I just wanna be strong ya know.
You're pretty strong, there *touch shoulder touch biceps*
Very few girls like you one oh.
You're cool, come on.
*brofists*
Friday, January 30
Moots scoots remedyyy
Tuesday, January 20
How To Fall In Love
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The very thought that just rings in my head as the fancy love story ended, was just, "this is crazy man. this is just one crazy story, one crazy book..." Lol. Overall I'd say I enjoyed the novel :) it left a smile on my face, and got me thinking about it even during work today. Just this break from reality has been definitely a sweet escape!
In the novel, the main girl Christine seemed to cry a lot. Half of me thought this girl was a lil too emotional, but another half of me sorta understood reasons behind her breakdowns every now and then, even if it seems a lil too frequent.
The story tells of how Christine promised a guy who was on the verge of jumping off the bridge, Adam that she would show him the beauty of life, and that life's worth it. This was done despite the fact that she failed to stop a suicidal man from pulling the trigger to his head, also despite the fact that her marriage was falling apart.. and she was rather not in a happy place.
What captivated me was how optimistic and pumped up she appears to be, meanwhile promising to help Adam fall in love with life again. As much as circumstances were not going her way, deep down she knows that life is still worth it. It's that instinct of survival. And it comes especially natural to advise someone in their lows, that the world's a good place to be in, even though your girlfriend has cheated on you, your losing your family, and your best friend. When you're in a tough situation, it can always get suffocating and life threatening. But then there's always that other person, who's 100% confident that you shouldn't die because of the setbacks, 100% full of faith that there will be a rainbow after the rain - even though that other person isn't doing a lot better himself/herself.
And whilst one can get lost in one's trauma, feeling hopeless yet still living through each day because of that instinct of survival deep down inside, whilst encouraging someone to believe in life but truthfully doubt the truth of these facts, you get encouraged in return when trying to lift somebody else up.
I enjoyed the idea of how selfless she seemed. How her character was developed as being a sentimental, full of emotions woman. How she yearns to help people, make the place a better world to live in, going the extra mile to make sure someone is happy, cuz that's what she sees value in. Despite being wronged by the world, or living in an apartment with minimal things for survival, she does not dispute the truth but just bringing herself to live through every day at least, even though she may not be making the most out of each day, and life isn't going her way at all.
I like it, because I find that it's true... that life can throw you down a pit occassionally, it happens all the time. Adam and Christine may be in the same boat, the difference is just one chooses to jump, another chooses to keep paddling. And realising that life has a purpose.. And if you're relatively 'lucky' (quote and quote cuz that's not my fav word to use :P), you find love again, and you're rejuvenated and all set for a whole new exhilarating journey :)
amen.
though this remains an ideal dream that can only motivate and inspire me to look at the brighter things in life, part of me prays that miracles do happen, and thank you for just giving my heart a tease and bringing me onto an exciting journey aside from my own :)
The story tells of how Christine promised a guy who was on the verge of jumping off the bridge, Adam that she would show him the beauty of life, and that life's worth it. This was done despite the fact that she failed to stop a suicidal man from pulling the trigger to his head, also despite the fact that her marriage was falling apart.. and she was rather not in a happy place.
What captivated me was how optimistic and pumped up she appears to be, meanwhile promising to help Adam fall in love with life again. As much as circumstances were not going her way, deep down she knows that life is still worth it. It's that instinct of survival. And it comes especially natural to advise someone in their lows, that the world's a good place to be in, even though your girlfriend has cheated on you, your losing your family, and your best friend. When you're in a tough situation, it can always get suffocating and life threatening. But then there's always that other person, who's 100% confident that you shouldn't die because of the setbacks, 100% full of faith that there will be a rainbow after the rain - even though that other person isn't doing a lot better himself/herself.
And whilst one can get lost in one's trauma, feeling hopeless yet still living through each day because of that instinct of survival deep down inside, whilst encouraging someone to believe in life but truthfully doubt the truth of these facts, you get encouraged in return when trying to lift somebody else up.
I enjoyed the idea of how selfless she seemed. How her character was developed as being a sentimental, full of emotions woman. How she yearns to help people, make the place a better world to live in, going the extra mile to make sure someone is happy, cuz that's what she sees value in. Despite being wronged by the world, or living in an apartment with minimal things for survival, she does not dispute the truth but just bringing herself to live through every day at least, even though she may not be making the most out of each day, and life isn't going her way at all.
I like it, because I find that it's true... that life can throw you down a pit occassionally, it happens all the time. Adam and Christine may be in the same boat, the difference is just one chooses to jump, another chooses to keep paddling. And realising that life has a purpose.. And if you're relatively 'lucky' (quote and quote cuz that's not my fav word to use :P), you find love again, and you're rejuvenated and all set for a whole new exhilarating journey :)
amen.
though this remains an ideal dream that can only motivate and inspire me to look at the brighter things in life, part of me prays that miracles do happen, and thank you for just giving my heart a tease and bringing me onto an exciting journey aside from my own :)
Saturday, January 17
woots, another long overdue post
I shall post up photos in a jiffy to summarise how my last week was spent...
Mmm, tuesday was Lucy's Kitchen, Wednesday was Jabez, Thursday was the full moot set then dinner with Uncle David and Aunty Sashi, Friday morning went to court, went to cell at night. Saturday, Inch with pies, youth, dinner at Krishna's, Sunday was church then home then Krys' bro's wedding dinner :3
Monday till Friday was work, Monday lunch with ze staffs, dinner at Lintas Korean i think. Tuesday lunch with Appa, Wed lunch with pie, Thurs tabao, Fri panmee. Tues - half city stroll with abs to GeorgPeck, Sutera, All Saints, Damai chicken wing. Wed - half sunset viewing with derps. Fri - hung out with Krys and Rav :) and mama rav came to check Mac out before... mm mmm. ended the weekdays on a perfect note!
today, dating derp woohooo!
