Spendthrift

Lol, I'm losing track at the speed of my bills flying away.

And there goes my RM 300 I just withdrew yesterday. Lolzzzxx.

Gotta be frugal man, self control!!! #notetoself

TAYLORIFIED

People here are so distinct from where I come from. People might think that KK is just a small city compared to KL which is definitely true. Relevant to this fact, people's characters are so different. I suppose leaving S3, coming over here, is definitely an eye opener to the real world out there. Honestly, I may be missing out on all the great things and wonderful memories I could have carved, and I feel sad about it, truly, I feel sad. But I suppose after coming over, it's a fresh start and I should see it with optimism. Having said all this, the extent to which I feel sad, it doesn't really kill me. It's like I've always felt this in me, "You can make any other decisions. They'll each lead you to each route of its own. There's the upsides and downsides in all, you just gotta decide." And here comes the opportunity cost, choosing one thing means giving up another. You gain something, you lose something. It's the painful truth about reality. So, I feel like decisions are something you've got to do. It's not easy, but it's essential to move on to the next phase in life. And I know that, after I've thoroughly decided on something, God will just fill in the gaps. So yeah.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps. Proverbs 16:9

Reaching here, I wasn't aware of what to expect, I was anxious, worried, insecure, hanging by the thread, and... well, scared. Then I met people, and it was good! It was so nice. Then I got disappointed. Yup, bummed up by the challenges I faced. I usually face trials with optimism, going still all bubbly, and putting effort to make things better. Hmm. I chose to give up in the end though. Give up to take control of things, and really just let God. I chose to think, whatever comes comes, whatever goes, will well, go. So I might just as well take things with a pinch of salt. Those that come, I'd definitely be genuine, complete honesty. But if something chimes in, then okay, I'll try my best to let it go.

Through this, I cherish my friendships and relationship with my family and God more and more each day. They sorta pull me back together, let me remain intact. Just as I am on the verge of suffering a crack, they sorta come and mould it or amend it till it's good enough to let me stand on my own unaided. Just like a baby learning to walk.. They are my backbone.

It isn't easy, really, but with them around, I just feel that I can pull through.
God never promised life would be easy, but He promised that He'd be with us every step of the way. Hmm, so yeah. It's never really fatal, just gotta stay strong and hardcore.

As Tasha and Sarah are coming in a week's time, I feel even stronger to brave the battlefield. My army's here man. Bring it on.

Study wise, it's good ;) hehe, Taylor's is a good college. =)

13th of March 2013

Ya know I felt so emo today. After I came back from Student Council meeting, after frying fish, i felt so drained and it just pulled me way down emotionally.
sighs.
then i texted Puyol "hey what are you doing?" which was supposed to be sent earlier in the day. and I called my Hindi Po, and they lifted my mood instantly. :) thank God for friends hehe. then had a bananalaksjdlfajwiaoiajflsdfa session with Alvin lol. haha. yeppss.

:)

thoughts~

I've never really addressed whoever as my best friend(s), not cuz I don't have any, but I have so manyyy. haha. but anyhow, at this moment now, I really wanna say that,

I miss my best friend < 3

:)

17th of March, 2013

Ngehehehe, countadown about 15 days to the land below the wind, land that has my heart deeply hooked onto it.
< 3 wait for me baby.

Friday night was a pretty exciting night cuz I was in the midst of buying air tix back home a two weeks after the April sem break :P ngehehe, so excited~ I haven't seen ma sista in forever. ahhhh. And i just realised how we haven't taken a photo together in ages.

see ya around ma lady ;)

i feel suffocated

17/03/13
I shall resume tomorrow.
On my kachingz, and sakai. <3 p="">nights peepos~

16th of March 2013

Hellooo to this virtual world beyond my own.
I'm currently at Ipoh! Came down here yesterday by train for about 2 and a half hours, went for the famous "Nga-Choi-Gai" last night, then to Pasar Malam which was fun! hehe, went for Dim Sum this morning, and went shopping after! =) it was definitely a interesting day spent! I feel so happy and easy around here. #homesick

Facts I learnt today:
1) Sabah has a population of 3 million
2) KK has a population of 600 k =)

<3 br="" home="" i="" love="" nbsp="">

weeeee, i had Subway for lunch yesterday! Subwayy is soooo good, i've been waiting for forever for this =)) #steak&cheese

Cassycious! =)

It was blood donation yesterday, but too bad I'm not legit to donate cuz I got a piercing in January :( poor me, I was so hyped up about it, thoughts of saving 3 lives just inspired me to donate blood for em. Oh well... 

