Faith-carven Fate'17

As always, this is a long overdue post. The lustre in me to blog, has slowly dampened... Maybe it’s got to do with procrastination or confidence issues... Who knows? But back to what that matters...

It’s the second week of January, the semester has commenced and it feels fresh as ever!! I spent the first week of the year still, unfortunately, tussling with procrastination, but I’m grateful that the second week swooped in in time and I am happy to have completed my Revenue law tutorial! :) When the lecturer basically repeated what I’ve read before, that elevation of mood in me is a good, start to the year.

The last few weeks of 2016 were filled with gatherings with different ones. Throughout this time, sometimes I felt afloat through the social events that were in line. Many a time, I felt that I was running dry like an automobile machine that’s been running all day. Cooling down by sleeping, resting were apparently not enough - thus ruling out the introversion rationalization? I knew there was a void inside, I was thirsty from this hollowness, a void that can’t be filled by busyness on the outside. Through it all, I was seeking and yearning for a meaningful closure so that my heart can be full again to end the year/birthday. 

In December, even as the church prepared to escort the new year in with a big BAM!, I also wanted to prepare my heart to welcome 2017 in with a fresh attitude, fresh revelation. The church’s take on 2017 is expecting the year to be crowned with His goodness, no matter what. As the year drew to a close, I felt the word, FAITH deposited in my heart.

I remember feeling how lightweight that word was, as I thought of it on the tube. I realized that maybe throughout the hustle and bustle, I had neglected the essence of faith. 

I reconsidered what living a life of faith means - doing things without worrying what the outcome is, and leaving them into the hands of God and fully trusting Him. I asked myself, “how long have you not done this for?” A life of faith includes taking risks - all risks are calculated risks if God is included in the plan in the first place. I recounted this season of constantly playing safe, and needing to have it all figured out all the time during this new chapter of my life in the UK. I was reminded of what Jade said to me before, “maybe you’re so worn out because you’ve been doing this all by your own strength.” It made me think again, of what letting go really means. 

“It is like investing in friendships, and even though you may not feel it’s reciprocated equally, you don’t grow weary/disappointed and stop investing/sowing/trying/doing your best... You do it unto faith, unto God. You don’t give up on people even after these ‘disappointments’...” as I shared with Clarissa my random epiphany on the tube.

Where life/relationships are concerned, it appeals to me another lesson - that is to stop taking things so personally. This resonates with a Bible verse that I read yesterday, 

“Run away from infantile indulgence. Run after mature righteousness - faith, love, peace - joining those who are in honest and serious prayer before God. Refuse to get involved in inane discussions; they always end up in fights. God’s servant must not be argumentative, but a gentle listener and a teacher who keeps cool, working firmly but patiently with those who refuse to obey. You never know how or when God might sober them up with a change of heart and a turning to the truth, enabling them to escape the Devil’s trap, where they are caught and held captive, forced to run his errands.”- 2 Tim 2:22-26 (MSG)

> Living simply - the truth is as truthful and as simple as it is.
> Doing my part - loving people, then let God do the sobering and changing of hearts.
> Loving people - in and with FAITH : you sow into relationships knowing in faith that they’re worth it (even though you may not be able to see the fruits)
> Living in peace - Whatever you do, your peace should never be stolen from you. (e.g. studies/traveling)
> To have faith - that everything is really, going to be okay. (Trusting the unknown - despite my feelings/emotions)

Thank You Jesus! I am mega ecstatic to journey on 2017 with You.
p.s. can't wait for some to finally sober up! ;P

- Righteousness = | faith | love | peace | -