Mmm, tuesday was Lucy's Kitchen, Wednesday was Jabez, Thursday was the full moot set then dinner with Uncle David and Aunty Sashi, Friday morning went to court, went to cell at night. Saturday, Inch with pies, youth, dinner at Krishna's, Sunday was church then home then Krys' bro's wedding dinner :3
Monday till Friday was work, Monday lunch with ze staffs, dinner at Lintas Korean i think. Tuesday lunch with Appa, Wed lunch with pie, Thurs tabao, Fri panmee. Tues - half city stroll with abs to GeorgPeck, Sutera, All Saints, Damai chicken wing. Wed - half sunset viewing with derps. Fri - hung out with Krys and Rav :) and mama rav came to check Mac out before... mm mmm. ended the weekdays on a perfect note!
today, dating derp woohooo!
Tuesday, January 6
Moving forward...
So I'm back to blog about yesterday! mm mmm. Okay, so I woke up around 11, went for Pan Mee breakfast with the parents, drove ma dad around for work - office, Kolombong, bank.. whew I was starting to feel a tee bit of how working can get taxing, just a teeeee biit. Then drove to and fro Donggongon to pick up lil Ben, and went to Suria to pick ohana up. Went to makan BKT, lol, they had such interesting stories to tell :) It was interesting enough when they came to my car holding a plant lit up with Christmas lights, but yeah, their stories are even cooler X) Stayed home for the night, I suppose..
Today, stayed home for the earlier part of the day, called firms and then had to prepare my digital certs for the interview tomorrow. Lol felt so stupid at the phone call, but its all cools. Went to City Mall, bumped into Mum, lol haven't seen that wide smile of hers in a while.. And all it takes, was just one simple coincidence :P I should fake this more often next time hehe. Then went to ZenQ to meet with ze mooters, which was followed by dinner at Lucy's Kitchen, then sent the peepos back. Ravs taught me side parking! It was a great day indeed :)
Been meaning to post this, but, I guess I gotta admit that I had a lil bit of a difficult time in accepting that the high school year was wow, 3 years ago. It's so crazy. So so so crazy. Back in 2013, always thinking about 2012 didn't seem that irrational, it was perfectly legit and well justified. In 2014, since first half of it was A-Levels, it felt like it was okay to reminisce about 2012 as well. It wasn't till when 2015 really crept in, that wow, it doesn't feel as right to just constantly hang on to the memories of 2012.
It is so, crazy.
These two (say whut?!) years seemed to have flashed by in a whirlwind, I can hardly track down what's happened.. It's always seemed like 2012 was just a while ago, instead of 2 friggin years when the best times in 2012 only lasted for a short few months. Never knew that what happened then could still cause me to linger on for years, which in turn cause these 2 years to feel so non-existent. And again, it's so crazy..
I completed A-levels - the journey was kray kray, and throughout, half of my heart was left holding on to 2012 memories, whereas the other half was put to test and trials, but in the end (2014), it came out looking all solid and tough, all set to move on the leave the unpleasant past behind. All was well, it was okay, not that amazing things happened and caused my heart to instantly revive, but my heart decided to take another route, and things just slowly fell into place, socially. I remember, in March, I was struggling with self-discovery, lost in so many thoughts that seem to contradict one another, and it went on without an end, and went home feeling all anxious, restless, annoyed and ended up at a coffee shop, pouring my tremendous nonsensical thoughts over cicak, only to hear her say, "Chris, you need to go to church.."
A2 trials was crazy, exam preps were crazy too, and then there were the scholarship applications and exams were just... taxing and draining. So relieved that exams were over, the next obstacle to face - was to decide where to go, what to do, and just crossing my fingers for a golden ticket (scholarship). Well, that didn't happen, so I packed my bags and went back home for 2 and a half months. Second week in, I met someone who spoke into my life and instilled a sense of reassurance in me, that I was gonna be okay, God is watching over me, and just take a chill pill.. Towards July, I built a new friendship with a buddy (matata), and got my heart skipping unusual beats for a change. That ended, and then it was time for uni. Anxious but excited, I left home for a whole new adventure.
Took me quite some time to settle down, ease my heart (but super grateful for the support group around me, esp the lil one, thou it always seems insignificant to you, but its ok lol). Things were looking ok, then plummeted, at the 'worst' timing, when exams were just two weeks away. My heart was torn, but also grateful for people who took time to hear me out, and lemme go all waterworks looking all ugly :p, and also were so encouraged by Joel Osteen's messages which never fail to inspire me. For I know God is good, and He has a divine purpose for me, I'm ok, and and I will be :)
I've learnt that in difficult situations, by expecting things to change is good motivation to move on, it's only the truth. However, I realised that I could have been looking at the wrong context all along. I suppose my definition of things turning around, was to have the direct opposite of what's been happening to happen. But what it really is, is instead a change of attitude, a change of heart towards the situation. That way, even when these unpleasant situations occur, we will not be crushed. I suppose, when trials come, we shouldn't remain stagnant and just wishing things will go away or the direct contrary should happen - life isn't full of sunshines and rainbows. But rather, true growth comes when even the same shiz happen, we've been built stronger, to brave these trials, and ready to battle on another level.