ON DA WAY TO IPPOOOOHHH:

Nga-Choi-Gai~

Meanwhile, I don't know what's the ocassion at home, but my parents were having such a feast :OOO ugh, so sinful, doing it without me :( hahah 

With daa Roomie in PASAR MALAM :D

our gain :D hahah

-end-

i just wanna care less

 outburst

geeeez, i have so much to write.

right, firstly, i'm not gonna let this hurt me, no i will not. 

nope, i definitely won't. there's so much more to life than these lil things.

so so so so so much more.

sometimes i feel like cursing and swearing. but no, i'm not gonna let them form syllables that i shall utter, cuz like he said 'repetitive of the words', it brings into action. 

i only feel offended, cuz i care, i care about what we have, erm, have.

i may be caring less now, but still, i guess there's still this tiny part of me holding on, though i thought i've already let go.

i'm gonna loosen my grip, and just let my hand slip. yep, that's what i will do.

there's no tarnishing my dignity, nope.

I'm strong enough to overcome this. 

i may not be physically fit for this, but i know that i can do it, cuz Christ the Lord has given me strength. Phillipians 4:13, I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

12/03/13

geeez, thanks for telling me

28/02/13

Happy birthday to the babies born on this special day! :)

I suppose thoughts should always remain as thoughts . . . I should sustain my first instincts. . . Instead of breaching them, thus leading me into believing that it's okay . . .

Yep. They are to be disclosed. Just think wise, don't give away your heart. Life isn't as easy as you convinces. Stay strong. God will give you strength.

Loves.

14/11/12 - 12:51a.m.

Hello, sorry world. Haven't blogged since SPM.

So, yesterday was Carnival day, and it was an event I looked forward to for the past seven days. A potent factor would be me, having a strong urge to go and have fun like other students who are enjoying their year break. It just feels like I'm sitting at the study table with books, stacked slipshodly on the table, only just creating an image to drive myself to study. It's so hard to diverge 100% of concentration to just focus on the exams. I'm praying for strength, strong will and determination. I'm working on it, and I hope it results well.

So at the moment, I just feel like a damsel in distress, desperately lack of love. I believe that this abrupt randomness came from the post Carnival Day excitement.

There's a good guy who cares a lot, the unfortunate thing is that he might not receive the same amount and degree of care. So, if it prolongs, it'll be a one-sided relationship that only cause himself to get ached and be hurt. But it's the feeling like the top of the world knowing that there's a watchout out there, waiting to pick me up whenever I trip, and fall. It's so unrealistic :( bye. Nights.

2nd of November 2012

25th of October 2012

So, a little more than a week ago, it was the Voting Session for 2013's Sports Meet's house captains. So well, a couple of days before that day itself, people were chatting in class, and since our class is merging with S2 Xiao to be Red House next year, each class were to have their own nominees first before the big day.
As the class meeting commenced, names like Eeling, Petra, Sheena were nominated. Well, I think  that if Tasha and I were staying back, we could run for elections too. So my heart sank a bit. :( Don't get me wrong, I'm really happy for those who got nominated and the current captains, but it's just something that I'd really like to have, if I were staying. But the matter is that, I'm not even staying, so I shouldn't really feel bad.

The thing is that, everything happens for a reason. People make choices of different reasons. Some people stay for the Graduation Cert., some stay for the memories you'll only get there once in a lifetime, some people stay as they're not sure about their next path, some people stay, well, for the education I suppose. As for me, I chose to leave, with my own reasons as well.  Some people may think that I'm foolish for leaving so soon, but like I said, everything happens for a reason. :S hmm.

