of deep breaths, and trapped air

 As the sun set in, and the day darkened, I went to dinner with WK and Jer, feeling happy with the comfortable company, yet each time my mind thought of what'd happen after dinner, my heart just slowly weighed me down.. Dinner ended, as me and Jer were walking away, we passed by girls on our left taking photos of above, I didn't care less, thought it was a selfie. A few steps after that, as my eyes just wandered around tilting my head here and there, this mesmerizing beauty captivated my heart, and I couldn't help but take a few shots too.

It was so beautiful. I was instantly reminded of mum, *filling up on the inside* who used to always snap out of her daze as she drove me back from school/tuition/places whenever she sees a rainbow. She'd bring herself lightly off the seat, rummaging through her purse for her phone with her gaze unmoved from the rainbow, hoping to secure it as the seconds went by. She'd always be in awe, filled with amazement, giving praise to God. And I could tell that that momentary sight alone was sufficient to fill her thoughts for a while, with a different and lighter tone playing inside of her.

Mum said, it reminds her of God's promises, how faithful our God is. As I was oblivious and insensitive for a long part of my life, I finally comprehended it yesterday, though it didn't properly sink in until a while after that.

This sight is amazing, the rainbow just seems to go across, sheltering all three buildings, with the other end of the rainbow resting gracefully on the clouds. :3 

I haven't seen such a full and clear rainbow in ages.

And it's just so... real, tangible, evident.. and just, real. Seriously, standing underneath it, it was so vast, and I just got so consumed in its beauty, it felt like this big umbrella sheltering me. Such beauty, and greatness. And all in all, it felt as if God was with me. 

This, is ultimately significant, as it symbolizes God's promises.

For me, for my life - in Taylor's too.

That God is not just with me when I'm in church, or surrounded with church people,

But also when I feel the most insecure, when I'd feel so lonely, when sometimes I feel like I try so hard to find, and not being able to find, when i'd feel solitary, neglected, on my own, so dark.

That God sees me, that it's ok, He's seeing me through, He's got a plan.

I'd like to believe this is it.

Thank You.

*I've got so many other things to write about recently...
But it'll have to wait until this weekend *hopefully* or just next weekend.
Till then, God, give me strength, peace, WISDOM.
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. I'll finish well today.

Oh P.S., if you look really closely, you can see another shade of rainbow on the right, right next to the existing one (: remember what they say about double rainbows? (:

"I will give you a great deal. And even more abundantly.

That they'll not be just enough, or good enough for you,

but it shall overflow and you just can't get full hold of it."

and that's just how good our God is.