2 - 3/12/11

HELLOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL DEEECEEEEMBERRR!!! =) My favvvourite month of the year.

ST Force Training was held on these days. Didn't wanna go at first, cuz of my swollen eye. But as I was thinking again if I should go, suddenly I saw water on my pok ngan choi, then the pass came out!! woohoooo. Then I thought, this must be a sign from God :P hahaha

anyway, the camp was fun! weeeeeeee. church tmr, loooooong day.

29/1111 - 30/11/11

CHURCH CAMP!!!!

Church camp was so good. Well, I enjoyed myself a lot. I could felt the feeling of reminiscent of me joining at around 8 or 9. I love those kinda feelings. It felt like... Home =) hehe. Well, it was just good. I went with a pok ngan choi tho. O.o haha.

Anyway, got to know a few cuteeee!! kids. Kids like Daniel Hong, Sean Chaw, Jordana Tham, Lydia etc etc. They were so sweeet. Daniel got the funniest award! Which is really funny. hahahah. I think he's super emo and cute, but Chloe thinks he's funny. Hahaha and he speaks with wavy tunes. Ahhh, like a story teller! =)

hahahhaha. You know, suddenly, a chick seemed like it was dying. And everyone went to check out what's wrong with it. Then, I think Chloe was the one who took it out of the box and put it on a plastic bag and left it on the table for the other kids to stare at. It was really funny cuz I was thinking like, a chick is dying and nobody really cares to do anything but just let the kids stand around the table and stare. hahaha. not that they didn't care, it just seemed that way :P

then, I was telling Daniel, "why don't you go and do a CPR on the chick since it's dying? And press its body?" (I did my fingers the way your supposed to press on a man's body if he's dying). Then he was like "ARE you maaAADDdd? The chick's dying and you want me to do this? (then he imitated my fingers)" Then he left. hahhaha. so cute!

My letter box and a letter from Daniel. haha

Sean is very cute too! Everyone of em is cute. =D

Thank you God for beautiful kids!

2PM CONCERT!

These are pictures I picked up just anywhere online to let you know more about the ASIA TOUR CONCERT!

Now this was the first thing I noticed when everything started!! Super important to me cuz it's the first view that goes into my eye :8

OMG, you know how lucky these girls ah? At Back2You, the boys and these girls were dancing really hot dances. And at one point, the boys were supposed to pull off the boyfriend tees the girls were wearing O.O ahhhh!! and I was like: "I want him to do that to me! Undress me!!! ahhHHHHhhhhHHHHhhh!!!" XD

This was Nichkhun and Taecyeon's duet singing My Valentine. Wearing checkers babeh!!

saranghae oppa <3

12/12/11

BEAUTIFUL DATE!

Idk why, but I just really like it hahaha. Too bad, I had a terrible terrible headache. To be honest, being sick seems a lil fun seeing how you are allowed to watch TV in the middle of the night after waking up from your looonnng nap! But apart from that, the pain is just excruciating. =S sick! ahhhh. Still having it a lil here and there. Hoping it'll get well soon!! =)

Sigh sigh, disappointment.

I don't know why I'm bringing this up all of a sudden, not being sensitive all of a sudden. Just yeah.

Anyway, I don't think I'm gonna hold on to this friendship and just let everything happens naturally. Of course, I'll still put in effort that is needed, but otherwise is left to God. =)

I guess I do have a choice eh? I have rights to be pissed off, to choose, to be cranky... Instead of just putting up with you guys doing so, and trying to please you guys and make myself unhappy and not get pissed at all. Even if I do, nobody cares.

Ciaao~

Hello!! Haven't been blogging much, gotta start doing it back so that I won't forget things that have been happening!

Anyway, I've been working for my pops. It's not so much of a work to be honest, it's just following him around wherever he goes. Dad said that he wants me to see the world and etc. So the interesting parts were: police station (disappointing :( ), cash a cheque!, went to town etc. And it's like my parents have breakfast out everyday, so I kinda got a lil bored of the food even only 2 days. Hehe. :D

Time is flying so so so fast! I know I post this almost EVERY time I blog, but I just can't help it. It's the 13th today! Still remember when it was only the 1st during church camp. Geeez what happened in between man? Ok, gotta recall now. After church camp, was STF camp. Then mummy went to SG and back on Monday, braces off, then work on Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday. Spent Thursday in church. Saturday and Sunday - church. Went out with friends yesterday... Ooooh, voila! There goes 13 days O.O creeeepy.