On the last day of exams, which fell out of the 'ideal fantasy-like' expectations, I decided to take responsibility of my feelings, and chose to decide what should affect me, and what should not. I was reminded to not just keep my walls up, but to guard my mind, and take control of my emotions. I thought it was a big stepping stone.
Saying and declaring it at the moment, always seemed very ambitious and eager, however I should not be surprised that to rise up stronger, it is not easy. It is not. I should know this, and choose to persevere through it nevertheless. Hence, birthday feels and all should be normal. But I should be stronger. I should be more persistent. I should, and I will, because I can.
Right now, I'm gonna decide to let go of the past - not in the way to wipe my past clean, but to let memories remain as memories, and just release control of the future, and just live in the moment, don't look into the rearview mirror.
The best things in life often come unexpected. I never expected us to get along, this way. Never expected us to connect so well. Gosh, this kinda connection is once in a lifetime thing. Never expected this familia thing to feel so warm and loving. Never expected the hen to be so nice, fun, warm and 'loving'. Never expected for these to last even after we thought they wouldnt. All these were unexpected. That's what made them great... So great, and so precious, and so delightable, so grateful, and felt so undeservingly rewarded..
Thereon, I've learnt that once you've put in enough effort, even a lil more than what's conventionally done, it's time to release control and let go. And move on - by living in the present. And that it's okay. Don't have to be upset about it. Everything has a season. Not many things are meant to last a lifetime. So it's okay, and just embrace it while it lasts.
:)
For me though, once you've touched my life, you'll always, always (usually) (unless we have a fallout or smth) have a really special place in my heart. Even if we're not close anymore/at the moment, Chris, it's okay. :)
< 3 Jesus loves you!
Today, stayed home for the earlier part of the day, called firms and then had to prepare my digital certs for the interview tomorrow. Lol felt so stupid at the phone call, but its all cools. Went to City Mall, bumped into Mum, lol haven't seen that wide smile of hers in a while.. And all it takes, was just one simple coincidence :P I should fake this more often next time hehe. Then went to ZenQ to meet with ze mooters, which was followed by dinner at Lucy's Kitchen, then sent the peepos back. Ravs taught me side parking! It was a great day indeed :)
Been meaning to post this, but, I guess I gotta admit that I had a lil bit of a difficult time in accepting that the high school year was wow, 3 years ago. It's so crazy. So so so crazy. Back in 2013, always thinking about 2012 didn't seem that irrational, it was perfectly legit and well justified. In 2014, since first half of it was A-Levels, it felt like it was okay to reminisce about 2012 as well. It wasn't till when 2015 really crept in, that wow, it doesn't feel as right to just constantly hang on to the memories of 2012.
It is so, crazy.
These two (say whut?!) years seemed to have flashed by in a whirlwind, I can hardly track down what's happened.. It's always seemed like 2012 was just a while ago, instead of 2 friggin years when the best times in 2012 only lasted for a short few months. Never knew that what happened then could still cause me to linger on for years, which in turn cause these 2 years to feel so non-existent. And again, it's so crazy..
I completed A-levels - the journey was kray kray, and throughout, half of my heart was left holding on to 2012 memories, whereas the other half was put to test and trials, but in the end (2014), it came out looking all solid and tough, all set to move on the leave the unpleasant past behind. All was well, it was okay, not that amazing things happened and caused my heart to instantly revive, but my heart decided to take another route, and things just slowly fell into place, socially. I remember, in March, I was struggling with self-discovery, lost in so many thoughts that seem to contradict one another, and it went on without an end, and went home feeling all anxious, restless, annoyed and ended up at a coffee shop, pouring my tremendous nonsensical thoughts over cicak, only to hear her say, "Chris, you need to go to church.."
A2 trials was crazy, exam preps were crazy too, and then there were the scholarship applications and exams were just... taxing and draining. So relieved that exams were over, the next obstacle to face - was to decide where to go, what to do, and just crossing my fingers for a golden ticket (scholarship). Well, that didn't happen, so I packed my bags and went back home for 2 and a half months. Second week in, I met someone who spoke into my life and instilled a sense of reassurance in me, that I was gonna be okay, God is watching over me, and just take a chill pill.. Towards July, I built a new friendship with a buddy (matata), and got my heart skipping unusual beats for a change. That ended, and then it was time for uni. Anxious but excited, I left home for a whole new adventure.
Took me quite some time to settle down, ease my heart (but super grateful for the support group around me, esp the lil one, thou it always seems insignificant to you, but its ok lol). Things were looking ok, then plummeted, at the 'worst' timing, when exams were just two weeks away. My heart was torn, but also grateful for people who took time to hear me out, and lemme go all waterworks looking all ugly :p, and also were so encouraged by Joel Osteen's messages which never fail to inspire me. For I know God is good, and He has a divine purpose for me, I'm ok, and and I will be :)
I've learnt that in difficult situations, by expecting things to change is good motivation to move on, it's only the truth. However, I realised that I could have been looking at the wrong context all along. I suppose my definition of things turning around, was to have the direct opposite of what's been happening to happen. But what it really is, is instead a change of attitude, a change of heart towards the situation. That way, even when these unpleasant situations occur, we will not be crushed. I suppose, when trials come, we shouldn't remain stagnant and just wishing things will go away or the direct contrary should happen - life isn't full of sunshines and rainbows. But rather, true growth comes when even the same shiz happen, we've been built stronger, to brave these trials, and ready to battle on another level.
