21st December!

hello world!! Time is flying super fast which is so depressing =( Holidays are coming to an end and I don't want to go back to school!! I guess it'd be all fine if all my good friends were around together. But gotta stay optimistic! Heh. I don't think it's really the friends who's the factor, but it's the activities that are gonna happen next year which are a little disturbing =/ I've got to set my heart on this goal!! Stay determined! And I'm gonna pray to God for this strong will in me that won't die during trials or whatever stuff :D

anyway, been spending some time with my sister and it's disappointing how she's not gonna be here when I turn 16. So sad! I was so looking forward to it to have dinner together but she's not gonna be here, so I guess it's gonna be a lunch instead. Then what am I gonna do for the rest of the day?? o.o err..... and for the rest of the week which is the last week of holiday in 2011 before school starts? So sad oh. Could actually do so many things together and go out.. haiiih. Really sad, but oh well, it's life I guess.

Then I was telling my mum how reluctant I was to attend school next year and she told me how it's important to appreciate high school for the reason that everybody knows. I guess it was just a reminder for me. I pray to God that I will have a good life forevermore! =)

20 December 2011

Anyeong all!! =) Sis is back, so have been trying to spend as much time with her as possible since she's gonna be here only for a week. Weird, but yeah. But, happy time with family! =)

family is always good.

Yesterday, me and my sis went to get our hair and nails done. And boy, I wasted sooooo much time just waiting for my sis to get her hair permed. I'm not complaining about the long wait, I'm just sad that I didn't bring my laptop over or even just any book to keep me company. I've been trying to finish series like foooorrrreeevvveeeeerrr but I'm not sure why I just can't seem to. Lol. I've only watched 3 series this year, and only 1 completed o.o like what is the problem with me man? I watched more than 6 last year? I think it's a lot more..

BEEEEENNN GAINING WEIGHT o.o this is not a good sign! i hope I won't grow any bigger and that I won't be a fat person when I'm an adult. Especially when adolescence is over for me, and after I give birth to many babies. Lord, this is my prayer!!

went to church today and went up to the really top place where the cool peeps (the people who do backstage) crawl around just to get around the wires and fix things. it was so cool. scary too. but epic. hahahah great experience. wanna go paragliding one day!!! :D

Merry Christmas everybody! May you have a merry merry merry christmas! =)

Hello world!! Have been eating quite a lot lately oh, till I got my tummy really bloated =( Like today, I was really full then my dad wanted to have tea break. So he ordered for me. And the serving was so big! And my dad wouldn't really help me eat so I had to finish em.. Then when I got home, after a full dinner, my kakak made herbal tea which cannot be kept overnight, had to drink.. And i baked some brownies, not working too well :P so have to go and check and have a bite every 10 mins.. And i made myself wheat grass, gotta finish =( super super bloated . . .

Anyway, I went to the police station today. Cuz my dad had to settle his friend's stuff. Got me oh so dissapointed there =( true colours of the people....

I just pray that God will continue to protect Sabah and the world and pray that there'll be less corruptions and that the world will be a better place to live in. :)

15th of December!! Oh crrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppp, school's starting super duper soon! super afraid of sports day :( really hope to get in with Tasha, Davina etc etc. Sister's coming back on Sunday! And that's super good news :D family is always good.

I miss 2PM!!!

always in my heart!! <3

25 11 11 [SUPEREPIC!]

OMG!! The concert was sooooo good!! Like super awesome, super great! Like omiggggaaaaawwwssssssshhhh! Just feel so surreal man! Me, Krystell and her cousin went there around 4 and saw stalls by the street selling unofficial merchandise. I'm not too sure why, but it was pretty funny and amusing :P not in a bad way, just it seemed pretty interesting. hehh. I was so exciteddd lah!! Like it was just hard for me to believe that these people you often watch on TV are alive! Moreover, they're in a room you are about to enter. SO YEAH, it was cool!! We sat down and waited outside for about 2 hours, then people stood up for no reasons, then we went in. People were squeezing, squeeezingggg. There were so many Malays!! Malay girls with tudungs. (no offense, i don't mean anything bad :O)

MERCHANDISE I GOT:

my beautiful boys <3

These are folders that I got. =))

