are you doing your BEST?

You know I believe that if you work hard, you'll get to a good place. You'll get your rewards that you really deserve, you WILL succeed. If you put in the effort, and at least TRY, it's good enough, you have already succeeded. Seriously, the feeling is really different. Even though you did not succeed even tho you tried, but the feeling you get is just different from not trying at all. Sense of achievement. And I feel that it is really evident that if you put effort into the right places, you will make it.

Just like training, you may mentally set down a goal to reach Abigail/Annabelle's record and try so hard to run as fast as you can, yet you only improve maybe a millisecond or two, and you don't understand. But if you put in the effort AND strategize well, you expand your footsteps, do the high-knee method, lift it up to the maximum and extend your legs as wide as you can, stretch till you can feel the pull, you'll leap and you'll feel just that much faster.

and it's the timing that counts. 

if you've jumped a second earlier, you might not be able to 

make it in time to jump over the hurdle.

Just like how my one/two second(s) delay

screwed up our gold for 4x100m.

The king of it all. 

Honestly, I wish I was somewhere close to him. 

Everybody does, of course :P 

Tho I may not be the fastest girl there was, 

I feel like at least I've tried, to just try my best. 

And the satisfaction is plainly rewarding :)

whoa, look at that sretch!!! :O I'd wanna do this! :D

OMG IT'S THE DAY!!!!

the coconut hair

HELLO YOU!!! 

Happy birthday to you one of my greatest friends alive!!!! :D:D:D:D 

It's been a long journey, and the journey has been a fun and intriguing and challenging one! :P Haha We've had 'trust' issues (no 'trust', no TD :O), i've had issues digging stories from you :P, you've got the "FACE", and you so thin and always catch me trippin' just as I thought no one would have seen me. :P It's sad that we've both left school, and thinking back now, I can't believe we've actually left :P School used to be THE place to be, to hang out and chill, and catch a glimpse of everybody and all have fun together though we're not in the same class! :P It's really interesting how you and your gangstas are a bunch of passionate homiez for PB, and I remember how ya all skip so muccchh classes :P haha. Anyway, you've been wonderful!! Especially during the 'tough' times during mooting, the kakao chat sessions, TD sleepovahh, the counselling sessions etc.. oh! and the most recent one will have to be the time during OC last year :P hahahah. Now, that was super interesting! :PP OH and not just "especially" ok, haha, but yes, and also for staying in touch >:D

Sorry I'm getting carried away.. :S 

Happy birthday mate!!!!!  hahaha
I hope we'll have manyyyy more cool stuff to come so that we can be partners again!! :D :D :D let's pierce our ears :D Ohhh.. gosh, you know actually what i planned to write in this post was how your celebration went last year =.= but i got carried away writing just whatevs :P

So... oh last year! I think it was a Monday or Wednesday, cuz we went to do the thangz during the fourth recess hehe. Oh.. There was Nas Tim LCK Shiela etc. And we brought you a cupcake/cake? to your class to you and sang you a song remember? you were sleepiiinnnn, lulz :P hahaha. Then there was the birthday dinner BBQ at your place, and we played the dancing game which was really funny :P haha.



I should stop.

Happy birthday to the greatest gorilla evah! :D

Have a BLASSTTTT and a SEXXYYYY night!!!

p.s. oh! you know where to find me if boredom strikes real hard, or vanity strikes its way through, but you're not sure how to express yourself!! :D :D :D hehe.

extract

"I feel like unhappiness isn't for me. Being all sad and gloomy, it's just not me. Negativity doesn't match my momentum. Pessimism, screws my head madly. It's not natural to feel this way. I don't feel natural, like how I usually feel, comfortable breathing in my own skin, livin' the days that come by, with innocent satisfaction. It is just as if that was how the day should have gone. Insecurity, fear, worry, anxiety, could you even breathe?"

'All the best!' 'You can do this.' 'Don't think about it' 'Have faith.' 

Lookin' naive withholding all positivity, yet believing every word.

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Oh!

And it said it takes ten days to arrive. :/
okay then! :)

got issues want tissue?

