Sunday, March 17

TAYLORIFIED

People here are so distinct from where I come from. People might think that KK is just a small city compared to KL which is definitely true. Relevant to this fact, people's characters are so different. I suppose leaving S3, coming over here, is definitely an eye opener to the real world out there. Honestly, I may be missing out on all the great things and wonderful memories I could have carved, and I feel sad about it, truly, I feel sad. But I suppose after coming over, it's a fresh start and I should see it with optimism. Having said all this, the extent to which I feel sad, it doesn't really kill me. It's like I've always felt this in me, "You can make any other decisions. They'll each lead you to each route of its own. There's the upsides and downsides in all, you just gotta decide." And here comes the opportunity cost, choosing one thing means giving up another. You gain something, you lose something. It's the painful truth about reality. So, I feel like decisions are something you've got to do. It's not easy, but it's essential to move on to the next phase in life. And I know that, after I've thoroughly decided on something, God will just fill in the gaps. So yeah.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps. Proverbs 16:9
Reaching here, I wasn't aware of what to expect, I was anxious, worried, insecure, hanging by the thread, and... well, scared. Then I met people, and it was good! It was so nice. Then I got disappointed. Yup, bummed up by the challenges I faced. I usually face trials with optimism, going still all bubbly, and putting effort to make things better. Hmm. I chose to give up in the end though. Give up to take control of things, and really just let God. I chose to think, whatever comes comes, whatever goes, will well, go. So I might just as well take things with a pinch of salt. Those that come, I'd definitely be genuine, complete honesty. But if something chimes in, then okay, I'll try my best to let it go.

Through this, I cherish my friendships and relationship with my family and God more and more each day. They sorta pull me back together, let me remain intact. Just as I am on the verge of suffering a crack, they sorta come and mould it or amend it till it's good enough to let me stand on my own unaided. Just like a baby learning to walk.. They are my backbone.

It isn't easy, really, but with them around, I just feel that I can pull through.
God never promised life would be easy, but He promised that He'd be with us every step of the way. Hmm, so yeah. It's never really fatal, just gotta stay strong and hardcore.

As Tasha and Sarah are coming in a week's time, I feel even stronger to brave the battlefield. My army's here man. Bring it on.

Study wise, it's good ;) hehe, Taylor's is a good college. =)

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