On the last day of exams, which fell out of the 'ideal fantasy-like' expectations, I decided to take responsibility of my feelings, and chose to decide what should affect me, and what should not. I was reminded to not just keep my walls up, but to guard my mind, and take control of my emotions. I thought it was a big stepping stone.
Saying and declaring it at the moment, always seemed very ambitious and eager, however I should not be surprised that to rise up stronger, it is not easy. It is not. I should know this, and choose to persevere through it nevertheless. Hence, birthday feels and all should be normal. But I should be stronger. I should be more persistent. I should, and I will, because I can.
Right now, I'm gonna decide to let go of the past - not in the way to wipe my past clean, but to let memories remain as memories, and just release control of the future, and just live in the moment, don't look into the rearview mirror.
The best things in life often come unexpected. I never expected us to get along, this way. Never expected us to connect so well. Gosh, this kinda connection is once in a lifetime thing. Never expected this familia thing to feel so warm and loving. Never expected the hen to be so nice, fun, warm and 'loving'. Never expected for these to last even after we thought they wouldnt. All these were unexpected. That's what made them great... So great, and so precious, and so delightable, so grateful, and felt so undeservingly rewarded..
Thereon, I've learnt that once you've put in enough effort, even a lil more than what's conventionally done, it's time to release control and let go. And move on - by living in the present. And that it's okay. Don't have to be upset about it. Everything has a season. Not many things are meant to last a lifetime. So it's okay, and just embrace it while it lasts.
:)
For me though, once you've touched my life, you'll always, always (usually) (unless we have a fallout or smth) have a really special place in my heart. Even if we're not close anymore/at the moment, Chris, it's okay. :)
< 3 Jesus loves you!
Sunday, January 4
Hello 2015!
WEEEE happy new year 2015! Gosh, I've had so much that I've been wanting to post but were to lazy to do so aiks, and hence am piled with loadsa stuff to cover.. Hopefully that'll go well (:
So I got back last Monday, and this week's been plain awesome. Wow. I'm just so happy to be honest. Like I have done so much this week, been so productive, and yet it's only been less than a week (as I've felt a couple of days ago :D). The week after Christmas felt this way too! but I'll post about this another day.
So last Monday, I took Uncle Tan's cab down to the airport, had some prawn mee breakfast at Old Town, then kopi O, then boarded. As the AirAsia plane just went missing the day before, unlike before, I got a bit anxious and just prayed for the best. Throughout the first half of the flight, I slept and in between the plane went through a turbulence, and I was just sleep-praying and then went back to sleep LOL. Then read a bit of Narnia towards the second half of the journey. Dad came to pick me up in his Myvi that he was pretty excited about, only to be damaged by a minor accident afterwards. Dad looked sad and said he was devastated, but it surely was a good lesson in return to be extra careful - even though you're an adult and a father. Went home for lunch, and then drove the lil thing to meet up with Abigail, Miah, Amanda :) The meetup was really fun - I guess half of it is cuz I just got back home in KK so I was really excited, and the other half was just cuz it was really nice reconnecting with old friends :) Ooooh went for Korean dinner afterwards at night.
On Tuesday, I woke up late and chatted with Anna on the phone which got me late to meet Jul, Jo, LCK, Tim Wong in school for OC. Though I know there wasn't gonna be much to do, but I really wanted to go because my heart felt really heavy, and I just wanna relive those memories from 2012 again... Oh and this was gonna be a good time to go cuz if we come back the next year, the prefects are gonna be different and it would feel really different already cuz we wouldn't have known anybody by then. Played some captain ball, then went to RCH for lunch, then went back to school. It was raining like kray kray o,O As me and Jul left school, we decided to go do something cool since Jul was leaving soon, and hence called Jo who brought Charly, and went to watch Big Hero 6 :D super fancy, i love!
On Wednesday, Derp, Derp's boo, Nams and I went to have pan mee breakfast, which was relatively interesting :D quite enjoyable i shall say.. Bumped into Kevin who joined us for fellowship. Then, I went to October with Peg and Jiun - it was really interesting! Interesting cuz it was very fruitful, when we all went to Pacific Sutera to sit down and really chat about the important things in life. We both encouraged Peg to move on, and just tried to hear her out and be as helpful as we can be, and I'm so glad, it seemed to come to fruition.. :) so proud of this girl, I know that she's smart, she just needs to take a step forward. That night, I was like wow, going to the ends of the earth just to find company to this SGCC dinner. I got a bit frustrated in between lol, also asked yogi in the end who rejected me with an invitation to his dinner lol, and then called ma niggz and yay, he agreed to come! We managed to chat about quite a lot of stuff, and yayers, it was very fun and easy and interesting :) hehe. I went home earlier, super looking forward to yamcha with Chan Yew and see where the flow takes us especially when lil 'Ben' is around LOL. but then nothing ... called Jacob up and we chatted for a long time, about life, our post birthday feelings etc, and then I got stuck in a dilemma (as usual) what to do - sleep or fun. Yogi said, "You can do whatever you want, Chrissy", and so I decided to listen to my body (and my dad actually) to stay home. So I slept early :) [however, super meaningful day] :) oh and I loved mum's dress, and the bag yvonne gave me < 3
oh and hey! lookin' back, it was a pretty kickass day :)) yayyyyyyy!