I gotta admit, I'm a very sensitive girl. :)
It drives me crazy all the time.
Drives me nuts in my own head :P
To be honest, I am extremely blessed.
I have received so much more than I ever thought I would.
And I have received so much than I think I'd deserve.
Sometimes, when good things come to place,
it's interesting to think how lucky I really am.
I'm really grateful for everything I have.
Things always happen so unexpectedly,
And it's just like, "Wow, thank you man :O"
Like, it's just so unbelievable while being lost in confusion!

I'm really sorry for being so sensitive. :/
Especially now at this stage, it's like you've got a choice to everything you do.
There's no simple right or wrong answer.
Because it's okay to be different,
To think differently etc.
Some may think gay marriages are against the religion,
But some believe that it's a freedom of right entitled to everyone.
So yeah, it's ok to think either way.
So idk whether being sensitive is ok or not.
I used to be pretty headstrong with my feelings.
It does not take control over my head.
I just feel upset that I'm feeling this way.
Coming from an oversensitive girl, seriously,
This may not be able to be taken seriously anyway :p
I feel like this feeling itself inside of my head is eating me alive.
It makes me feel upset when I see you online,
And awkward, till it makes me go offline :P hahaha
Though I love you to bits from the bottom of my heart.
So yeah, I don't think I should be this sensitive.
I have already so much than I could ever ask for :-)
For the things that happened in the past..

thank youuuu for everythin'! :)

hello :)

heellooo.. So here are some updates! 

Or hmm, just some notes for me to keep track of how I spend my days :D

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Hmm so my last post was on Friday. Which wasn't very much of a post anyway, it was just a reblog from Tumblr :) I love Tumblr's layout and design! But I can't seem to bring myself to abandon this blog that I've been posting about my life with for around five years. So I've decided to do it both ways :D hehe, if you can find it, you can see it! :DD

Friday I ditched Homes, as I planned to go hardcore with my studies. I got home around 8++ after YEB meeting, feeling extremely hungry, and quickly went back to fry the dory fish. It turned out too salty, and I couldn't bring myself to finish the final quarter. :S so I threw it away. Then, it was Skype-ing session with the ladies where we caught up about life, and well chat, it was a very nice night to remember :-) I dozed off right after >.<

Saturday Tried to climb the stairs, but only did it for like ten minutes then I went back, like a dead fish gasping for air. And the perfect remedy to this was, to cook corn soup and fed myself :D hehe. Went to college to help out with Pei Ying for a bit, went grocery shopping with the girl and went back home and spent hours on that silly story card =.= I just got so frustrated cuz doodling or designing is just simply not my forte. 

Sunday I enjoyed the message that was delivered - The Tale of the Two Masters. 

It was about who we are letting in to dictate our lives. Is it materialistic goods, fame, popularity, sadness, anger, unforgiveness or the social network, instagram etc. Ps Sandra shared a reminder that we should always remember who we gave our lives to, in the very beginning, and let God decide how our lives should be. Sometimes we get carried away in all things good, and we just lose directions and it'd seem very natural to just slip away. 

She said, "Trust in Him and wait patiently upon Him". 

And that we can only do what we do best, when we submit to the only one voice. 

We seek for God's affirmation, not from others. 

It is the praise from God that counts, not from other people. 

When things don't go well, it's God who repositioned us. 

We should not put the blame on the cause alone/'that person', 

we gotta remember who our master is.. 

Walk with humility and always give glory to God. T

he one who drives your heart to health and wealth.

1) There is freedom - no overstressing.

2) There is an obedience that brings blessing

3) Eternity

He came to give you life, and life abundantly.

rockin' night

so how was your night mate? sexy?

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Picture my heart.

So cool. Yay uncertainties =.=

Haha. Hi Johanna, are you reading this?

This could be you!!

