waiting for something - a dream to come to pass, a problem to turn around, or to meet the right person. In this message, Joel reminds us of the importance of waiting on God's timing. He'll teach you that instead of forcing things to happen, release it and trust in God's precise timing. With verses like Hebrews 4:3, "We who believe can enter his rest, you'll be reminded of the concept of not worrying, but trusting God and the pressure will be lifted. The moment you pray, God releases a set time for your answer.

What God orders, God will pay for. What God gives birth to, God will always give us the grace to take care of.

when you delight yourselves in the Lord, God  will give you the desires of your heart.

Supernatural grace. Supernatural favour.

You can do the right thing at the wrong time, and miss God's best. Timing is everything.

Sometimes God allows delays so that He can show His timing in a greater way.

God wants to show His favour in your life in an amazing way.

p.s. I love how my hair smells.

TreSemmé ftw! < 3

:)

#576, Make God a Part of Your Everyday Life 

Did you know that God wants to help you not just in the big things, but even in the small things? But here's the key: God will only be involved in your life as much as you will allow Him. In this message, let Joel show you how to make God a part of your everyday life. Proverbs 3:6 says "In all your ways acknowledge God, and He will make your paths straight." When you make God a part of your everyday life and put Him first, He promises He will crown your efforts with success. You will accomplish more than you ever could on your own.

So blessed

#572 Be Good To People 

God said to Abraham in Genesis 12:2, "I will bless you and you will be a blessing." In this message, Joel reminds us of an important key to living a blessed, prosperous life and that's a lifestyle of giving. A lot of times, we wait for a special occasion to do something kind for others, or we think giving has to be costly. But Joel will reveal to you what the Bible says about being kind, and most importantly, the type of giving and kindness Jesus modeled. When you live a lifestyle of being good to others, you'll be happier, your life will be more rewarding, and God promises your gifts will come back to you.

Next train of emotions: Stupid, for being stupid.

So two days ago I chatted with the rofl girl, as I sought for reassurance, she said, "Don't let anyone, including me, hurt you."

whoa.

that didn't hit me hard, which is great. when that happened, i could feel the pieces of the wall just began to get themselves together collectively, forming a barrier.

yesterday i went to visit Mr Adam, am praying for his very best. met up with my college sweethearts, and it was ever lovely and warm. so lovely.

today, i did a problem question then went for consultation. towards the end, i sought for my personal time to chat. i let loose of what's been going on, and it's a relief. she said, she knows that things have been happening, and that what i wrote impressed her. that i can do it.

very motherly.

i had a panic attack yesterday. and i was so worried that i wasn't gonna make it. that i was literally hanging on the edge, by the cliff. she pulled me back up onto the ground, and im at ease that im okay.

the value of things began to hit me, and i realised the significance of truly, the more significant things in life. i said i'd try harder next semester, in realigning my priorities. i promise

she guided me thoroughly, of which i'm really thankful.

i walked out there, feeling as empowered as ever. my sight stumbled upon my reflection, and i saw a beautiful woman capable of doing such great things, and thought "she should be walking with her head up high", "always".

feeling like i could own the world if i work hard and believed in myself harder, at the same time, i felt so stupid - for being stupid.

like i said before, i'm no good when it comes to me making mistakes. but i believe God has a plan.

the sister called and updated me about her current triangular situation. it was interesting. and hey, though i live my life most days not seeing her, sometimes she could feel non-existent, but hey, someone at the other side of the world is willing to hear me out, without seeing me, and someone believes in me wholeheartedly, and would support me indefinitely regardless.

and throughout this, i've got closer to koala. and i'm just thankful :)

it's the end of my sob stories, i'm not gonna bring it up anymore unless really necessary.

it is done and dusted.

it is well.

amen.

:)

Had Christmas Homes on Friday and had gift exchange too. Went to the Big Bad Wolf after, during midnight :O crazzyyy!

And today I served in church. Had loadsa fun, and got to keng-gai with the elder hosts, got to play with Andre and he's such an adorable puff :)

Was really blessed by Elder Adeline's message today "It's not the end yet". It was again - the story of Jesus walking on water. What a powerful message, that its interpretation is being differently taught each week. "Be still, God is still with you. It is not over yet." As the service ended, I just hung around Eld hoping to chat with her for bit, as strongly felt during the first service when the message spoke right into my heart and I was on the verge of going all waterworks. I was gonna go, "I feel so blessed by your message today. I'm going through a storm too, it will be over right?" And really wondered what her response was gonna be.

I was delighted when she noticed me in the end, so warmly, and asked how am I. I said the above, really chilled-ly, and she just said "Let's pray!" I was taken aback a lil bit, but felt so ever blessed. Then she said take care and left.