On Thursday, woohooo new year's! I think I spent it at home o.O Oh yea, I did. Desperately wanted to go out, silently wishing for that movie invitation to happen, but then ended up at home and then shopping for groceries with mum in the evening. Then got a last-minute dinner invitation to Santino's with Celine, Shafie, Michelle. Bumped into Rachelle's mum. hmm pizza was great! Was really happy also cuz of lil "Ben", Yvonne's bag... hm. Then went yamcha with Dav as well in Anak Mami(?), where ma niggz and I shared much of lame laughters, but very much enjoyable :))
On Friday, mmm I woke up late again I think, was supposed to meet Sam and check off my ever long looked forward meetup but was cancelled.. and then went to drive dad around for work because his back ached like crazy >. < ended up staying at home during the 'break' and took a nap through the evening. Jade texted me to ask how I was doing. And then at night met up with the girls at Cabo supposedly for dinner. But then decided to go to Korean BBQ instead (OOOHHHH, SUPPERRRR YUMMMM!) mm mmmm. Jiun joined us afterwards. and had a GREAT time at dinner! woohoo! Then went to Upperstar Lintas to meet up with tasha, dav, jas, michelle, shaf and brandon and jeremy came along as well. Did a bit of catch ups here and there then tasha sent me home :) suhweet!
SATURDAY (youth!), I woke up late again i think... I think I ate at home.. And then went to youth, then dinner at home (Steamed chicken, yummmm), THEN --> to the ever looked-forward meetup, went out with Sam and had the best time ever :) I poured out what's been full - uni, home, life, God and received the best advice and response ever. Soooooo thankful. sighs. Then so sad, gotta leave to yamcha with yogi and peepo cuz he was leaving soon.. Yamcha was interesting.. stepping stones I believe :) as i got home at 11.59pm LOL, my mind was just hanging on the meetup with Sam.. and was just consumed by the idea of how precious it was to meetup with her. so rare. and so precious. time spent with her was so precious, her being able to take time up was precious, her being back, and just her. wow. just so amazed by God's amazing creation... oh and i had a slight headache that night..
On Sunday, went to church, brekky with pie and lil pie! :D and then whoops fell asleep for a short while during service, then wow, Laura asked if me and pie wanted to go makan lunch :O I felt super honoured la, but then Laura didn't seem happy with how I kept saying that :P nevertheless, lunch was amazingggg, felt super precious as well :) - as she updated us about her and us us. Then went to watch Seventh Son and fell asleep (Cuz i was just really tired cuz i didn't sleep early the night before ok), and then went to Inch for Chai Latte with ze precious bunch, such as derp, derpboo, kevs, and very very interesting boey :) yay! #happiness got home around 6pm, and just stuck around not remembering what i did...
MONDAYYY - update tmr :)
So I got back last Monday, and this week's been plain awesome. Wow. I'm just so happy to be honest. Like I have done so much this week, been so productive, and yet it's only been less than a week (as I've felt a couple of days ago :D). The week after Christmas felt this way too! but I'll post about this another day.
So last Monday, I took Uncle Tan's cab down to the airport, had some prawn mee breakfast at Old Town, then kopi O, then boarded. As the AirAsia plane just went missing the day before, unlike before, I got a bit anxious and just prayed for the best. Throughout the first half of the flight, I slept and in between the plane went through a turbulence, and I was just sleep-praying and then went back to sleep LOL. Then read a bit of Narnia towards the second half of the journey. Dad came to pick me up in his Myvi that he was pretty excited about, only to be damaged by a minor accident afterwards. Dad looked sad and said he was devastated, but it surely was a good lesson in return to be extra careful - even though you're an adult and a father. Went home for lunch, and then drove the lil thing to meet up with Abigail, Miah, Amanda :) The meetup was really fun - I guess half of it is cuz I just got back home in KK so I was really excited, and the other half was just cuz it was really nice reconnecting with old friends :) Ooooh went for Korean dinner afterwards at night.
On Tuesday, I woke up late and chatted with Anna on the phone which got me late to meet Jul, Jo, LCK, Tim Wong in school for OC. Though I know there wasn't gonna be much to do, but I really wanted to go because my heart felt really heavy, and I just wanna relive those memories from 2012 again... Oh and this was gonna be a good time to go cuz if we come back the next year, the prefects are gonna be different and it would feel really different already cuz we wouldn't have known anybody by then. Played some captain ball, then went to RCH for lunch, then went back to school. It was raining like kray kray o,O As me and Jul left school, we decided to go do something cool since Jul was leaving soon, and hence called Jo who brought Charly, and went to watch Big Hero 6 :D super fancy, i love!
On Wednesday, Derp, Derp's boo, Nams and I went to have pan mee breakfast, which was relatively interesting :D quite enjoyable i shall say.. Bumped into Kevin who joined us for fellowship. Then, I went to October with Peg and Jiun - it was really interesting! Interesting cuz it was very fruitful, when we all went to Pacific Sutera to sit down and really chat about the important things in life. We both encouraged Peg to move on, and just tried to hear her out and be as helpful as we can be, and I'm so glad, it seemed to come to fruition.. :) so proud of this girl, I know that she's smart, she just needs to take a step forward. That night, I was like wow, going to the ends of the earth just to find company to this SGCC dinner. I got a bit frustrated in between lol, also asked yogi in the end who rejected me with an invitation to his dinner lol, and then called ma niggz and yay, he agreed to come! We managed to chat about quite a lot of stuff, and yayers, it was very fun and easy and interesting :) hehe. I went home earlier, super looking forward to yamcha with Chan Yew and see where the flow takes us especially when lil 'Ben' is around LOL. but then nothing ... called Jacob up and we chatted for a long time, about life, our post birthday feelings etc, and then I got stuck in a dilemma (as usual) what to do - sleep or fun. Yogi said, "You can do whatever you want, Chrissy", and so I decided to listen to my body (and my dad actually) to stay home. So I slept early :) [however, super meaningful day] :) oh and I loved mum's dress, and the bag yvonne gave me < 3
oh and hey! lookin' back, it was a pretty kickass day :)) yayyyyyyy!