And these are the lightsticks I got. The blue ones costed RM 10 each (unofficial ones). But the other one is the official lightstick sold by a Malay girl who was going to the concert too (she was really funny) and it costed RM 40. It says Nichkhun on the lightstick btw =)

Anyway, we sat at the last row (pretty good view from the side) and next to us were two Malay hottests! hahahhahahaha so funny, we chatted and stuff. The stage wasn't that far from us as expected, it was alright. Pretty good actually. Like it wasn't like they appeared like ants or whatever, they appeared like humans. :D omggggoooshshh just so freaking awesome lahh and daeebaakkkkk.

I tried to lose my voice, but not sure if it worked!! throat hurts a lil, but voice is still there...

This is the stage seen from where I sat. Yepeun nae? :)) i thought it was really pretty and cool. ahhhhh epicnesssssss.

And this is the crowd with their lightsticks on. Beautiful don't you think? I thought it was so pretty even without decorations. Really pretty =)

Ya know, when it all started, I saw Taecyeon on the screen, and geeez I just couldn't stop screaming and stomping my feet!!! :O (I still have that first picture I saw in my head!!!) I thought I was just gonna scream but my feet wouldn't stop moving as well lol. Super super super fun!!!!! And their performances were awesome. Wooyoung's hair was super cool. The lighting, the atmosphere (pic above), the sound system were quite okay. It was just uhmazing. Loveddd how they sang I'll Be Back after showing a long video, how Taecyeon went into the crowd (like omggggaaawwwwsssssssshhhhhhhhhhh), how Chansung took off his shirt at last etc. Just basically everything was awesome. So professionally done! Ya know, I kinda felt like crying out of joy and happiness and love, but I couldn't. It's kinda cool how I had that feeling lol :P shows that I'm a true hottest!! <3

Me and Krystell with our tees and lightsticks!

i know you don't see anything. too bad, sorry :P

And then Junho and Wooyoung did a duet. After that, they were supposed to change and sing I Can't with other members on stools. Other members changed, only both of them didn't. Then Wooyoung took off his red jacket, then Taecyeon was like "Take it off, take it off, take it off..". Then Wooyoung gave a cheeky smile while taking off his jacket but inside was a black singlet. So yeah. Hahaha.

And you know what? Junho said "Saya akan balik lagi" or something like that. But they did promise that they're coming back again. Taec said so too =) Oh btw, Nichkhun's family was there! Sitting on the chairs next to the rock pit people. =( Didn't get to pay attention to them. Mmm.

"How does it feel sexy dancing in front of your family, Khun? =)"

And you know, during epic moments like I'll Be Back, I'm Your Man (when they tore their shirts :P), Without You, Hands Up etc etc, I kinda jumped from my seat cuz my veins were just tickling me all over. Then there was this once I jumped, and two guards behind me were shocked from me jumping abruptly. Then I turned around, they were discussing how I suddenly did that :P hahahahah it was hilarious. Then there was this guard walking up and down the stairs then girls were screaming really loud and he was sorta 'soothing' his ears. When I saw that, I screamed even worse which caused him to freak a lil too. hahahahaha. EPICNESS!!!

After everything ended, went to check out the front places with Krystell, geeeez you could see them soo claearly from there! Imagine Wooyoung, Junho, Junsu dancing in front of your eyes!! o.o But I'm thankful xD so yeah, good enough.

Anyway, thanks Krystell for bringing me! Really hope we'll bond more more more. love u! God bless!!

GOODNIGHT JUNSU, NICHKHUN, TAECYEON, WOOYOUNG, JUNHO AND CHANSUNG! 2PM is forever with hottests!! (that's what you said, Nichkhun!! ;) ) <3 YOUUU!!!

omg still can't believe I actually saw all of them in person, like it feels so weird o.o

anyways, photos will be posted up soon? didn't take much, too blur.

chalja everyone =)

DEFINITELY ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS IN MY LIFE! =) XOXO

2 - 3/12/11

HELLOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL DEEECEEEEMBERRR!!! =) My favvvourite month of the year.

