as the clock strikes 6 & the main room around my corner is empty, the usual me'd prolly be scrambling to leave asap. my thoughts toyed with going for a sun-up evening run (for the 1st time in forever!), i was even open to running with my phone in palm with wired earphones. but i resigned to remaining in place - cuz leavin' isnt gonna change anything, it'll add to tomorrow's stress and feelings of hopelessness. as i got up to search through my cabinets checking off the next thing on my list, i figured, "i've tried this + 'happiness' / life outside of work, but it didn't work. so now i have to do this + not do the other." this is, it. it is how it is... 

no room for both?