On Thursday, woohooo new year's! I think I spent it at home o.O Oh yea, I did. Desperately wanted to go out, silently wishing for that movie invitation to happen, but then ended up at home and then shopping for groceries with mum in the evening. Then got a last-minute dinner invitation to Santino's with Celine, Shafie, Michelle. Bumped into Rachelle's mum. hmm pizza was great! Was really happy also cuz of lil "Ben", Yvonne's bag... hm. Then went yamcha with Dav as well in Anak Mami(?), where ma niggz and I shared much of lame laughters, but very much enjoyable :))
On Friday, mmm I woke up late again I think, was supposed to meet Sam and check off my ever long looked forward meetup but was cancelled.. and then went to drive dad around for work because his back ached like crazy >. < ended up staying at home during the 'break' and took a nap through the evening. Jade texted me to ask how I was doing. And then at night met up with the girls at Cabo supposedly for dinner. But then decided to go to Korean BBQ instead (OOOHHHH, SUPPERRRR YUMMMM!) mm mmmm. Jiun joined us afterwards. and had a GREAT time at dinner! woohoo! Then went to Upperstar Lintas to meet up with tasha, dav, jas, michelle, shaf and brandon and jeremy came along as well. Did a bit of catch ups here and there then tasha sent me home :) suhweet!
SATURDAY (youth!), I woke up late again i think... I think I ate at home.. And then went to youth, then dinner at home (Steamed chicken, yummmm), THEN --> to the ever looked-forward meetup, went out with Sam and had the best time ever :) I poured out what's been full - uni, home, life, God and received the best advice and response ever. Soooooo thankful. sighs. Then so sad, gotta leave to yamcha with yogi and peepo cuz he was leaving soon.. Yamcha was interesting.. stepping stones I believe :) as i got home at 11.59pm LOL, my mind was just hanging on the meetup with Sam.. and was just consumed by the idea of how precious it was to meetup with her. so rare. and so precious. time spent with her was so precious, her being able to take time up was precious, her being back, and just her. wow. just so amazed by God's amazing creation... oh and i had a slight headache that night..
On Sunday, went to church, brekky with pie and lil pie! :D and then whoops fell asleep for a short while during service, then wow, Laura asked if me and pie wanted to go makan lunch :O I felt super honoured la, but then Laura didn't seem happy with how I kept saying that :P nevertheless, lunch was amazingggg, felt super precious as well :) - as she updated us about her and us us. Then went to watch Seventh Son and fell asleep (Cuz i was just really tired cuz i didn't sleep early the night before ok), and then went to Inch for Chai Latte with ze precious bunch, such as derp, derpboo, kevs, and very very interesting boey :) yay! #happiness got home around 6pm, and just stuck around not remembering what i did...
MONDAYYY - update tmr :)
Friday, January 2
Sunday, December 28
Friday, December 26
"thanks for making me feel special..."
Met up with the super lovely Paula who gave me such amazing heartfelt gifts. super grateful for you, thank you God. :) for crossing our paths, and giving me a friend in her during these crucial weeks. Had a very fun lunch and met Rachel Saw. :)
On the 24th night, had dinner with Yvonne, it was splendid. I was so excited. Was really delighted when Jacob called me, LCK wished me earlier, Natsie too, and then Abs and Chlo called then skyped me, then received a surprise gift at the door, then slept and went to church, feeling not as excited. Was really happy when Amy and Vikki gave me the gifts tho. and daphne too. Went for lunch with the girls, and then back to the hotel to chill. Presented my mum her gift, then parents their cards, then had Jap dinner. Went back, then Charly called and we chatted for a while, then Annabelle called and we spoke for about 45 mins catching up and just chatting about lotsa stuff, then CKJ called, so lame, to wish me a belated birthday. So thankful for all the birthday calls, :) thanks guys.
As the night sealed an end, my heart felt so heavy and i just went all waterworks. Immediately buzzed cynthia to come to my emergency rescue.. Was so disheartened when I realized I couldn't reach her, as i really did not know what to do... I just felt super disheartened, and ahh, my heart was just in so much agony. That half hour or more felt like forever, and i was sooooo happy when she finally replied me. I wept through our conversations, which resulted in my eyes being swollen till this morning, and a lil bit of afternoon i guess.
I'm so thankful for this precious lady. No matter what the future holds, I'm just gonna be thankful for her, as much as I can now, and as much as this is gonna mean something now. As disheartened as I feel, I'm super super grateful for all the great things, and I guess that's what I should redirect my focus on... Rather than.. the other way round. Thank u cynthia banana, i would never know what to do without you. You hold the pieces of my heart together, forever and always. Thank you for always allowing me to make mistakes, let me fall, and rather than picking me up straight away, you try me to try to get up myself, but would encourage me each step I take. Thanks for understanding that it's hard for me, but still being firm in ur position and just making me take another step forward. Thank you for not judging me, and for really believing in me, and to not care about me during our usual daily lives but stay up with me through the nights when I'm at my lowest. Thank you for accepting me... Thank you for letting me shed everything off, and present to you my bare and naked heart...