ST Force Training was held on these days. Didn't wanna go at first, cuz of my swollen eye. But as I was thinking again if I should go, suddenly I saw water on my pok ngan choi, then the pass came out!! woohoooo. Then I thought, this must be a sign from God :P hahaha

anyway, the camp was fun! weeeeeeee. church tmr, loooooong day.

29/1111 - 30/11/11

CHURCH CAMP!!!!

Church camp was so good. Well, I enjoyed myself a lot. I could felt the feeling of reminiscent of me joining at around 8 or 9. I love those kinda feelings. It felt like... Home =) hehe. Well, it was just good. I went with a pok ngan choi tho. O.o haha.

Anyway, got to know a few cuteeee!! kids. Kids like Daniel Hong, Sean Chaw, Jordana Tham, Lydia etc etc. They were so sweeet. Daniel got the funniest award! Which is really funny. hahahah. I think he's super emo and cute, but Chloe thinks he's funny. Hahaha and he speaks with wavy tunes. Ahhh, like a story teller! =)

hahahhaha. You know, suddenly, a chick seemed like it was dying. And everyone went to check out what's wrong with it. Then, I think Chloe was the one who took it out of the box and put it on a plastic bag and left it on the table for the other kids to stare at. It was really funny cuz I was thinking like, a chick is dying and nobody really cares to do anything but just let the kids stand around the table and stare. hahaha. not that they didn't care, it just seemed that way :P

then, I was telling Daniel, "why don't you go and do a CPR on the chick since it's dying? And press its body?" (I did my fingers the way your supposed to press on a man's body if he's dying). Then he was like "ARE you maaAADDdd? The chick's dying and you want me to do this? (then he imitated my fingers)" Then he left. hahhaha. so cute!

My letter box and a letter from Daniel. haha

Sean is very cute too! Everyone of em is cute. =D

Thank you God for beautiful kids!

2PM CONCERT!

These are pictures I picked up just anywhere online to let you know more about the ASIA TOUR CONCERT!

Now this was the first thing I noticed when everything started!! Super important to me cuz it's the first view that goes into my eye :8

OMG, you know how lucky these girls ah? At Back2You, the boys and these girls were dancing really hot dances. And at one point, the boys were supposed to pull off the boyfriend tees the girls were wearing O.O ahhhh!! and I was like: "I want him to do that to me! Undress me!!! ahhHHHHhhhhHHHHhhh!!!" XD

This was Nichkhun and Taecyeon's duet singing My Valentine. Wearing checkers babeh!!

saranghae oppa <3

12/12/11

BEAUTIFUL DATE!

Idk why, but I just really like it hahaha. Too bad, I had a terrible terrible headache. To be honest, being sick seems a lil fun seeing how you are allowed to watch TV in the middle of the night after waking up from your looonnng nap! But apart from that, the pain is just excruciating. =S sick! ahhhh. Still having it a lil here and there. Hoping it'll get well soon!! =)

Sigh sigh, disappointment.

I don't know why I'm bringing this up all of a sudden, not being sensitive all of a sudden. Just yeah.

Anyway, I don't think I'm gonna hold on to this friendship and just let everything happens naturally. Of course, I'll still put in effort that is needed, but otherwise is left to God. =)

I guess I do have a choice eh? I have rights to be pissed off, to choose, to be cranky... Instead of just putting up with you guys doing so, and trying to please you guys and make myself unhappy and not get pissed at all. Even if I do, nobody cares.

Ciaao~

Hello!! Haven't been blogging much, gotta start doing it back so that I won't forget things that have been happening!

Anyway, I've been working for my pops. It's not so much of a work to be honest, it's just following him around wherever he goes. Dad said that he wants me to see the world and etc. So the interesting parts were: police station (disappointing :( ), cash a cheque!, went to town etc. And it's like my parents have breakfast out everyday, so I kinda got a lil bored of the food even only 2 days. Hehe. :D

Time is flying so so so fast! I know I post this almost EVERY time I blog, but I just can't help it. It's the 13th today! Still remember when it was only the 1st during church camp. Geeez what happened in between man? Ok, gotta recall now. After church camp, was STF camp. Then mummy went to SG and back on Monday, braces off, then work on Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday. Spent Thursday in church. Saturday and Sunday - church. Went out with friends yesterday... Ooooh, voila! There goes 13 days O.O creeeepy.

