she's back.

heyy yooo. exam is seriously crazy, lol, gets into your head no worse than turning into a psychopath XD haha Cassy and Chris came over to study, filled my head with Econs and Maths yada yada yada. Haha got me goin' crazy. I'm goin for dinner with Sarah hubby soon :)) I've been spending my money everywhere lately, giving me the exam excuse. But I think I really need this stuff to keep me pumpin'!

Can't ever deny that I'm constantly missing home. Talked to daddy last night and asked him how insurance worked. I almost shed a tear as I was studying at the 7th Floor, I sure miss my dad. So much, so so so much. Basically, I miss home. I miss my mum, who supports me mentally and emotionally though she doesn't do much, but little little things sure meant a lot, and they sure go a long way. I still remember how sometimes she'd watch the tv downstairs with the tv muted, and I'd ask "why don't you watch it upstairs with the volume up?" "haha, accompany you ma" with her cheeky smile from the satisfaction derived from her tv shows. Though it didn't seem logic and that she didn't actually want to accompany me, but part of it felt true, and thinking back, that lil cheesy thing sure was cute. And I remember how I'd keep myself together, and portray a bad demeanor and study hard, and not play with my phone so much. haha. and how my mum'd randomly come and touch me on the way to the kitchen just for fun, or suddenly bring food for me. And when I said "No, I don't want food!!" (fattening) and she'd be like "just this once Chris, just once :)" cuz food she made was always gooooodddd. And how mummy'd make what I craved for, esp during exams, just with me manja-ing with her a bit here and there.

Coming over, it feels like there's a lot of things what life is about, my perception of life has changed in a whole new dimension. Sometimes, you feel like you are alone in this, like life's yours to hold. But having amazing friends and family who still love you and have your back, it's such an amazing blessing. It feels like a bonus, and I feel so so so so blessed. So thank you my loved ones! Thanks mum, dad, jie, jayne, jiun, daphne, shiela, wilson, peg, jo, xuan, seol, nas, eric, lau, cyn, vik and definitely not forgetting cassy, sar, sha, shareen, alvin etc. :) 

Oh! And almost slipped the thought of one of the main things i wanted to post about, i think i found that person. I think she's back. The wise and crazy her. I think she's back, recovered from identity crisis. Thank you daddy God, You are the best. the best the best the best the best the best. 

Anyways, I'm motivated to live life in the USA, after listening to Christmas Lights by Coldplay :)) good song! < 3 gonna eat and chill and study. can't wait to see my loved ones next week.

you can do this sh*t b*tch.