I wouldn't know what to do without you.......
sighs
as far as life is concerned, am trying to keep the faith.
all is well, and God is good.
God is good.
God is good.
at least those that matter did...
one way or another..
happy birthday to me :)
oh and banana,
to the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world...
never quit believing in urself banana. never.
On the 24th night, had dinner with Yvonne, it was splendid. I was so excited. Was really delighted when Jacob called me, LCK wished me earlier, Natsie too, and then Abs and Chlo called then skyped me, then received a surprise gift at the door, then slept and went to church, feeling not as excited. Was really happy when Amy and Vikki gave me the gifts tho. and daphne too. Went for lunch with the girls, and then back to the hotel to chill. Presented my mum her gift, then parents their cards, then had Jap dinner. Went back, then Charly called and we chatted for a while, then Annabelle called and we spoke for about 45 mins catching up and just chatting about lotsa stuff, then CKJ called, so lame, to wish me a belated birthday. So thankful for all the birthday calls, :) thanks guys.
As the night sealed an end, my heart felt so heavy and i just went all waterworks. Immediately buzzed cynthia to come to my emergency rescue.. Was so disheartened when I realized I couldn't reach her, as i really did not know what to do... I just felt super disheartened, and ahh, my heart was just in so much agony. That half hour or more felt like forever, and i was sooooo happy when she finally replied me. I wept through our conversations, which resulted in my eyes being swollen till this morning, and a lil bit of afternoon i guess.
I'm so thankful for this precious lady. No matter what the future holds, I'm just gonna be thankful for her, as much as I can now, and as much as this is gonna mean something now. As disheartened as I feel, I'm super super grateful for all the great things, and I guess that's what I should redirect my focus on... Rather than.. the other way round. Thank u cynthia banana, i would never know what to do without you. You hold the pieces of my heart together, forever and always. Thank you for always allowing me to make mistakes, let me fall, and rather than picking me up straight away, you try me to try to get up myself, but would encourage me each step I take. Thanks for understanding that it's hard for me, but still being firm in ur position and just making me take another step forward. Thank you for not judging me, and for really believing in me, and to not care about me during our usual daily lives but stay up with me through the nights when I'm at my lowest. Thank you for accepting me... Thank you for letting me shed everything off, and present to you my bare and naked heart...
I wouldn't know what to do without you.......
sighs
as far as life is concerned, am trying to keep the faith.
all is well, and God is good.
God is good.
God is good.
at least those that matter did...
one way or another..
happy birthday to me :)
oh and banana,
to the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world...
never quit believing in urself banana. never.
Wednesday, December 24
jjj
YAY! Finally working on my long overdue blog post. On Thursday night, as expected, Aunty Amy called and cancelled the dinner I've been very much looking forward to. Then Paula thought we could go celebrate after exams, so we did - went for Japanese food then had Chatime, my back ached sooo bad that night. Been down with sore throat since that midnight, and then got feverish by the time I got home on Friday night. Spent Saturday catching up with Cassy and CR, which was splendid (i love!) - ate Shabu Shabu and watched Night at the Musuem 2. Then rushed home to get ready for Christmas dinner at TBC Cafe - laughed soooo much with the girls I don't remember what we laughed about, got to chat more with Pat and Lawrence and a bit with Hooi Xian. Took loadsss of photos! Oh and Paula was so intrigued by me tapping water into my face, cuz I was feeling heaty LOL. Was serving on Sunday and felt so happy and excited. Was led by Charles and serving that day was one of the most joyous I could have ever felt. Went for lunch with the brother and Henry they all, sounded like an awesome man, then went Dip n Dip with Amy and Paula, walked around, then went home. Took a super short nap, then went out with Jeff to watch Hobbit. On Monday, Amanda overslept so I hung out at Pyramid with Herbertyy, then the next morning, took a KTM with the boys to meet up with Natalie, caught up and chatted lots about God. it was soooooooooo much fun to catch up, i've missed u loads natsie poo. Had Korean lunch and milk cow. Then went to meet up with the parents :) Had japanese for dinner yay!
Thursday, December 18
18TH OF DECEMBER 2014
This thing lit up my face like crazy yesterday. That smile extended from one ear to another, can't remember the last time I was so excited. "Lai lai lai, don't so stress.." Call me crazy, I know, cuz simultaneously in my head I thought that myself, that I was crazy for being so happy for just one free drink. LOL. It was a hot chocolate, and though the taste wasn't suited to my preference, I finished it still cuz well.. yep ;)
Anywho, feeling semi-thankful that I wasn't gonna be caffeinated, but then it sent electric waves of anxiety into my body system down right to my guts, then it went back way up and I could feel my pulse through my temple, and the sound of my heartbeats were ringing in my ear. crazy, my stomach bloated a little bit and I tried to press down the urge to puke by praying that it'll all go away. During the exam, I was a bit fidgety and then got super hungry towards the end. Went and grabbed pan mee, swallowed it then went on excitedly and played Angry Birds (something I downloaded the night before) in the bus - N.E.A.T.
Ms Puteri looked for us.. and then......
So i got car-sick, went home and threw it all up and the images of panmee not digested.. "There goes dinner," I thought. I felt that my gut was being twirled inside out, so sorry body. So I rested on the new couch (tq Lord!), waited for mum to call, then cooked soup, watched a couple minutes of the Grinch, then moved on to watch Bruce Almighty and went to sleep.
