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 i suppose one of the hardest things about work is ....

[man i had them worded clearer in my head earlier] 

[they're almost completely gone now.. gonna try to re-enact the scenario in hopes of finding the right words...]

is that....

is associated with....

no matter how hard i try, i still fall short. and it's an exhausting feeling.

is having to speak to my boss apolgetically to say how i overlooked this...

is how there's 10 things that could have gone right, but 1 thing tat didnt will remain magnified...

its really annoying & idk if i could get used to feeling like this all the time.

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working on a holiday... or rather "attempting to".

forgoing chill-time with parents

many condemn it

but i think its how i manage my anxiety

so what's right / what's not

what's good for you / what's not

idk.

will i ever get over it / behind this?

what if this is perpetuity.. and not just

'early years of practice'..

🙄

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perpetually stressed... / anxious....

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