Praying for the best, may God give me grace please Amen.

friends in need #mahomies

It's Dec 3rd, and I guess Christmas just came early. The guys were asking me to go dinner but i turned them down cuz I don't think I can afford it (though I'm still chilling on my bed now :( ). And then they came over around 11pm, and bought me ^Chai Latte that I've been craving since forever, and a red velvet cake. How thoughtful :') 

It's just these few weeks haven't been easy, and each day I'm just living by faith, trusting God in all that I do. It really isn't easy, when everyday seems to be so gloomy, and just trusting that miraculously the sun shall shine every day, or at least let a tinge of sunlight shine through - but it doesn't. It's been much requested, and I didn't think that it was that difficult to achieve.. Hence, this lil gesture sparked up hope at the very least. But I have made my decision, and I will stick to it, and just praying to God for strength, peace and grace. 

So as the guys came by, we chatted about the casual everyday stuff, which led on to the reasons behind these difficult weeks, as well as chatted about reaching out to a very dear friend whom I haven't heard from in ages. It was very warm to be around family, where we can get so natural and easy. Pete thinks that it's just voices troubling me, they're all just noise. They said that they've been there, and it's not easy. It in fact, sucks. And Pete was speaking from experience, how it can get really bad, not just terrible, but the worst. But that's when you really grow. That's when he actually grew...And though trusting that everything happens for a reason, he doesn't know his too. And I might not know mine.. It's honestly just a blind journey of faith. 

Christmas is just around the corner and I'm so excited! Am praying that I'll be able to work my hardest for this exam, as lacking as I am now.. I'm honestly freaking out :( But I'm gonna pray for peace.. Just the other day I was thinking, it could seem a lil sad how I'm studying in the month of December :(. But it's okay, just hold on tight, it's only like less than 21 days away, and home is where I'll be really soon, reconnecting with familiar faces again, building lives again, and just taking a break as well :) 

All is well, and thank You so much Dad.
Amen.

how wonderful, how beautiful

Not sure if I'm bipolar or what, I'm usually happy most of the time, but just sometimes a teeny fraction of my time I'd feel a bit upset.. At least that's what I was feeling today. And just now as I was cleaning up my room, I listened to Joel Osteen's sermon, and I feel so empowered right now. Feeling like everything's okay, and nothing's gone wrong. That that glitch is just a common everyday life happening.. I feel okay, I feel whole, I feel complete.. I'm okay. I'm grand. :) I'm gonna keep this spirit pumpin' for as long as it should.. Thank You Lord :')

wanted to use my old url, but unsure why it's not working. gotta find a new one..

just casually chatting with my best buds :)

#609 Keep Your Walls Up :)

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You can't be passive, you gotta be proactive and keep your walls up.

Guard what you dwell, be selective to what you give your time and attention to

They don't talk about ordinary people, they talk about exceptional people..

The more favour in your life, the more opposition it will stir up. Some people don't like you, simply because of God's blessing on you. 

You have to accept the fact that some people won't like you, and there's nothing you can do about it. It's not about you, it's about the favour God put on you.

I'm not gonna waste my emotional energy on something I cannot change about. I know it's about the favour of God in my life. This is how you keep your walls up.

I may be misunderstood by other people, people may push me down, but it's not about me, it's about the blessing of God in my life. (Mary)

If you don't learn to walk away from an offense, get upset from what they say, it can keep you from the fullness of your destiny.

Don't waste your time trying to win over people that are never gonna be for you. Don't try to waste your energy trying to convince people to understand you when they are determined to misunderstand you. your time is too valuable to try to prove to people that you really are okay, for them to accept you. It's not your problem. It's the favour on your life that they can't handle. You can run your race, focus on your goals, and God will bring the right people into your life.

You don't have to play up to people. if they don't want to be your friend, let them go, they are not a part of your destiny.

Statistic: 25% of the people you meet won't like you and never will; another 25% won't like you but could be persuaded to; another 25% will like you but be persuaded not to; and another 25% will like you and stand by you no matter what.

Don't try to win over people, just recognize that they are one of the 25% who are never gonna like you. Let it go, it's a distraction. You don't need their approval to be who God wants you to be.

You gotta come to that people to say that, "I am at peace, with them not being at peace with me" "I'm at peace, not being their friend" "I don't have to be in their group, to enjoy my life."

Stay in peace, keep those walls up.

You gotta guard your heart. Nobody can do this for you. "Think all things that are pure, things that are wholesome.." It doesn't say "Think of your problems," No, think of the good things - that's how you keep your walls up. You gotta guard your heart.