Anyway, yesterday went out with some good friends and I guess it was fun! :D hehe, it's always good to hang out with people you're comfortable with, instead of having to please and thinking what to say all the time. I love spending time with these people cuz even though we don't stick to each other like glue, as in we're not in the same gang in school, but we're like good friends by heart, and know that if any of us have any problem, it'd be our greatest pleasure to lend a hand. Love you guys! It really feels like home with these people =3 hahaha.

or

hahah

But the night wasn't so good. I waited for an hour ++ for my dad to pick me up cuz of his work, then since I had tea, my tummy was really upset. So I was a lil agitated and restless. Sighs. Then on the way home, I began to lose my focus on my eyesight, and everything got dizzy, my world was slightly turned, and I couldn't mouth words properly cuz I sorta forgot how to speak for a minute :P haha. it was just bad. Then tried so hard to sleep, and finally I got my rest and now I'm up! 12:51 a.m., good day people! My night has just begun! :D

28th of August

Hello!! It's that time of the year again, where I am feeling something really strong in me. If you don't really get what I mean, it's about me having the 'feel' to blog because I feel A LOT currently. Do you get me? hm.

Well, I feel very weird. It's a mixture of sadness + disappointment + doubts + ... It's a mixture of feelings, that makes me feel blue, and makes me think a lot. It's not like sadness to the extreme or anything just a mixture of all those. So it's nothing serious.

You know when your going through life, you may be disconnected with some friends all of a sudden, with you even realising it, maybe just coz both parties are busy with own lives, and you think that "oh, i bet that friend is doing just fine"or "oh, i bet that friend is still living his life he told me about" because your life is perfectly fine. So sometimes you don't make effort to ask about their lives coz you just assume their lives are just like yours. But what you don't know is that, even though you have been living life happily or maybe just perfectly fine, the other friend may not be. A lot of things can be happening yet you just don't know about it. And maybe that friend has been going through a lot all this while, yet you just don't know. And the next time you see that person changed, you just say "oh wow, you lost weight" or whatever stuff, when there's actually lots of stuff that happened which caused the change in them. It may be something good or bad, but you just missed that huge part of their lives which caused them to change. And as a good friend, it's just sad. So sad to miss an important phase in that person's life.

I feel really disconnected with people there. Your leader isn't feeling well, yet you are not told about it. So many members together in one group, yet you don't know a single thing. They haven't seen you in ages, and when they see you, it's just like everything's fine and great. When such important things have happened, and you have ABSOLUTELY NO CLUE. why wasn't I told about it? why? so so so many friends around.. you know, it just feels like err in country, where the something happened to the president and someone else is about to take his place, and all the citizens know about it are talking about it. then there's you, maybe who just got back from a holiday later not knowing about it. then having to find out your country has been ruled by some other stranger. do u get what i mean? u feel like u don't belong, and u feel entirely stupid and useless. if you get it, then that's pretty much how I feel now.

this world is soooo weird. like i said, you may be living life to the fullest, and assuming other people too, when every other person around is living lives entirely different from what you expected. in a good way, in a bad way, both. today, three friends' lives have shown me this fact.

but i guess this feeling is what makes me grow to another level of understanding in life.

this blog looks like crap. so dead and not pretty. gotta spice it up with some colours! toodles

CNY 2011

YELLOOOO!! :D

haven't blogged in such a looon time!

its currently Chinese New Year, yet I'm not feeling it :((

nononono this is bad. eeeekz.

holiday for about a week then it's sports day! geee!

its so creeepy.

:/ no training, no practice, n o t h i n g o.o

very creepy indeeddd.

PPS is one of the best programmes eveeeer. yet malaysia is going to ban it soon? O.O

OMG that could be one of my worst nightmares.

with PPS in my life, it sure has made it more colourful =)

without it, life's gonna be dull.

only some part of life, of course :) lol sry for being lame :))

OH, and one last thing,

do you know what it feels like to have lost a best friend?

and to learn that your used-to-be best friend has another best friend?

w.o.w...

regret.

One has many regrets in life.. Wish they'd done something or wish they hadn't make that choice so that they wouldn't miss one of the greatest oppurtunities in life which only comes one in a lifetime... One of mine is this : Not taking photo with him :((((((( so heartbreaking!!!

i saw him at one b!! :( :'(((((((((((

Little Hey Little Ho!

YOOOO. So long since I last blogged here. zZz.. It's the 6th of December now, speaking of how time flies!! It was a month or two ago when all the J3s were striving like hell or maybe not, for the PMR and UEC exams. And during those few torturing months which coz the sudden attack of acne on my face =.=, everyone were whining of how stressful the exams were and hoping this time of the year to come!! Now our dreams have become reality yet it's passing out super quick as well.. :S gaaah.