Anyway, yesterday went out with some good friends and I guess it was fun! :D hehe, it's always good to hang out with people you're comfortable with, instead of having to please and thinking what to say all the time. I love spending time with these people cuz even though we don't stick to each other like glue, as in we're not in the same gang in school, but we're like good friends by heart, and know that if any of us have any problem, it'd be our greatest pleasure to lend a hand. Love you guys! It really feels like home with these people =3 hahaha.

or

hahah

But the night wasn't so good. I waited for an hour ++ for my dad to pick me up cuz of his work, then since I had tea, my tummy was really upset. So I was a lil agitated and restless. Sighs. Then on the way home, I began to lose my focus on my eyesight, and everything got dizzy, my world was slightly turned, and I couldn't mouth words properly cuz I sorta forgot how to speak for a minute :P haha. it was just bad. Then tried so hard to sleep, and finally I got my rest and now I'm up! 12:51 a.m., good day people! My night has just begun! :D

28th of August

Hello!! It's that time of the year again, where I am feeling something really strong in me. If you don't really get what I mean, it's about me having the 'feel' to blog because I feel A LOT currently. Do you get me? hm.

Well, I feel very weird. It's a mixture of sadness + disappointment + doubts + ... It's a mixture of feelings, that makes me feel blue, and makes me think a lot. It's not like sadness to the extreme or anything just a mixture of all those. So it's nothing serious.

You know when your going through life, you may be disconnected with some friends all of a sudden, with you even realising it, maybe just coz both parties are busy with own lives, and you think that "oh, i bet that friend is doing just fine"or "oh, i bet that friend is still living his life he told me about" because your life is perfectly fine. So sometimes you don't make effort to ask about their lives coz you just assume their lives are just like yours. But what you don't know is that, even though you have been living life happily or maybe just perfectly fine, the other friend may not be. A lot of things can be happening yet you just don't know about it. And maybe that friend has been going through a lot all this while, yet you just don't know. And the next time you see that person changed, you just say "oh wow, you lost weight" or whatever stuff, when there's actually lots of stuff that happened which caused the change in them. It may be something good or bad, but you just missed that huge part of their lives which caused them to change. And as a good friend, it's just sad. So sad to miss an important phase in that person's life.

I feel really disconnected with people there. Your leader isn't feeling well, yet you are not told about it. So many members together in one group, yet you don't know a single thing. They haven't seen you in ages, and when they see you, it's just like everything's fine and great. When such important things have happened, and you have ABSOLUTELY NO CLUE. why wasn't I told about it? why? so so so many friends around.. you know, it just feels like err in country, where the something happened to the president and someone else is about to take his place, and all the citizens know about it are talking about it. then there's you, maybe who just got back from a holiday later not knowing about it. then having to find out your country has been ruled by some other stranger. do u get what i mean? u feel like u don't belong, and u feel entirely stupid and useless. if you get it, then that's pretty much how I feel now.

this world is soooo weird. like i said, you may be living life to the fullest, and assuming other people too, when every other person around is living lives entirely different from what you expected. in a good way, in a bad way, both. today, three friends' lives have shown me this fact.

but i guess this feeling is what makes me grow to another level of understanding in life.

this blog looks like crap. so dead and not pretty. gotta spice it up with some colours! toodles

CNY 2011

YELLOOOO!! :D

haven't blogged in such a looon time!

its currently Chinese New Year, yet I'm not feeling it :((

nononono this is bad. eeeekz.

holiday for about a week then it's sports day! geee!

its so creeepy.

:/ no training, no practice, n o t h i n g o.o

very creepy indeeddd.

PPS is one of the best programmes eveeeer. yet malaysia is going to ban it soon? O.O

OMG that could be one of my worst nightmares.

with PPS in my life, it sure has made it more colourful =)

without it, life's gonna be dull.

only some part of life, of course :) lol sry for being lame :))

OH, and one last thing,

do you know what it feels like to have lost a best friend?

and to learn that your used-to-be best friend has another best friend?

w.o.w...

regret.

