i love You Daddy God ♥

had an amazing time @ KingdomCity today. Worship was so refreshing, tears lil :) thank You God for Your holy presence. I love KC! Felt like home :) Esp spending it with people i Love, & that sense of familiarity, so comfortable, so secure. Thank you girlies! <3

PIF.TU

I remember seeing this as a luxury back when I was little.

Last night midnight, I spent 200+ on wrong air tix due to being too impulsive.

God, You are good, I love You, I thank You.

:)

LOVED it :)

ice-cream joy :)

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got me going like, "Raaaaayyyymooooooonnddddddd..."

another cross+road

its been 2 and a half years..

i hope that they have not passed by in vain

Lord, give me wisdom!

And I pray for directions please.

That You may reveal Your plans for me.

I thank You for everything..

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and for these people who helped me through.
idk how i'd be like otherwise...
thank you :)

you're okay :)

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Do you need strength today? Sometimes it’s easy to get down and discouraged when you’re constantly looking at the circumstances of life. You may feel tired and weary from a long spiritual or emotional battle. But when you wait on the Lord, the Bible says your strength will be renewed.

Waiting on the Lord means you’re putting your trust and hope in Him. You’re living with an attitude of faith and expectancy. In the natural, if you are waiting for someone like a special dinner guest, you probably aren’t just sitting around the house wondering what will happen. No, you’re probably preparing for that special person, straightening the house and making sure everything is perfect for their arrival. Most likely, you started weeks in advance making the menu and deciding what to wear! In the same way, when you are waiting on the Lord, it doesn’t mean you are just sitting around. It means you are preparing for Him.

Are you ready for God to move on your behalf? Are you waiting on Him? As you take a step of faith, He’ll meet you there. He’ll renew your strength and lead you into victory in every area of your life!

Prayer for Today:
Father, thank You for Your promise to renew my strength. I choose to wait on You. I choose to trust You. I choose to prepare for You to move mightily in my life in Jesus’ name! Amen.

i touch the sky, when my knees hit the ground

got this song stuck in my head..
enjoy!  :-)

is it half-empty or half-full?

what happens when some things don't go our way? | what happens when we are desperate for a change in our situation? | do other people change? | do i change? | what happens when people don't change, which then forces me to be the change? |

Sure, maybe sometimes I've changed, but the situation would still feel the same. why what how then...?

True change really comes, with the change of perspective.
That subtle change that no one can really see but yourself. 
That change that no one can instill, but only you yourself.
And it's really up to yourself to keep holding on to it to gain strength,
Or be influenced by the worldly opinions that you just choose to desert that invisible change of perspective you feel does justice in settling your heart down.

|That mere deviation can set you free.|

And so many "How-to-" articles out there, their purpose of existence isn't really just to teach you life hacks, but using those experiences, serving to hopefully trigger your change of perspective.

Cuz honestly, once you've set your mind to something, nothing can really defeat you anymore..

road-trip

embarking on The Journey..

searching for the light at the end of the tunnel..

am i approaching towards that glimpse of light already?

am i already seeing ambiguous rays of light?

hmm..

what is Your word for me today?

This is grace.

My friend sent this to me. 

stepping stone

thank you for being the help that i need.

i love you both.

p.s. https://bethelmusic.com/videos/it-is-well-song-story-kristene-dimarco

always something to learn everyday

thank you, Norma for this timely reminder :)

the bigger picture

The other day after service, we went for lunch as usual with the homies with Jade sitting next to me. I was still recovering from the madness throughout the week, and hadn't fully settled in my right mind yet. As we went for the bill, I told Jade whilst pointing out the happy family of four at the corner, where the mum was settling one kid, and the dad another, "Wow. The simple life. Wouldn't it be nice to just marry off and live the simple life?"

"I smack you," Jade said.

Pat then joined in the fun, and laughed along with me, as she went on chatting about her future 'simple life' scenario, these 'ideal' dreams that we simply wish were not that farfetched, lol.

Seriously though, I found myself wondering, "would that really be what I want?" As much as I was aware I said it just at the spur of the moment, without any intentions at all, at that moment, a part of me, sorta gave in to hmm, defeat, complacency, and just decided to entertain that silly notion.

It also got me thinking, wow, do I really even need to go to law school at the first place? Like law school is tough man, it's hard. Was it silly of me to put myself through all this, all these challenges that drain me like never before, these new experiences of really tasting 'the going gets tough'.. Like, in life, there are choices, and I could freely chosen the easy way out. Maybe I could have gone and went on with something which I already established that golden touch before. Thus life'd be so much easier. Or I could just crawl back to my KK corner, and be fully embraced by KK love, safe and secure in a cocoon. "Why put yourself through the pain?"

I wondered and tried to visualize, how'd it be like, to live the 'easy' life? And the image that popped up in my head was from last March, me lying restlessly on my mum's bed in my shorts and tee, with the fan spinning, the heat just invading the atmosphere, I flipped through the channels continuously, bouncing back and forth between the same few channels, scrolled through the social media apps in my phone back and forth, me dreading the idea of sleep to kill time - it felt like I slept so much that my eyes were so sick of it... I remember feeling so inspired by some meaningful movies that I'd come across, wishing I'd have that experience, hoping that I can make a change in the world, have something that I can call mine too, instead of sitting down there... rotting. Like, yes, the word to put it is 'rotting'. I was desperately looking for something to fill that void inside of me..... life felt so stagnant and meaningless...  

it'd drain the soul out of me. it's not me..

>> which reminds me of what Ps Andy said during Revo Party.
Ps Andy said that humans, we are built for adventures. God has created each and every one of us to be curious, always searching for more. He shared that what conceals this fact and belief which in turn lies to people that they're prone to complacency and are simply 'not the adventurous type', is our past mistakes and failures. We are afraid of disappointments, hence we choose to let fear halt us, and choose not to even start trying.. 

Recently, I had forgotten to count my blessings..

I had been taking for granted what could not have been mine, if otherwise..

What a shame, i'm sorry.

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we fight not because God is safe,
we fight because God is good.

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“When your mind wants to bolt, but your heart hangs on, it is because you don’t know with absolute certainty what the truth is. When you waste so much time on something that you want to believe is true, you begin to overthink things. Eventually, something obvious becomes twisted into something absurd, which keeps us from believing a simpler answer. Over time, you believe your own lies and fantasies to shield yourself from hurt, when following what is logical would have been the quickest way to healing. It is through your own self-imposed delusions that you lose your perspective. The world then becomes different to you when in fact you are different. Why? Because your own ego gets in the way. Everyone wants to feel special. Everyone wants to have faith in others. Everyone wants to believe in fairytales, happy endings and have all bad interactions with others explained. It is easier to sit in denial with your delusions and pray God will intervene, not realizing he has. He gave you commonsense and intuition, but you didn’t like how it made you feel. This is what true mental illness really is: Following your gut instinct through hell because you want to prove you are right, either to yourself or others. You sacrifice choosing to do right, in order to avoid pain. However, you don’t realize that you have been in pain for a really long time and believed this was how happiness felt.”

—	Shannon L. Alder