Had Fish Head Brekky on Saturday before sending off ze Ainal at the airport. Finally had the chance to meet his lovely Ainun sister, and she was sweet as ever. Stayed home the rest of the day. Sunday went by like the usuals, and on Monday (yesterday), lunch at Chef Tan's, managed to drive popz around for just a biiittt, bummer :( haha. Ah well, hit the pool with Jiun at night, it was pretty nice :)
These days, I've been feeling so lethargic and just so tired all the time. I feel aged sometimes, cuz whenever there's time that's not occupied with rather anything else, sleep would seem like the perfect time-killer. I'm just like my mum and dad. I've been pretty irritable too. It's been this way for a while. The heat ticks me off like krazy, the pillow never seems to feel right, clothes never seem to feel comfy, hair seems to fall everywhere, my face sometimes feels so warm and uncomfortable and all in all, everything makes me cross, I'm just like a ticking time-bomb.
As I was watching Nail Files in my parents' room, I was wondering myself what is wrong with this 19yearold who claims to be 18 all the time, being so tired and annoyed and frustrated. I guess I'm just really stressed. With what? I can't specifically tell. I'm just always so tired - my eyes tell really clearly, and nothing ever feels right. My mind's always off running thinking about so many things at once, wanting to be everywhere at the same time. I'm constantly confronted with doubts as to the accuracy of each decision/thought. It really is hard to live up to a certain standard of what everybody believes to be true. However, I hit the gym today with Jiun and it definitely broke the melancholic cycle. When I got to the gym, I just followed whatever Jiun told me to do and it was so much fun. It wasn't that extreme, but when shower became a bit more strenous than usual, it lifted me up by a note :) #grateful hehe. I guess from here, it really teaches you to just be really simple-minded and easy going, and just focus on enjoying the ride - I really enjoyed skipping all the thinking and the mental lessons, this minor weeding out left me feeling much less suffocated, cheers to taking life easier. I really wanna do cross-fit, or just dance, let's hope I get to do this soon!!
OH! Went for double brekky today with Yau. And on the plus side as well, I watched Catfish today and I really enjoyed it. It's so educational and it teaches young people the harsh truth and facts about online relationships - that many struggle to really believe to exist. It was actually pretty inspiring, as to what I'd like to do in the future. On a side note, the host was really cute :3
Anyway, that's it for now. Big shoutout to Abigail, the greatest neighbour ever granted by heaven. Such a sweet pie, and may you have one of the best days, you truly deserve it with all love joy fun, topped with a biiit of lunacy. < 3
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