There are a lot of things that we cannot change. But we can trust in Him, that God is seated on the throne, He's fighting our battles for us, and we are going to enjoy our lives anyway.

It's not that we ignore problems, we just don't let them get inside of us, we keep our walls up. 
Don't give them the power, to offend us. Nothing can offend you without your permission. People can say whatever they want, you have the right to ignore it. They can leave you out, but you have the right to have a good attitude anyway. They can belittle and discredit you, but like David, you have the right to walk away and have a good day anyway.

When our problems arise, it is easy to be aroused and panic, but no, be still and know that He is God.

God works when we are in peace. That's why we have to constantly guard our heart.

If you're allowing someone to offend you, you're giving them the power.

You're being disturbed because they see the favour of God in you. That opposition is a sure sign that God's hand is on you, God has an assignment for you, and something amazing is gonna happen in your future.

Everyday is a gift from God. Don't waste your time and energy. If you don't keep your walls up, it can keep you from the fullness of your life.

"Stop allowing yourselves to be upset," You just gotta keep your walls up, and don't let them get into you. Don't let if affect your spirit, don't let it poison you.

Remember you only have so much emotional energy each day. Don't waste it on things that don't matter, in trying to win over people that will never be won over.

blessed in the dark places :)

thanks for having me back. maybe this happened so that i get to draw closer to you all. who knows right? but whatever it is, im just gonna appreciate this moment and be grateful for you. i hope i can be a blessing to your lives like how you've been for me!

life is full of ups and downs. I know that God has a plan, He will sustain and deliver me.

I pray that the breakthrough shall come soon, and Jesus, just come through oh Lord.

Even though the situation hasn't improved even bits each day, and the contrary happened, but I just wanna thank God for everything, and these people as well as the lovely people I engaged with over the past week, and that I'll see the light at the end of the tunnel soon.

And Lord, not just that, open my eyes to see the light too,

Help me be sensitive to Your word and Your presence.

I love You. 

and you girls :) 

#sisters 

 

can you be faithful?

stretching my faith, indefinitely..

the stronger the faith, the bigger the challenge...

:)

Feeling incredibly blessed from Homes on Friday and church today. Served for the first time! :D

To You, let endless praise resound :)

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so much love

So i had a really good day yesterday. Surprises, are always a blessing. You never know when they come, you always wonder how you're so blessed to deserve so much goodness.

Despite the a bit chaotic weekend, this seemed like the blessing in disguise then! :p i actually called mum to tell her about it luls :P

Anywho, Wednesdays are always great! No school. I woke up at 10, went to uni, had Pan Mee alone, then went to library with Eileen. Was so relieved to be able to have my own space and do my own things :) Didn't get to study cuz was too caught up with catching up with blogging and other stuff like texting.

Henry called about the hosting for Acts church, sounds exciting! Then one of the thing I was most looking forward to all week... BKT!!! YAYERS! So Paula and I stayed back so that Jade could pick us up at one ago, and I caught up with Paula and told her about ^. She said she was very happy for me, and I was very happy too cuz I didn't see that coming at all! Went on to pick up Daphne, Celine and Vikki - I was sooo excited!!

As we arrived SS14, we arrived so much LOL. Then Nat and Lawrence joined us afterwards. I was so happy during dinner, I could literally taste the joy while I had the ever-lovely Bah Kut Teh. So homey, so yummy, so heartwarming, especially with so many familiar faces that I love - which put myself at ease and reminded me of home every second, and of course also with good vibes like Jade, Lawrence and Nat. Jade is such a sweethearrttt!!!

So blessed and grateful to be able to feel em KK feels in KL, feel so in place, feel so at ease. thank you Lord :) oh and mum called me randomly yesterday saying that she misses her kids LOL, and she texted me her IC no randomly in case I wanna buy properties! :P LOL (?)

Though today I've experienced a bit of a moodswing, especially feelind disheartened by irresponsible people, but the flaws that exist in our world that don't even seem to deserve to exist cuz, i mean like, how hard is it to get it fixed?!

But praying that God is in control, God is sustaining me, and I feel okay again. Am staying back in library to catch up with what I've left with my personal stuff - ranging from blogging to replying texts. I managed to chat with Ravs, Charls, Hanna, :) (ze mooting peepos haha), Tracy, Natsie, replied Cassy's text etc, it's all good! Just constantly realizing that I lack so much, and have so much to learn always.

Oh and happy belated birthday Daphne, twas a good night spending it with my loves from home, and seeing jeff and lck too :) happy birthday you beautiful soul! me love you gusta :)