Well, one of the few things to definitely be excited for is CHRISTMAS!!!! :D the Xmas decorations in church are breathtaking!! See for yourself if you don't believe me.. They're really awesome. Especially the few christmas balls or whatever u call them :p surrounding the two huge bells up in the ceiling at the main auditorium!!! it could be like a dreamland :D

time to make a short conclusion abt this year! this year has been really really really challenging...:
- with my sis not being around and having to get used to do lots of stuff without her for the very 1st time O.O
- with friendships not being that cool
- with GK moving from Glory Hall to the bigger auditorium and having a distance with oth parties
- with PMR and UEC lol
- with pimples!! :(
- with having to start worrying abt fat now =.=
- with being a prefect
- with 1st time going to another country without my family
- with having to figure out what to do with my holidays without my sis driving me everywhere for watever things that we want
- with this "drama" lol

etc etc.

But then, we just have to keep going strong and not fall, because if we don't, we won't be able to see the rainbow after the rain rite? :D I truly believe in the quote "Everything happens for a reason". so whenever I have a rough time or anything, i'd recall of that quote and try to keep myself going. There had been tonsssss of tough times for me this year, but Mel said: "Tough times never last, but tough people do." mmmmmm.. deep. XD Isn't it pretty amazing how quotes can inspire and move people?? :p

Went to Kundasang for the multimedia and tech team retreat last week! And sure it was damn awesome!! Went to Hot Spring the next day and actually went back to the exact same spot of where i cut my fingers last year =D weeeeeee! DC sleepover was 2 days ago and i was in a group with Jordan, Andre, Fiona, Natasha, Alfred and Chris Michelle. I was being assigned as a leader which was pretty awesome coz that's my very very 1st time :D the team was great and the sleepover which pretty much sucked every bit of energy out of me was still pretty awesome. Memories memories ahh :)

PIMPLES suck! i thought it would have gotten better since exams have been over agesss zzz ago, but too bad it aint happening. One can only hope :( haiiih.

i had a to-get list for this hols during my exams.. hope they'll come superly amazing true! am wishing upon the twinkling star!!

tata~

heyllooooo

UPDATES

it's currently exams now in school.

life's been fine on the first side - school. but it's a little messed up on the other side?

geeee. :X

what happened?

hm wish i can turn time around so that we can go back to those moments..

but at the same time, i dont wish to, coz everything happens for a reason.. and

if things happened, it means you learn another lesson rite?

hm as in you grow more mentally, grow more mature and to be more cautious or careful when you do things eh?

maybe.. maybe yes maybe no. there are always pros and cons in everything eh? :X eeeeeek.

a true friend, is truly truly hard to find.. so when you have em', truly truly appreciate them eh? lolz.

don't miss this amazing, once in a lifetime opportunity.. this aint like hmmm.. idk haha but it's like a shooting star probs? don't miss the chance when you get caught of it, make a wish instantly.. err as in.. u get me :P hhaha sorry i suck at this. :X wannabe failed :p hahah

haiiih :(

well there's saying, " Don't be sad cause it ended, but be joyful instead cause it happened" rite?

anyways, school's been fine i suppose.

going to China in a week or two time!

going with the school's prefect board... so yeah.

haven't been to youth in a while nowwww.

well guess i'll only be able to be back around july probs?

well, hope it's gonna be sooner.

PMR and UEC are just around the corner!!

so fasttttttttt. eeekz.

here are some pictureeeees to entertaiin u, my bored readers :P

i was youuung. hahah this looks so cacat lol

say helloooo to..

HELLOOO PEEPS!

it's been a while since i last blogged eh? :p

well, the exams were over and i pretty much suckeeed at them.

my marks dropped 10 marks :(

ZITS! ugh they suck.

:p

oh and do u know that GREY'S ANATOMY is back on star world with season 5? or 6?

how awesome is thatttttttttttttt.

verrrrrrrrrrrrry verrrrrrrrrry awesome.

i wanna get all of em if i could hmm.

big trip going on in june!

we're going to GuangZhou, ShenZhen and HongKong

hope i'll know how to shop :p

hahhhhh.

lamezzz

has been busy with school work and stuff eeeeks.

btw, im lovin' IF WE EVER MEET AGAIN by Timbaland ft Katy Perry!!

awesshuuuum.

oooooooh and youtube sure has got prettier!hah

my phone is dead..

sad :(

hmm oh well.

tata!