One has many regrets in life.. Wish they'd done something or wish they hadn't make that choice so that they wouldn't miss one of the greatest oppurtunities in life which only comes one in a lifetime... One of mine is this : Not taking photo with him :((((((( so heartbreaking!!!

i saw him at one b!! :( :'(((((((((((

Little Hey Little Ho!

YOOOO. So long since I last blogged here. zZz.. It's the 6th of December now, speaking of how time flies!! It was a month or two ago when all the J3s were striving like hell or maybe not, for the PMR and UEC exams. And during those few torturing months which coz the sudden attack of acne on my face =.=, everyone were whining of how stressful the exams were and hoping this time of the year to come!! Now our dreams have become reality yet it's passing out super quick as well.. :S gaaah.

Well, one of the few things to definitely be excited for is CHRISTMAS!!!! :D the Xmas decorations in church are breathtaking!! See for yourself if you don't believe me.. They're really awesome. Especially the few christmas balls or whatever u call them :p surrounding the two huge bells up in the ceiling at the main auditorium!!! it could be like a dreamland :D

time to make a short conclusion abt this year! this year has been really really really challenging...:
- with my sis not being around and having to get used to do lots of stuff without her for the very 1st time O.O
- with friendships not being that cool
- with GK moving from Glory Hall to the bigger auditorium and having a distance with oth parties
- with PMR and UEC lol
- with pimples!! :(
- with having to start worrying abt fat now =.=
- with being a prefect
- with 1st time going to another country without my family
- with having to figure out what to do with my holidays without my sis driving me everywhere for watever things that we want
- with this "drama" lol

etc etc.

But then, we just have to keep going strong and not fall, because if we don't, we won't be able to see the rainbow after the rain rite? :D I truly believe in the quote "Everything happens for a reason". so whenever I have a rough time or anything, i'd recall of that quote and try to keep myself going. There had been tonsssss of tough times for me this year, but Mel said: "Tough times never last, but tough people do." mmmmmm.. deep. XD Isn't it pretty amazing how quotes can inspire and move people?? :p

Went to Kundasang for the multimedia and tech team retreat last week! And sure it was damn awesome!! Went to Hot Spring the next day and actually went back to the exact same spot of where i cut my fingers last year =D weeeeeee! DC sleepover was 2 days ago and i was in a group with Jordan, Andre, Fiona, Natasha, Alfred and Chris Michelle. I was being assigned as a leader which was pretty awesome coz that's my very very 1st time :D the team was great and the sleepover which pretty much sucked every bit of energy out of me was still pretty awesome. Memories memories ahh :)

PIMPLES suck! i thought it would have gotten better since exams have been over agesss zzz ago, but too bad it aint happening. One can only hope :( haiiih.

i had a to-get list for this hols during my exams.. hope they'll come superly amazing true! am wishing upon the twinkling star!!

tata~

heyllooooo

UPDATES

it's currently exams now in school.

life's been fine on the first side - school. but it's a little messed up on the other side?

geeee. :X

what happened?

hm wish i can turn time around so that we can go back to those moments..

but at the same time, i dont wish to, coz everything happens for a reason.. and

if things happened, it means you learn another lesson rite?

hm as in you grow more mentally, grow more mature and to be more cautious or careful when you do things eh?

maybe.. maybe yes maybe no. there are always pros and cons in everything eh? :X eeeeeek.

a true friend, is truly truly hard to find.. so when you have em', truly truly appreciate them eh? lolz.

don't miss this amazing, once in a lifetime opportunity.. this aint like hmmm.. idk haha but it's like a shooting star probs? don't miss the chance when you get caught of it, make a wish instantly.. err as in.. u get me :P hhaha sorry i suck at this. :X wannabe failed :p hahah

haiiih :(

well there's saying, " Don't be sad cause it ended, but be joyful instead cause it happened" rite?

anyways, school's been fine i suppose.

going to China in a week or two time!

going with the school's prefect board... so yeah.

haven't been to youth in a while nowwww.

well guess i'll only be able to be back around july probs?

well, hope it's gonna be sooner.

PMR and UEC are just around the corner!!

so fasttttttttt. eeekz.

here are some pictureeeees to entertaiin u, my bored readers :P

i was youuung. hahah this looks so cacat lol