time flies.
i wish i could dig to the bottom of the sea just to find out why.
tomoro's the first day of school, and i haven't packed a thing yet. im kinda afraid and intimidated but the packing thing is definitely not the cause. LOL. its not coz of junior 3, or pmr, or uec. its about something else.
singing lessons maybe? oh yeah.
volleyball? yuup.
running? perhaps.
becoming a prefect? of course.
making new friends? its fine.
trying to keep the friendship strong between me and my besties and things like that? uhhuh.
and etc etc? definitely.
i wish i could stand stronger and be more confident and have faith in God in every single thing that i'll do, every single task that i'll perform and obstacles that i'm about to overcome. i dont wanna wish anymore lol, i want to. hm. LOL.
im currently 14 coming to 15, and people everywhere are starting to leave for further studies. i mean people leave every year, but it seems as if this year, most of the people are leaving. especially discovery club peeps. maybe im feeling this way because these peeps are actually the ones that i socialize with? :O or maybe its cause my sister is leaving. looool. my kakak is leaving as well. so im like gonna be at home alone. sleeping in my own room with nobody on my left and on my right. LOL sounds so sad and empty. anyway, im having PMR and UEC this year. so many friends of mine are nervous and are starting to prepare for them, while honestly i don't feel a thing :S and thats bad. i guess probably i dont feel that way because i thought i wasn't gonna take them and was going to study in a place where i can get to my dreamland america. that's not happening anymore though. im a prefect next year :O or have i said that ady. lol. went to this prefect camp last week and it wasn't at all as i expected. it was waaaay waaaay tougher and it was super strict. thought it was gonna be all fun fun and more and more and more fun! though, i still had a great time and im darker again. i seem to get darker every 2 weeks? LOL. hm that camp made me doubt my decision of becoming this school polis. LOL. and i missed being a monitor. but i have made up my mind long ago without thinking much lol, and i shall stick to my decision. :S aiks.
after all that crap :p
im going to miss you tons.
wish you could stay for IS or s3, but thats not even possible. LOL.
you have been prodigious and astonishing and you have done your job well. :D hah.
you truly are one of a kind, extraordinary and i bet in the whole wide world, it would take a gazillion years or never, someone like you would be found.
all the best in ALL that you do. and God freaking freaking loves you.
and bring back stuff for me when you come back :P jks. hope you'll be back for christmas and i wanna pray that that singapore trip will happen and etc etc. the list goes on...
finally, thank you for everything and i truly appreciate e v e r y t h i n g .
X O X O
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i mean it :p LOL
