God

Where my courage ends,

Let my heart find strength in Your presence.

here, now

Fix my eyes, 

on the things that I can't see now

And all I see,

is the glory of Your name

thank You.

mega mega mega grateful. (:

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*'So Close' playing in the background..

:) doing life

"I'll be there for you,"

so simple,
yet so powerful.

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I’ve had depression on and off throughout my 33 years, and I can tell you that it is indeed a disease… a sickness, an illness.

You don’t get it from being undisciplined or lazy or pessimistic… For most of us, it arrived like any other disease does: with little warning and loads of confusion. Because of its ridiculous stigma, many depression sufferers suffer alone and in silence, afraid and unable to ask for help… I got told things like: “Read your bible more, just think happier thoughts, pray more, go for walks, don’t eat bread…” And the list of well intentioned but completely ignorant and diminishing help notes and tid-bit advise goes on, cutting deep and driving sufferers further into shame.

Like any other disease, of course eating healthy, changing your diet and lifestyle and being positive can make a big difference… And sometimes no difference at all. The thing with depression is that it becomes the absence of feeling… A heaviness like no-other, and doing simple things like going for a walk is like asking someone with 2 broken arms to play a game of basketball.

Here in Australia, it’s National “R U OK” day. The more we ask this question of ourselves and of others, the more we can talk about mental health and suicide open heartedly, the more the disease comes out from the underground and into the light, the more help and healing and hope there will be.

R U OK?

Ask someone today, and if they’re not, don’t give them any advice, don’t try and fix them, or positive-talk them out of it… That only closes the door to wholeness. Instead, look that person in the eyes and tell them that no matter what you’ll be there. That they are not alone… there is hope because they are loved.

And if you are not OK, PLEASE tell someone… It could save your life.

Dr Brene Brown says, “Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.” Lizzy xo

#ruok

precious!

@Kaki Bola XO, Taman Paramount

#blessed

finding your purpose

“I wish I knew it earlier..”

As much as i know that i shouldn’t dwell on that thought, i still told my friend hoping to hear what his reply was gonna be.

“I think most of the times after we experience certain things we wished we could’ve known it earlier because it might change something but it is those times that we are struggling and doubting that test our faith and trust in God. And what’s the fun of knowing everything?”

“I think that god will not place you where you’re not meant to be. There’s a purpose for him to place you where you are and you have to fin it. And yes, it’ll take time and to continue believing in the midst of the situation is not easy..”

What is this

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hello

temporary home.

‘Get your hands off me,’ he said, struggling to shake me off. 

‘No,’ I shook my head. ‘Please, listen ...’ I tried to compose myself before continuing: 

‘It’s not what you think it’s going to be in there,’ I said, looking down and imagining how it would feel for him, staring into that darkness, wanting to end it all; how bad things must be for him to want that. He was studying me intently again. ‘You don’t want to end your life, you want to end your pain, the pain you’re feeling right now, the pain that I’m sure you wake up with and go to bed at night with. Maybe no one around you understands that, but I do, believe me.’ I saw that his eyes were filling, I was getting through to him. ‘But you don’t want to end it all the time, do you? Just sometimes it passes through your mind, probably more often lately than before. It’s like a habit, trying to think of different ways to end it all. But it passes, doesn’t it?’ 

He looked at me carefully, taking every word in. 

‘It’s a moment, that’s all. And moments pass. If you hang in there, this moment will pass and you won’t want to end your life. You probably think that no one cares, or that they’ll get over you. Maybe you think they want you to do this. They don’t. No one wants this for anyone. It might feel as if there are no options, but there are – you can come through this. Get down and let’s talk about it. Whatever is going on, you can get through it. It’s a moment, that’s all,’ I whispered, tears running down my cheeks. 