18th of February. mm

time flies :S

and i know that's practically all i say every time i post something up. hah.

oh well..

it's the current week of CHINESE NEW YEAR and i've only been to like 3 houses?

but nvm, i believe there's more to come :D hah.

watched Valentine's Day today with my fellow classmates and it was sooo romantic. mm. hm.

watched Wolfman on monday with house-mates :p and it was scary.

it was really funny how eeling slid down the chair :p

i bet nobody gets even a bit what im talking about :S aiiks.

sports day's waaaaay over :S, and zits are popping out!

eeek. it's like invading me, in many ways :p. Lol.

maybe it's a sign of sadness that sports day's in the past. oh well..

wonder when's the house party? am so looking forward to it.. hm.

today's already thursday, and school's reopening soon.

gonna face tons of tests and exams.

this really is what ex j3 peeps used to say isn't it?

oh well. :S :)

though, i kinda miss my classmates and the fun we have in school :D

being a prefect is pretty fun actually despite all the marching/barisan training? or anything you call that and other stuff :p tho it sounds nerdy hahh.

you get trips to many many places and as far as i've experienced, or maybe soon to experience, we're going to TAIWAN in June. :DDD

and i've got a feeling that it's gonna be great, great and fantastic :D

it had been really quiet at home till my brooooother came back o.o

wish my sis was here to celebrate cny so that she can take me out everywhere where my parents won't ever doubt us :p

haha and gaaaaaaaaamble like last year with ian, ivan and peeeeps :D i won! :O :P

and to gamble with jeviria!

got this from sam's blog :) and i just can't stop reading it. ahah.

SPORTS DAY!!

I have taken tons of pics. but well, lazy to upload so yeah.

SPORTS DAY HAS BEEN AMAZING/FANTASTIC/AWESOME and saddening.

well im kinda sad coz of the fact that its over, and we can't hang out with the senior 3 people anymore, plus our captain's leaving soon. well that's heartbreaking :/

I don't know why, but i somehow find this year's sports day waaaaaaay better compared to the prev 2 years.
well no offense ok? :)

but yeah.

I had tons and tons and tons of fun more that before.

:(

well im so sad :/ aiiiiiiiks.

a lot of things have been happening.

and well, i hope that you'll go away and stay outta my life for as long as possible.

stop messing with my life.

last but not least?

thanks to all the people who supported our house and me and everything. appreciate it to the max!

xo

twenty-ten

i wish i could stop saying this but somehow i just cant? loool. :S

time flies.

i wish i could dig to the bottom of the sea just to find out why.

tomoro's the first day of school, and i haven't packed a thing yet. im kinda afraid and intimidated but the packing thing is definitely not the cause. LOL. its not coz of junior 3, or pmr, or uec. its about something else.

singing lessons maybe? oh yeah.

volleyball? yuup.

running? perhaps.

becoming a prefect? of course.

making new friends? its fine.

trying to keep the friendship strong between me and my besties and things like that? uhhuh.

and etc etc? definitely.

i wish i could stand stronger and be more confident and have faith in God in every single thing that i'll do, every single task that i'll perform and obstacles that i'm about to overcome. i dont wanna wish anymore lol, i want to. hm. LOL.

im currently 14 coming to 15, and people everywhere are starting to leave for further studies. i mean people leave every year, but it seems as if this year, most of the people are leaving. especially discovery club peeps. maybe im feeling this way because these peeps are actually the ones that i socialize with? :O or maybe its cause my sister is leaving. looool. my kakak is leaving as well. so im like gonna be at home alone. sleeping in my own room with nobody on my left and on my right. LOL sounds so sad and empty. anyway, im having PMR and UEC this year. so many friends of mine are nervous and are starting to prepare for them, while honestly i don't feel a thing :S and thats bad. i guess probably i dont feel that way because i thought i wasn't gonna take them and was going to study in a place where i can get to my dreamland america. that's not happening anymore though. im a prefect next year :O or have i said that ady. lol. went to this prefect camp last week and it wasn't at all as i expected. it was waaaay waaaay tougher and it was super strict. thought it was gonna be all fun fun and more and more and more fun! though, i still had a great time and im darker again. i seem to get darker every 2 weeks? LOL. hm that camp made me doubt my decision of becoming this school polis. LOL. and i missed being a monitor. but i have made up my mind long ago without thinking much lol, and i shall stick to my decision. :S aiks.

after all that crap :p

im going to miss you tons.

wish you could stay for IS or s3, but thats not even possible. LOL.

you have been prodigious and astonishing and you have done your job well. :D hah.

you truly are one of a kind, extraordinary and i bet in the whole wide world, it would take a gazillion years or never, someone like you would be found.

all the best in ALL that you do. and God freaking freaking loves you.

and bring back stuff for me when you come back :P jks. hope you'll be back for christmas and i wanna pray that that singapore trip will happen and etc etc. the list goes on...

finally, thank you for everything and i truly appreciate e v e r y t h i n g .

X O X O

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i mean it :p LOL