i was handed a mic to (help) express myself, cuz I'm told to be too rigid.... in many many words but ofc i knew what was said from the get go, i nodded in agreement.

i wondered if i was never good at much cuz growing up instead of focusing on learning the skill, i've always spent too much attention on making sure im socially accepted. i had a brief recount, and looked back at pri sch, sec sch, college, uni.. most of my attn was always spent on wondering if was (sufficiently) socially accepted. has that been the opportunity cost paid in exchange for ... hollow skills?