I took a sidelong glance at him. He swallowed hard, he was looking down now. Thinking about it, weighing up his options. Live or die. Surreptitiously I scanned the bridge entrances on Bachelors Walk and Wellington Quay, still no gardaí, still no members of the public to help me. I was glad of that at this stage; I had managed to engage with him, I didn’t want anybody else to distract him, panic him, bring him back to that place again. 

I thought about what to say next, something that would make the time pass until professional help arrived, something positive that wouldn’t trigger any anger in him. But in the end I didn’t have to say anything because he spoke first. 

‘I read about a guy who jumped in the river last year. He was drunk and decided to go swimming, only he got stuck under a shopping trolley and the currents swept him away. He couldn’t get out,’ he said, his voice cracking with the emotion.
‘And you liked the sound of that?’ 

‘No. But then it will be over. After all that, it will be over.’ 

‘Or it will be the beginning of a new kind of pain. As soon as you’re in that water, no matter how much you want it, you’ll panic. You’ll fight it. You’ll struggle to take in oxygen and your lungs will fill with water because, even though you think you don’t want to live, your instinct will be to stay alive. It’s in you to want to stay alive. As soon as the water is drawn into your larynx, another natural instinct is for you to swallow it. Water will fill your lungs, which will weigh down your body, and if you change your mind and decide you want to live and try to get to the surface, you won’t be able to. And the thing is, there are so many people around you right now, they’re ready to dive in and rescue you – and do you know what? You think it’ll be too late, but it won’t be. Even after you lose consciousness, the heart will carry on beating. They can give you mouth-to-mouth and pump out the water and fill your lungs with air again. They could save you.’ His body was shaking and not just from the cold. I felt him go limp beneath my arms. ‘I want it to end.’ His voice shook as he spoke. ‘It hurts.’ 

‘What hurts?’ 

‘Specifically? Living.’ He laughed weakly. ‘Waking up is the worst part of my day. Has been for a long time.’ 

‘Why don’t we talk about this somewhere else?’ I said, concerned, as his body went rigid again. Maybe it wasn’t a good idea to talk about his problems while he was hanging off the side of a bridge. ‘I want to hear everything you have to say, so let’s get down now.’ 

‘It’s too much.’ He closed his eyes and spoke more to himself. ‘I can’t change things now. It’s too late,’ he said quietly, leaning his head back so that it rested by my cheek. We were oddly close for two strangers. 

‘It’s never too late. Believe me, it’s possible for your life to change. You can change it. I can help you,’ I said. 

I didn’t want him dwelling on the negative, on whatever it was that had sent him here. ‘Fine,’ I said confidently, ‘If your life doesn’t change, it’s your decision what you do. But I’m telling you that it can. I’ll show you. You and me, we’ll do it together, we’ll see how wonderful life can be. I promise you.’ 

‘It’s a deal,’ he near whispered.

How To Fall In Love - Cecelia Ahern 

take heart

everything is gonna be ok. :)

How to overcome fear of meeting new people?

Be positive that there are plenty of other awesome people like me around! :D

awesome read!

What I Learned About Life After Interviewing 80 Highly Successful People

Read more: http://www.businessinsider.com/life-lessons-from-highly-successful-people-2014-12#ixzz3jjnkkIyo

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glorious ruins;

When the mountains fall
And the tempest roars You are with me
When creation folds
Still my soul will soar on Your mercy

When the world caves in
Still my hope will cling to Your promise
Where my courage ends
Let my heart find strength in Your presence

I'll walk through the fire
With my head lifted high
And my spirit revived in Your story
And I'll look to the cross
As my failure is lost
In the light of Your glorious grace

Let the ruins come to life
In the beauty of Your Name
Rising up from the ashes
God forever You reign

And my soul will find refuge
In the shadow of Your wings
I will love You forever
And forever I'll sing

*A part of me am aware that my story in Taylor's isn't finished yet.
And yes, thank You that my failure is lost, as I look to the cross - in the light of your glorious grace.

This is my song, Amen.

Today, I learnt..

that when someone trusts you enough to share their stories in life with you, they trust you enough not to judge them.