26.03.2014

It's been year, and this stage is coming to an end. It's rather exciting yet dumbfounding simultaneously at how swiftly time flew by. As I've repeated before, I'd never realised that where I am now is how much I ached to reach since last year. Many days felt like forever, and I guess with numbness, I lost track of time and just neverendingly tried my best to seek the best out of each day. Now it seems like what's done was as if sprinkling salt over the healing wound. And as it became a habit and it recuperated bit by bit, im here.

I have a habit of being repetitive, I kinda keep track of my feelings. I've read something that goes something like this, "amidst all your bad days, you'll come across a good day, a great day even. Make sure you remember how warm it all felt, like how a small fire ignited in you, hold on to it, and never let go." To conclude, I have a lot of feelings haha. You crack me, and that's all you get haha.

Anyway, trials is on the go, and it hasn't been a very jolly ride. I just can't wait for it to pass. There's always a gazillion things pacing my head, then I always get so distracted. To top it all off, my feelings get into me and sometimes, my actions will be very much reliant on my emotions. It sometimes dictates what I do which messes the execution of my responsibilities. I really have to always pray for focus and peace.

Oh, and it's really sad that MH370 ended this way into the South Indian Ocean. I pray that their souls will rest in peace, and that something actually 'good' will materialise from such exorbitant lesson. I pray that their family members stay strong during this tough time too, they'll need all the strength they can get. I pray that such catastrophe never happens again, that everyone self-reflect, and be a better person each passing day.

OHH and never forgetting,  HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED MUMMY! You've been stringent my whole life, yet you're the one I miss most when I fall sick, or get hungry, or need a lil pampering. I love you, and I pray that you'll always always always be happy. ♡ :D

Better in time

my seemingly close to perfect home~

Durians the other day :)

Lalalalalalarfve

Never been less grateful.

Not forgetting..

The ever lovely Ezra Fitz / Ian Harding :))) ♥

candy crush

Let me walk you through a list of heartthrobs, who at least got my heart skip an extra beat at one point or another, LOL.

shooo cuteee

:)

I think I used to have this in my purse :P LOL haha

xoxo

This is gonna be worth your time.

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/sideviews/article/tragedy-of-mh370-and-the-malaysian-elite-wan-norman
SIDE VIEWS

 Tragedy of MH370 and the Malaysian elite – Wan Norman

MARCH 19, 2014

You are the Malaysian elite, the ruling class in the country.  You may be the prime minister, a minister, or a head of major Malaysian corporations, or top civil servant, the police, the army or the judiciary. 

Inclusive are also supreme promoters of the “sons-of-the-earth”, who do not like the “newcomers”. 

What you are not are any members of the opposition, liberal NGOs at odds with your dogmatic worldviews, the non-mainstream media, and 51% of population who voted against you in the last general election.

It was so cosy to be part of the ruling elite. You may act with impunity and not questioned.  Juicy contracts abound, let’s build another highway and give to that judge. 

A person died after falling off a building during a corruption interrogation and someone gets slapped with a desk job.

Threaten to slaughter members of a race and paint the streets red, or publicly offer money to slap a woman, and no one apprehends you. 

However, a seasoned lawyer gives a legal opinion on a constitutional matter and clearly he is seditious and loses his parliamentary seat.

You don’t like another person who seems to be perilously close to a position of power and very quickly he is a sodomite with five years to spend reading books in his cell.

Wasn’t it so comfy to be part of the establishment in this country?  You do not get asked difficult questions.  The press is servile to the point that Myanmar’s political regime is envious of Malaysia’s. 

If you say the Earth is flat and the Sun revolves around it, the mainstream press would probably trumpet these “facts” the next day, front page, adding what an astute observation that is. 

more than just a pretty face

This MH370 thing is just really depressing. It's so sad, and I just pray for speedy closureeee!!!!

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Homesickness has been kicking in real bad these days.. haha. and my very cute parents aren't helping. i'm pretty relieved all they told me was 'don't stress' when I told them about the exam.. mm. oh btw, Bristol offered me a place too, condional. So that concludes my UCAS application, and just praying for the best of the future!

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oh, and me lurve you too :)
there'll always be this shoulder for you to lean on if you need it,
though it may make u a bit awkward
since you're OBVIOUSLY taller than me right

p.s. this post isn't posted on the current date!

DubzdubDubz

There's this thing about me where I'd shut myself out/up at some point, the same point very repetitively. I was this way when I had to train for MICSS, when mooting wasn't my forte, when I was terrible at accounting.... and during exams.

Fish head noodles ftw

Yayyy one of #100happydays indeed. Hehe.

bieber says hi! (fri)

Had been spending these few days in the library, trying to study as hard as I could.
Perhaps I didn't try as hard, but yeah, I'm just always trying.

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Anyways, just got back from outing with ze pretty ladies :))
It's always nice and heartwarming whenever we reunite < 3 #blessed

 

ze very special people in my life.

california gurlz

Just came back from camp on Saturday night, and boy, I've got sun-kissed skin so hot it'll melt your popsicles ;)

Despite the much hesitance of attending the camp as the student facilitator, I'm glad it turned out well in the end. Camps are most of the time like my adrenaline pump, I just pray for clean - or rather a lil better than livable facilities around, that's like the perfect catch. Having such space to roam around in the most homey clothes ever, playing ball, being out in the sun, wandering around everywhere, flexing every inch of my muscle, followed by sweating (call me gross :P) etc are such of the things I really appreciate when going to camps.

With Taylor's being all indoors, and air-conditioned everywhere, it feels like a restrained space that doesn't tolerate much madness. Going nuts just don't seem like the right buttons to push over here. Hence, camp was also fun on one side where you get to see people dress down, and unveil the other side of them :) :) and also, i love how camps tend to bring people closer! esp when your a clean freak, and you can never run far from your buddy to go shower together, or just bask in the 'ambience' tgt, Lol.

I was a lousy camp facilitator, cuz it's been a while since I got this much space for me to just move, hence, sitting down supervising my group was the last thing that'd please me. I ended up tagging in the activities along with Mark. I felt bad, honestly, but then it was fun too. I'm so sorry for being a meanie guys -.-

and then we went to eat Chilli PanMee at Super Kitchen! :D omnomnomnom. it was great to spend time with em lovely peeplee like Ms D Nat Markie and sho on :)))

Anyway, i actually wrong a long post, and it was unsaved, so I can't seem to express myself the same again - which is a pity. but yeah, i'll post some photos when i get em! :))

yayyy, i need to buy a volleyball when I get home.

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"The best gift you can ever give someone, is being a great friend."

it's just a less sunshiney kinda feeling

today's been a great day, great activities, great friends.

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

Ms D farewell / JOJO panmee

Dear God,

Grant me the patience to wait for the perfect timing, and continue to build and enrich me during this time of waiting.

Amen.