hello :)

these few days have been relatively interesting.
been feeling a tad bit heavy recently, prolly also attributed by the fact that i'm returning to uni next week, and the idea of "losing control" in a way sorta taunts me. felt pretty intimidated, worried, anxious..

however as i got up after watching 2 episodes of Plain Jane, i realised that the stitch chapter has got to close. oh and that was also after i read this post on a random website entitled, "how to know if you love, need or want someone". i realised prolly the desire was coming from me wanting to rebound to that sense of familiarity where i felt wrapped in the safety cocoon, feeling secure, reassured, comfortable, at ease. it's possible that there's love, but just love in a different way now.. or rather, maybe there was love before, and the current feelings could be the remnant of what we had before.. i dont know. it's interesting how i was actually feeling super geared up and pumped cuz i was gonna make changes - be vulnerable, feeling empowered as well, and that kickstarted the series of crazy events :O anywho, im glad it hit me that this chapter ought to close.

which also reminded me that the prev uni chapter ought to come to a seal as well. it's all bull, and it's been 2 months, i wanted to get better, i am better. i've got so many things i wanna do and pursue. i need to study hard, and wanna learn so many new skills, gain more knowledge. i dont even have to bother about other petty stuff. all of a sudden, i feel empowered, and fearless.

i know that God has a plan, He will not fail me, He's got our best interests in His hands.

our job is to love people

im okay.