This morning I first woke up at 8 with a smile on my face, and my heart felt good too. Thought that it was probably cuz tomorrow's the last day, and I could then embrace Christmas to its best.. Or thought maybe I had a good day ytd - chilling, movie etc. Or maybe it's also cuz teytey texted me and we were gonna have lunch, woohooo! Felt so happy and at ease :) then.. went back to sleep, and woke up feeling the contrary. Told myself maybe it's cuz I wasn't well yesterday - legit excuse huh?
And this afternoon was Joel Osteen and then cleaning up the room, and getting all Christmasy, listening to MC, planning meals... Crazy. Got so hungry, called Herbert and finally got him at the 4th ring to go dinner, and talked about going 'fighting' and dancing! :D woohoo. excites excites! not much to my surprise, dinner tmr is cancelled, and well, just look for something else to do lo :)
I'm thinking of being somebody's Santa this X'mas! :)
yay! muchhh excites < 3 see you soon bloggie, and you could finally taste that heavenly bits of Christmas!
Tuesday, December 16
All is well
#623, You're Coming Out
We all face situations that look permanent in our health, relationships and careers. It's easy to think that's the way it will always be. In this exciting message, let Joel give you the faith tools to move into that next chapter in life. You may be walking through a valley, but know this: it's not your destiny to stay there. Build your faith with this motivating message. Psalm 84:6, says, "Passing through the valley of weeping, you will find pools of blessing." When you're in the valley, if you'll stay in faith knowing that God has something better, He'll take those tears and turn them into pools to refresh you. You'll have the strength you need for every situation. You will come out!God will not put you into a situation where He can't bring you out of it.
God will stop it.
"No weapons be formed against you shall prosper", the weapons will be formed; but they will not prosper.
Sometimes God may deliver you from the fire, but sometimes God will make you fireproof and put you through the fire.
God's got your back! ;)
Monday, December 15
Jesus, come through
#614 Are You Listening?
Every day, God is speaking to you. The question is, are you listening? Proverbs 3:6 says, "Listen to God's voice in everything you do and everywhere you go. He will keep you on the best path." In this message, Joel will teach you practical ways to liten to God's voice and how to recovgnize His leading in your everyday life. You will learn how to let peace act as your umpire so you can confidently make the best decisions. God longs for you to prosper in all things, and He wants to guide you even in the simple things. If you'll listen in everything you do and everywhere you go, He'll always guide you down the best path.http://www.joelosteen.com/Pages/WatchOnline.aspx
It's gonna be an exciting month!!!
Long and fruitful weeks planned ahead :)
Can't wait to enjoy X'mas thoroughly as it is.
Praying for God's favour to be upon me as I finish this exam!
:)
Amen.
Sunday, December 14
"Don't let what haunts you, halt you"
* Claire:
"You're pretty mature for your age, you know.. Not many people of your age are like this"
"Who? Me?" (in much disbelief - new fresh friendship)
"Yep, you."
"Oh yeah? :\?"
"Yeah! It shows.. when you talk to people, and when you have your own stand/views in things.. how you agree or disagree with someone.."
Service was great today - as usual! Woke up late and missed the van, cuz I didn't know the service time - blur sotong =.= met Yvonne, and she was lovely as usual! Met the brother after spending a few rounds circling in the hall looking out for him. I saw with a new met friend - Shumi. Service was rather entertaining and filled with laughters today, very easy and light. I missed the praise songs tho :( but you know, I was only 6 minutes late!!! S-I-X. Oh and took a cab to the bridge, could've split it with another lady, but the taxi just took both our money - what a rip off. But it's okay, it's okay, it's okay... Oooh saw Phoebe and caught up with her (she's studying in TAR college doing MASCOM, ok) and then caught up with Wernie as well. yeps! Met Jovina, had lunch with her, Clara and Evan and Hooi Xian joined afterwards. Then chatted with th egirls at Wendy's while waiting for time to pass. Fruitful time spent indeed, J shared her God-filled love story with her boo, and I was so delighted when the conversation just flowed so easy and naturally.. and got pretty insightful :D
feelin' so lazy, but no. OK, gotta jia you now, byee! :)
Saturday, December 13
close to heart
#553, Trust God's Timing
In life, we're always waiting for something - a dream to come to pass, a problem to turn around, or to meet the right person. In this message, Joel reminds us of the importance of waiting on God's timing. He'll teach you that instead of forcing things to happen, release it and trust in God's precise timing. With verses like Hebrews 4:3, "We who believe can enter his rest, you'll be reminded of the concept of not worrying, but trusting God and the pressure will be lifted. The moment you pray, God releases a set time for your answer.
What God orders, God will pay for. What God gives birth to, God will always give us the grace to take care of.
when you delight yourselves in the Lord, God will give you the desires of your heart.
Supernatural grace. Supernatural favour.
You can do the right thing at the wrong time, and miss God's best. Timing is everything.
Supernatural grace. Supernatural favour.
You can do the right thing at the wrong time, and miss God's best. Timing is everything.
Sometimes God allows delays so that He can show His timing in a greater way.
God wants to show His favour in your life in an amazing way.
p.s. I love how my hair smells.
TreSemmé ftw! < 3
Friday, December 12
:)
#576, Make God a Part of Your Everyday Life
Did you know that God wants to help you not just in the big things, but even in the small things? But here's the key: God will only be involved in your life as much as you will allow Him. In this message, let Joel show you how to make God a part of your everyday life. Proverbs 3:6 says "In all your ways acknowledge God, and He will make your paths straight." When you make God a part of your everyday life and put Him first, He promises He will crown your efforts with success. You will accomplish more than you ever could on your own.
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