21st of March, 2013

This is it.

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So, today's judgement day, where our SPM results would be announced for all. After months after the exams, my emotions were hyped up again awaiting something to trigger the excitement in me. I needed something to give me sensation, move me. As I woke up from  my sleep, I dreamt that I didn't do well in my exams. I got several C's, several D's, 2A's and I got two E's for two english papers respectively. I felt like a major disappointment to my parents, but I still comforted myself in ways that I usually would.

ngehehe, and I got this out of the blues! so excited. i went to dig it out X))

 hahaha i feel so blessed.

I woke up at 8.20a.m., lacked time to wash my hair, so had to go college with my unkempt and frizzy hair, and haphazardly went to school without breakfast, if I don't recall wrongly. The lessons kicked off with Psychology, only about 8 people were present, the rest were away to collect their results. Then it was LAN, we were supposed to pass up this video, which caused Alvin and Franson to sleep only at 3 a.m., ironically, Mr William never turned up as he was stressing on how punctual we ought to be passing up our assignment. oh well.. Me and Shareen then sat at the table outside Beta Theatre, waiting to text to 15888 (the government line) to claim our results. Ants were all over our pants, and we were bouncing off the walls - literally, subtly, not physically, but emotionally. haha. We exchanged our phones, thinking to find out about the results for each other. We texted at 10a.m. sharp, nth came back. We texted several more times, there were never replies. oh screw this system. (even tho it worked well when i tried it on the night before which is 12++ a.m. just to make sure i get the right line.)

meee and shhhaareeeen! :)

I called Wilson, Vikki etc, to ask em about it, to get ready together. Meanwhile, Shareen facetimed/skyped/called her friends and family. And as each minute passed, the butterflies grew more and more intense in our stomach, we just couldn't stand still on both our feet. haha. Then I suggested lunch, so we could walk while wait, and eat while we wait. We went to the usual Korean stall place with Shaz, and we waited. I was very agitated cuz we sorta waited for about half an hour.. The excitement sank, and I just felt fed-up. It reminded me of the times when I did track n field, you get so tense and stirred up the period before the competition, but when they postpone it, ugh, I just get so pissed off and ugh, the anxiety just dies off.

So anyway, back to what happened, in the family What'sApp group, my dad asked me to take a guess, and i was like "who on earth would ask someone to guess their results?!" hahah that degree of intensity hahaha. then i got really nervous! I ordered Korean food and Cham Ping ( RM 10 in total) which I don't usually do. I lost my appetite when my parents found out and they haven't told me yet. I called my mum and my dad, but there was no pickups! It was such a pain in the ass to feel tormented this way >.< haha. then my mum sent a text, "In a meeting with the school now, talk to you soon." and I was like, "why would you go for a meeting when you're just to collect my results?!" "aahhhhh, this is killing me man." Deep inside my heart, a notion of maybe I did pretty well came up but was diminished instantly. haha. Then my dad called me for a short conversation, i was like

"okay, you can't tell me first dad. gotta let me guess. Don't spill it out ok ok ok ok?! I'm gonna ask you questions, and you're gonna answer according to what I want you to answer. deal?!" 

"okokok, ask ahead.."

 "so, do you think i did 'good', 'bad' or 'average'?" 

"good, good"

 "ok. hmm. what subjects did I get B for?" 

"biology" "whew ok. *omg is it 11As?!! screeecccheesss ahhhh!!!*"

 "and 1 more subject, take a guess, quick." 

"errrr, accounts?" 

"nono, surprisingly you got an A chris!"

 "hahahahha. errrr" 

"quick quick, its very easy one" 

"errr..." 
"chinese la aiyoyo"

hahahah I was head over heels and I sorta shed a quick tear! It was too unexpected, and I feel sooo grateful! I was happy that I could make my parents proud, that they were able to undergo an interview and appear on the papers still, after I've left school, after my sister left school. Cuz they were always there for my sister's achievements, and it got less since she left school, while I was still in high school. Haha. so yeah, im really happy! =)

awww i feel so proud for these people! ahh Shiela, you've done so well =)

:') :'( i shed a tear when i saw this. hahah. cuz i'm supposed to be in the photo, be with my friends, but my parents are there on my behalf instead. haha :) glad that they took a photo tho. < 3
look at my mummy and daddy..

then i went for sort of like a 'Celebration' dinner with Alvin, Chee Ren, Roland and Franson. :) got my McFlurry!! < 3 ahahah. congratzpeepos~ =)

Mmmmm RM 30 dinner! When my food came, like ohhhmeeegaaazzzz, it felt so rewarding! =) hahaha i love you daddy God!

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heheh. so happy! thank God :) thank you everrybooddyyy.