Best friends ma.

hahaha jks jks.

partially. :P

words to share from my heart

Yesterday was Mid-Autumn Festival! Yep, just as how Paula has phrased it :D Nat gave me some mooncakes to get through the night, which I shared with Sar, Sean and also Yi-Ling. I planned to study at night, go all hardcore, only to fall asleep at 11pm after returning from Sar's place for dinner with Sean as well. Actually, well, I went back around 9++, we went grocery shopping before with Mark, had a 20 minutes phone call with Bubura, Shiela and Daphne. Then started replying messages because people have been saying that I reply too late! :O Shareen claims that as the reason for bellolielove :P not sure if it's true, but yep, guys like Sean and Alvin think it's bad. Whereas Jie, S, Lala find that it's okay anyway. oh shucks. :/

Jie is truly an amaazing person, I can't fully phrase how blessed I am for a friend like him. I just.. can't. haha. His wonderwoman, will be one of the luckiest fish in the big blue ocean. Always so comforting and loyal!! Not loyal, as in he's not unfaithful, but i don't think i need to explain this :p Anyway, thank you for being such an awesome wonder. < 3

Bubura's leaving today to the UK. Jie suggested me to call her in the morning, right before she left. And so I did. She sounds good and okay last night on the phone. I'm really proud of her. And as I called her this morning, she told me she was very touched by the people who went even earlier to the airport, just to send her off. :'( It's kind of hard to describe that overwhelming feeling you'll just get, as you step foot into immigration and you feel like your stepping away from the land of the riches, as dramatic as it may sound. I felt like I was walking away from all this goodness, and I felt so dumb and stupid for doing so :O

I felt kind of heavy-hearted when she was leaving, though I wasn't there personally to send her off. But my emotions did weight down a lil bit, for some reason. :'( I'm not sure when I'll be seeing her again, but I look forward to creating more memorable and precious memories together. I don't know what/how I should feel, it's always very uncertain. Sometimes I feel like, "hey Chris, you gotta pull yourself together and start living the life," but then there's always a soft spot for me when it comes to KK love. They are just too much to not look back to. I appreciate everything that KK has ever given me, may it go the distance =) < 3

Reminiscing about my friendship with Bubz over the years, I remember the time I felt so personally attached to her during the PB election, the year before when she baked me Bread Pudding in a beautiful basket for my birthday!, last year how I was really emotional with her as I was stressed about QGDZ and more stuff. =)

"Best friends are those who deeply care for one another even though they don't speak everyday. Nothing is ever going to change that special connection they once started off with. Not time, not distance"

say, do you agree?

Reach for the stars.

go Rachel Berry ;)

For the past few days, I was reminded by moments of the friendship with the guy. How his eyes used to pop up when I do smth unexpected, really out of the blue, really sakai. And he just laughed at how silly I could get. And also when I'm carried away with chatting around, I would suddenly turn to his direction, and then we'd smile at each other :D and his eyes would go really small.

Ytd I dreamt of some surprise thing that happened, oh shucks I don't remember :/ But some time ago, I dreamt that I lived in this new cornerhouse semi-detached or detached house in Kingfisher. And I had friends over, the people came in as a surprise too I think, it's funny how I keep dreaming about surprises :p and well, yeah.

This week is gonna be hectic. I hope!! Been having a hard time focusing on what there is to do. I only succeeded with a bit of law last night, only to go back to sleep soon after :( it's kinda disappointing. I need to deal with a whole bunch of stuff, think about the personal statement, UK application - at least the sissy part is through, i'm so relieved :), now that's one major thing sorted, studies, law, econs, maths..

Oh! And I went for lunch with Yvonne ytd at Tray, she spent me this RM 19 Sweet Potato Hazelnut Eggplant etc etc Salad, it was a bit too healthy, just like how Yvonne had said it :P We talked about UK, and the walk with Christ etc. Feeling so blessed~ :)

Who knows what's gonna happen in the future? I'm looking for answers, and this webbie clearly state that only by constantly reading the Bible, you'll realize the plans of God for you. So i will try try try very hard to do that too.

cheerios to a great day! < 3

Do you love chocolate?

Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the boastful pride of life, is not from the Father, but is from the world. The world is passing away, and also its lusts; but the one who does the will of God lives forever.
1 John 2:15-17

God wants us to be in control of the way we spend our time. We are not to love the things of the world, for if that love becomes too strong it consumes us and prevents us from loving God.

Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honourable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.Philippians 4:8

taken from: http://essentialthingdevotions.com/2013/03/07/do-you-love-chocolate/

read: http://essentialthingdevotions.com/2012/10/04/seeking-god-walk-in-his-ways/

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