So anyway, I wanted it pretty bad. Just imagining it in my head, makes me feel painful enough =S But it's reality, and there's a different life somewhere else too! So I just gotta get over it.

And anyway again, :P, good luck to people who are leading the houses this year till next year! Best wishes and I'll always be supporting you guys yo. LOVE YOU GUYS TO PIECES. <3 p="p">
Hehe.

Anyeong~ :)

31st of October 2012

Four years ago, I remember sitting in my brother's room, sitting on that green spinning chair, I was really high on social networking - blogging, MSN, Facebook, YouTube.. All at one go.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEHHHHH.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNABELLEEEE.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANNABELLE.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY SPOOKY HALLOWEENNN.
HAPPY SPOOKY HALLOWEEN.
HAPPY SPOOKY HALLOWEEN.
HAPPY SPOOO--OOKY HALLOWEENNNN.
HAPPY SPOOKY HALLOWEEN. it's the colour of the pumpkin.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEHHH.
HAPP Y BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY LOVE.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY BABE.


So, this was what I typed at that time. Wishing my dear Bellie a happy birthday! :D haha.
So four years have passed, you were in Ping in J2, I was in Yi. I remember going to your class to find you to hang out once in a while. And play with your hand again :P I remember you giving me a lovely HK Disneyland keychain as souvenir when you got back, and another Chinese keychain.
In J3, you were in Ren, I was in Ai. We got a tad bit less close, we joined Debate! (with Jo, and Paula!!), and it was interesting. I remember you calling me one evening to talk about someone who messed around in your head, and that phone call meant a lot to me so it got me reaaaally happy, haha, the feeling of contented, because it wasn't a usual thing for me to chat with friends over the phone for so long, and I was very encouraged that you trusted me! <3 b="b">
In S1, you left for Sayfol, and I didn't know it at first. So I was a little bummed about it :S I got over it though, and decided to call you once in a while to catch up. Slowly, we didn't get as close anymore, and to be honest, it hmm, broke my heart, a bit. 
Now in 2012, you've graduated from high school and you're doing A-Levels! Though we aren't as close as before, but still, best wishes to you my lovely friend! And it'd be awesome if we were still like before, but it's okay, we'll just let things go with the flow. i love you very much buddie! xoxo

02.11.12

Little Hey Little Ho!
SPM is in like what, 3 days? =S
Holy moly mooooooooo.

Just got back from BM tuition.

So, this photo is a little dark. Cuz I was like a ninja, taking it. 8-) But he is Mr Jafri, our tuition teacher. He's incredibly awesome, talented, a man good and dedicated at his work. He's so witty you know? He teaches BM, and whoever who wants to get tutoring, you should totally get him. It's RM 60 per month, not that expensive right? And gosh, the things he teaches, is way better than some tuitions that I pay so much to :S
Whenever I go to his tuition, I'd feel contented, and that I learnt a lot. Makes me feel brainier, smarter which motivates me to try even harder the next time I study. He adds life into his lessons. Leaving you thinking that, "Hey, BM is about life too. About the society etc.." instead of leaving you thinking, "Oh, BM is about formulas, just writing essays, must do well to pass SPM.." So yeah, he's one of the best teachers alive! :) He's always given this fatherly figure to me, like a big big warm bear. Last time, I wanted to write "I love you!" on my paper :P hahah but it seemed too wrong. Anyway, thanks big brotha,  有缘在见! <3 br="br" haha.="haha." nbsp="nbsp">



We girls totally love him man. So we wrote him this card! hahaha and ended it with a small red cutey heart at the back page. He's a Liverpool fan!! I was like, "Cikgu, Liverpool oh!" then he said, "thank you. :D" haha

Then this is Miah, wearing a MU shirt. Cikgu was like, "Mau ambil gambar, buka baju dulu." hahah xD Love his wits!

Anyeong~

Rain

Another typical rainy day in Malaysia, whereas a treacherous Sandy is flooding The States at the same time threatening lives of many.

How ironic.

May God bless America.
Take good care people.
Take care Sis.